My Only One (Jalex)

Alex's POV:

"Please hold your papers in the air. Mr Merrick and myself will collect them in."
That was it, the very last exam over. The kids were already starting to chatter amongst themselves as we collected in the papers, despite it technically still being in exam conditions. I let it slide though, it was their final exam, it's forgiveable. I walked up the first isle, collecting the papers off the relieved looking students. I reached Jack, he seemed a lot more relaxed, he seemed to have calmed down a lot. I collected his paper, purposefully brushing my fingers against his as I did so, sending shivers down my spine. Even after all this time he still had a huge effect on me. Each time we kissed it was like our first kiss all over again. Every time I held him I felt tingly all over and it was a beautiful feeling.

Zack joined me at the front of the hall, setting the pile of papers on the table at the front. Students were already starting to move in their seats, anxious to get out of the hall and out of the school. I had something to announce though.
"Right, I know that you all want to get the hell out of here but I've got something to say before you go. It's been a pleasure teaching here and being head of this school. Even though it's only been a year, not even that, I have grown attached to this school. It's been amazing here and I honestly wits each and every one of you all the best in your future, whether you're going to college or you're spending the remainder of your life in front of the TV watching Family Guy at ridiculous hours in the morning. Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm leaving."
Gasps could be heard around the entire hall, including from Zack. I had good reasons though.
"I've loved every second of being here and I'm happy to have seen such a bright year filled with lovely people improve and aim for the best. I am incredibly proud of you all, really, I am. Not that any of you really care, but I will be moving to the other side of the state as a job opportunity has arisen. Thank you all for one of the best years of my life. I'll be at graduation and at your prom, so it's not goodbye yet but I just wanted to take the time to thank you all whilst you're all in one place. Now, go! Get out of here, I'll see you at graduation and prom!"

I wiped away a stray tear that had rolled down my cheek- I didn't think saying goodbye would be so hard. Jack caught my eye, he looked so distraught, so let down. He didn't move, he stayed in his seat, staring off into space. Once all the students had left the hall, I nodded at Zack, silently telling him to leave too. He knew about Jack and I so it wasn't an issue.
"You're leaving me, Lex. You promised you wouldn't."
"Hey, now. Listen to me for a second. Firstly, it's not all finalised yet, it could fall through, Secondly, I was going to ask you if you would like to move in with me...properly. I don't mean move into a house I already lived in. I mean, buying our own house, decorating it ourselves and having our first house together. So...what do you say?"
"I don't know...it's a lot to take in."
"I know, Jay but I've already thought about this. It sucks but we can't be together if we don't move. What do you think will happen if next year I waltz in here and suddenly everyone knows I'm dating you? I don't mean that in a horrible way, Jay, because you know I love you more than anything in this world, but I'd lose my job and we'd be in the shit."
"Yeah, I get that, Lex. But...the other side of the state? That's a long way away. What about Rian?"
"You could still keep in touch, he could come down or something some time. I'm pretty sure you're going to tell him about us some time or another."
"Not without asking you first though..."
"But you wouldn't have to. I trust you."
Jack looked so beaten down. I understood how hard it would be for him to move, it's hard for me too. We've both got some really good and bad memories tied up in this area but maybe it would do us both good to get away from it all, to start again.
"You don't have to make a decision now anyway. Like I said, it might not even be final, I've still got the job here if everything goes tits up, Jay. Come on, let's head off."
Jack nodded, stood and waited for me to grab the exam papers to be taken to the exam coordinator to be sent off to the exam board to be marked. There was tension between us, understandably, but I couldn't help but think that I had fucked up our relationship.

-

How could I be so stupid? Springing something like that upon Jack without telling him first was totally uncalled for, it was a dick move, to be frank. Jack had gone up to our room as soon as we got into the house, slamming the door behind him, making me flinch and Freddie jump in his cage. I went into the kitchen and shut the door behind me. I let Freddie out for a bit so he would get used to his surroundings. I hated myself right now. Jack was just starting to relax again, to finally be truly happy and I'd just gone and fucked it up completely. He'd hardly uttered a word in the car on the way home, only asking me where exactly we would be moving to if he agreed. I was scared. I couldn't lose Jack. I needed him. I knew what I was going to do.

I ushered Freddie back into his cage, him not being too happy about his freedom being short lived and ran up the stairs, taking two at a time. I came to our bedroom door and stood outside of it, trying to pluck up the courage to go in there. I hesitantly pushed open the door and looked through the gap in the door. Jack was sat cross legged on our bed, his laptop resting on his knees. He seemed to engrossed in whatever he was doing on there to have noticed me come in. Perfect. I stepped all the way in, closing the door softly behind me.
"Alex, listen, I-"
"No. I wanna talk first. I can't lose you, Jack. You're all I've got really. Yeah, I've got my parents but they hardly talk to me any more. You're everything to me and I think it'd just break me if we had to be away from each other. It scares me how much I love you, Jack, it really does because I've never loved anyone like I do you, I've never felt love so strong either. You make me so fucking happy and without you I'd go back to the old me. I would just be constantly down all the time. I'd be a shell of what I am now. I love you so much and I'd do anything for you. If you didn't want to leave, I'll stay. I'll find another job or something. I just can't be without you, Jay."
By now I was on my knees in front of Jack, my hands clutching to the sheets on the bed. He probably thought I was being pathetic but I didn't care. I just needed him to know how I felt.
"Get up here, Lex."
Jack patted the spot next to him on the bed, smiling slightly in my direction. I did as he said, getting to my knees and sliding onto the bed so I was sat next to him, although not too close: I didn't know how he was feeling. Jack typed some things onto his laptop before spinning the screen towards me.
"What do you think of this house?"
I stared at Jack in disbelief, my jaw hitting the floor. A million questions were flying through my head right now. Had he agreed? Was he just messing with me? Was he serious? He was okay with leaving Towson?
"Well? Say something..." He urged, a smirk tugging at the side of his lips.
"It's beautiful, Jay. But...I though you were-"
"Yeah, but I did some research and it looks beautiful. I looked at houses too and found this one." He clicked through the different images of the inside of the house. It was perfect for us. It was smaller than what we had now but it was more us. It suited us. We didn't need a massive house though, not for just the two of us. This house had four bedrooms, one really only being big enough to be an office. Two of the rooms had en suites and the previous owners had converted the attic into some sort of recording studio. The downstairs was equally as nice. A sizeable lounge with a separate dining area that lead onto a fairly big kitchen. The garden was big enough too.
"It's great, Jay."
"Good because we're going there tomorrow to view it."
"But you need an appointment for those kind of things, Jay."
"I know, that's why I called the agent and booked one for 2 in the afternoon."
"You're something, Barakat. You really are something."
Relief washed over me as I digested what had just happened. Jack had agreed to moving with me. He had agreed. I was so happy. I felt my eyes well up with tears I was that happy.
"Hang on, Jay. Are you sure about moving?"
"Yeah, I've got nothing to lose. I mean, my sister stormed out of here and I've not spoken to her since, my mom isn't here any longer and my dad, well, he might as we be dead. To tell you the truth, I've been getting bullied at school for coming out... It's only Rian and Kellin I really talk to now and well, Kellin will be with Vic and Rian hasn't stopped talking about this girl called Cassadee. Neither of them are going to miss me that much. As long as I'm with you though, I'm happy."
"Why didn't you say anything about being bullied, Jay?"
"I could handle it on my own."
"You're lying, I can tell."
"Okay, it was bad but, look, I'm here, aren't I? I'm okay. It'll be over now that we're moving anyway. I kind of want to get away from here: there's too many bad memories."
I pulled Jack into my side, kissing the top of his hair softly.
"I know what you mean, Jay. I want to get away too. Plus, we could go out together and not have to worry about getting caught or getting recognised. It'll be a fresh start for the both of us, a fresh start that I think we both need."
"I agree, Lex. We need this."
Jack tilted his head up so he could place his lips on mine. I loved kisses like these, knowing that they wouldn't go any further than a simple kiss. They were always so full of love, so passionate. I fell onto my back, pulling Jack with me so he was now lying on me. He tangled his hands in my hand, twisting the strands between his fingers. I wrapped my arms around his waist, placing my hands on his hips. This was what real love felt like. Sharing something so simple as a kiss yet it feeling like a thousand butterflies were fluttering in your stomach. It was beautiful. I live for moments like these, where we could just be us without having to hide from anyone. It was pure bliss and I don't think I'd ever get enough of it. I'd never get enough of Jack.

-

Jack and I were now lying in bed, holding each other as we were sharing lazy kisses. Jack pulled away and rested his forehead against mine.
"You're perfect, Lex."
"That's you, babe, trust me."
Silence fell upon us once more. We lay there, staring into each other's eyes with small smiles tugging at the corner of our lips. I brushed some hair out of Jack's eyes, my hand lingering on his cheek.
"How did I get so lucky? You're more than what I could dream of, Jay."
"I don't know, but I know that the feeling is mutual. I love you so much."
"I love you too."
Jack pressed his lips to mine once more, breaking apart a few minutes later. He settled down further into the sheets, sighing.
"I love it when you're like this, Jay. You're so relaxed and at ease and it shows. You look so at peace, so happy. You're so beautiful too. Just the way your eyelashes cast small shadows on your cheeks whenever you blink. The way your eyes look at me, so full of love and care. You, as a whole are beautiful."
Jack was blushing ferociously now, his cheeks a bright scarlet colour.
"Shut up," He mumbled. He tried to hide his cheeks behind his hair, now brushed free of the hairspray, but failed. I kissed each cheek, making him blush more, before settling further into the bed.
"Come on, we need to sleep. We've got a big day tomorrow"
Jack hummed in response before kissing me and turning off his bedside lamp.

I fell asleep holding the person I love the most with exciting thoughts of starting a fresh, new life, in a new house with my boyfriend.

Notes

Hi,

I don't really have anything to say...I'm boring.

I hope you enjoyed the fluff :) Thank you for reading etc. It means a lot. Thanks to everyone commenting too, it's awesome to read and reply to them. I'm starting to enjoy writing a little more now so that's a good thing.

Thanks,
Em x