Dear María

I woke up in a hospital bed, as you may expect, but Jack wasn’t anywhere to be seen. It’s been a few hours, almost midnight, since the incident and I was looking around the completely white room when a doctor walked into the room.
“Miss Mussons, I’m glad you’re awake already” he sounded british. He looked at the paper he held in his hands.
“Where’s Jack?” I felt so numb right now, I guess I’d been anesthetized.
“Your boyfriend’s outside, talking to another doctor” he smiled at me, a fake smile, “You were pregnant, right?”
I nodded, tears threatening to fall again.
“I’m sorry for your loss” he put a hand on my shoulder and walked out the room, “Call a nurse if you need anything”
I need Jack, not a nurse, you idiot. I laid there a few seconds and I couldn’t help but blame myself.
It’s my fucking fault.
I should’ve locked the door.
Should’ve ran away.
Or joining Jack and the guys from 5SOS in the first place.
I repeated the same lines in my head over and over and didn’t notice Jack entering the room.
“María!” he sat next to me and hugged me tightly against him, pulling me up. “I’m so so so sorry”
“It’s my fault” I sobbed, burying my face in the crook of his neck.
“Shhhh, it’s not” he sounded like he had been crying as well, “I should’ve been with you”
“It wasn’t your fault, Jacky, I told you to go and have fun” I said, “By the way, did you?”
He thought about his answer, afraid he’d hurt me if he said yes.
“Hmm, yes” he hesitated.
“I’m glad” I smiled a bit, “I went to see Stella when you left”
“Really? How is she?” he tried to put a happy voice, but it sounded a bit fake.
“She’s alright, she has two andalusians next to her in the paddock area and the people there are awesome”
“I’m glad you had a bit of fun” now he sounded disappointed with himself.
“J-Jack” I looked at him, tears welling up in my eyes again.
“Yeah, baby?” he put a hand on my back, rubbing soft circles on my back.
“I-I want to r-report him to t-the p-police” I cried.
“Good” he kissed my hair, “I hope he rots in jail” he spat, “No one messes with my girlfriend, less when she’s pregnant” then there was a bit of awkward silence.
“Jack” I started to shake slightly.
“Yes?” he said in a soft tone and wraped his arms around my waist.
“I’m so fucking sorry” I cried again, “I-I…”
“Don’t worry about that, babe. Shit happens” he whispered in my ear, “The important thing here is you’re okay” he brushed my hair with his fingers.
“I’m such a failure” I said to myself.
“Don’t say that” Jack pulled away and made me look at him, “You’re such a beautiful person, inside and outside, and you have such a big heart. You’re fucked up, let’s be honest, but you’ll get better. You know why?” I shook my head no, “Because you’re so much better than that” he gave me a small smile, “And I didn’t fall in love with you for no reason” he kissed me lovingly and, when he pulled away, he looked at my face, studying my features, like the time we started to hang around, and blushed.
I loved how he blushed infront of me like the first time we met, it made my stomach fill with butterflies.
“I love you so much, Jacky” I looked into his eyes, then to his lips and back to his eyes.
“I love you too, sweetie. And I want you to remember that” he pecked my lips again.
That’s when a doctor entered the room, followed by two police officers, I looked at Jack.
“I may have called them earlier to report him myself” he bit his lip and I chuckled a bit.
“Hello, I’m John Harrison, the head of the police here in Baltimore, and this is my assistant, Lola Black” he montioned a brunette girl next to him, “We knew you wanted to report someone?” I nodded. Jack squeezed my hand.
“Mikel Iglesias, he’s spanish but he seems to be stalking me here” I said quietly.
“Right, why do you want to report him?” he shot a quick look at Jack, I guess they talked earlier.
“For abuse, rape and- one question” he gave me a look which made me continue, “Can I report him for abusing me for killing my unborn child?” I asked, saying the words fast.
“Well, not exactly, but in court that’d be a big plus in your favour” he explained, “Now tell me about it”
I took a deep breath and felt Jack’s squeeze again, and told him everything about my abusive relationship with him. How good we were at first and how things started to go wrong from there, the kid, the thing in Bristol, in the european tour. Everything.
“Is there any medical document that proves it all?”
“Hmm, yeah. If you call the hospital I went in Spain, they’ll give you the information. The name’s Teknon” his assistant wrote it down.
“Alright, thankyou for your information, we’ll inform you if something’s up” he stood up from his seat and his assistant and him shook hands with Jack and I, and they walked out of my hospital room.
I sighed loudly and Jack pulled me into a hug.
“I’m so fucking proud of you” he kissed my temple and my cheek, then the tip of my nose and my lips.
“I am as well” I admitted.
“Hey, baby” I looked at Jack with a smile.
“Yes, Jack?” I asked with a small flirtarious smile.
“You’ll tell me when you’re ready to try again?” he asked.
“Hmm, Jack, I, hmm…” I looked away, “Could we not rush it? I-“
“It’s fine, but we can still have sex, right?” I chuckled at his worried expression.
“Of course, just try not to rip the condom next time” he started to blush and I kissed him.
“That’s the smile I was looking for” he said when we pulled away, a smile on my lips.
“Only you can make me smile when I’m like this” I said in an almost inaudible voice.
“I love you, parakeet” he pecked my lips again, now a true smile on his as well.
“I love you too, raven” I smiled back.
Then there was a comfortable silence, both of us submerged in our own thoughts.
“María” I looked at Jack.
“Yes, Jack?”
“I told my mom our… story, is that okay?” he sounded concerned.
“It’s fine, Jacky” I put a hand on his raspy face, “You need to shave” I giggled.
“You need to cut the ends of your hair” he pointed out with a chuckle.
“We have a deal, then?” he nodded and kissed me lonvingly.
“Also, I told her about this, err… incident, and you know what she told me?” he said when we pulled away.
“What?” I smiled at him.
“First of all, that we weren’t ready to have a kid” I nodded, we weren’t really that ready, “And she told me to tell you not to worry, because when kids are this diffult to have, it means that when we finally have one, it will be much worth it” I smiled at that. Joyce had such a way with words.
“Thanks for telling me, Jack” I pecked his lips and put my hands around his neck.
“No problem” he smiled at me and cupped my face with one hand, “I love you so much, you can’t even imagine” he whispered in my ear.
“I love you a lot too” we stared at each other for a while until the doctor I found in my room earlier entered and I rested my head on his chest.
“Well, I’ve talked to some doctors and the gynecologist confirmed you can go now” he informed us.
“That’s awesome” I turned to Jack, who gave me a small smile.
“Yes, but you’ll need to be careful, miss. If you feel any lower pains or anything, I suggest you come to do a quick check up” I nodded and he continued, “So that’s all” sigh, “I hope you do okay, and, young gentleman?” Jack’s head shot up, “Take care of her, a miscarriage it’s a very traumatic experience” Jack nodded and the doctor smiled weakly at us before walking away. I stood up and started to look for my clothes, as I was not connected to anything.
“Don’t worry about your clothes, I’ve brought you some” Jack turned me around, putting his hands on my waist.
“Thanks, Jack” I smiled at him and he held up a plastic bag that contained my clothes. I saw a blue and white striped T-shirt and smiled at myself, “I see you brought my Espanyol T-shirt” I smirked.
He chuckled and hugged me from behind, kissing the back of my neck.
“Jack, will you please let me change?” I said softly.
“Caan I heelp yoouu?” he sang like a little kid.
“Fine” I chuckled, “Who undressed me, by the way?”
“Some nurse” he shrugged, “Now put your hands up”
He bit his lip and removed my robe and helped me put my clothes on. After that, we went back home.

Notes

God, I thought I couldn't update today D: Well, here you go, I really didn't know what to put in here because I'm planning future chapters, so bare with this :)
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Title credit: Saviour by Black Veil Brides.