I'm gonna break down these walls...
The flavour of your lips is enough to keep me here
Me and Alex spent the whole of yesterday just talking. I showed him my legs. He kissed each individual scar. He was so damn perfect and I'm just, well, me.
He went home last night late. I was up all night scared Alex would cut again when I wasn't there to save him. I could feel myself falling for him but I wouldn't, I couldn't, I would end up hurt. I know I would.
I woke up the next day from my doorbell ringing. I quickly ran downstairs my hair doing what the fuck it wanted. I saw Alex's grinning face as I opened the door. His pink dye was slowly fading into a light pink. His caramel hair sat perfectly across his forehead and he had a tartan shirt on that was half unbuttoned that showed his white vest. His skinny jeans grabbed his legs in the most perfect and attractive way. Gahhh he was perfect.
"So am I allowed to come in or are you just going to stand there eyeing me up all day?" He winked at me making my insides melt.
"I think I'll just eye you up all day thanks." I said returning the wink. I let him in and lead him into the kitchen. I flicked the kettle, "tea or coffee?" I said smiling opening the cupboard above me.
"Tea please honey." I blushed at the honey part. Damn you jack. You and your stupid blushing.
"Sugar?" I asked politely.
"One please." Alex said grinning. I hope he couldn't read my thoughts because all i wanted to do was throw him on the table and kiss every inch of his perfect body. But I didn't.
Once we had finished our tea we headed to my room and sat on my bed exchanging smiles.
"Jack, you won't make me wait forever will you?" Alex said pouting.
"Who said you'll even have to wait?" I said smiling at him. He looked confused so crawled over to him and pressed him up against my bed. He cocked his eyebrow and I bit my lip. I kissed him, sweetly but roughly. I was now sitting on top of him with my legs spread across his crotch. He sat up and I pulled his collar to pull him towards me. He licked me bottom lip and I opened my mouth to let him explore. He made his way down my neck, nipping every now and then soothing the pain with his tongue. He slowly moved his hand up my top and I helped him take it off. I unbuttoned his shirt and took off his vest. I kissed his stomach and he let out little giggles.
"Jack that tickles!"
"Shh, Alex, or I'm going to have to punish you." I said winking at him.
"Hmm, maybe I'll just keep on giggling and you'll have to punish me."
"Hmm Gaskarth, If you don't shut your dirty little mouth I'll shut it for you." I smiled and licked my lips. I kissed him roughly exploring his mouth with my tongue. Alex unbuttoned my jeans. I put my hand on his chest and shook my head.
"Not today Lex." I said sighing. "I-I'm not ready." Alex smiled.
"It's okay jacky." He kissed my cheek and we fixed ourself up.
I felt something in my pocket vibrate and I saw an unknown number calling me, I picked it up. "Hello?"
"Is this Jack Barakat?"
"Yes, why are you calling?"
"Your mother Joyce Barakat has been found dead." My head began to spin. My own mother? Found dead? I dropped my phone and locked the bathroom door. Tears started streaming down my face. I reached for my blade. I was so upset I wasn't even cutting, I started fucking sawing my wrist. I'd never cut my wrist before and it was slightly less painful. The blood started oozing out dripping onto the floor.
"Jack are you in there?" Alex started banging on the door. Then my vision went black and I fell onto the floor, i guess i must have passed out.
He went home last night late. I was up all night scared Alex would cut again when I wasn't there to save him. I could feel myself falling for him but I wouldn't, I couldn't, I would end up hurt. I know I would.
I woke up the next day from my doorbell ringing. I quickly ran downstairs my hair doing what the fuck it wanted. I saw Alex's grinning face as I opened the door. His pink dye was slowly fading into a light pink. His caramel hair sat perfectly across his forehead and he had a tartan shirt on that was half unbuttoned that showed his white vest. His skinny jeans grabbed his legs in the most perfect and attractive way. Gahhh he was perfect.
"So am I allowed to come in or are you just going to stand there eyeing me up all day?" He winked at me making my insides melt.
"I think I'll just eye you up all day thanks." I said returning the wink. I let him in and lead him into the kitchen. I flicked the kettle, "tea or coffee?" I said smiling opening the cupboard above me.
"Tea please honey." I blushed at the honey part. Damn you jack. You and your stupid blushing.
"Sugar?" I asked politely.
"One please." Alex said grinning. I hope he couldn't read my thoughts because all i wanted to do was throw him on the table and kiss every inch of his perfect body. But I didn't.
Once we had finished our tea we headed to my room and sat on my bed exchanging smiles.
"Jack, you won't make me wait forever will you?" Alex said pouting.
"Who said you'll even have to wait?" I said smiling at him. He looked confused so crawled over to him and pressed him up against my bed. He cocked his eyebrow and I bit my lip. I kissed him, sweetly but roughly. I was now sitting on top of him with my legs spread across his crotch. He sat up and I pulled his collar to pull him towards me. He licked me bottom lip and I opened my mouth to let him explore. He made his way down my neck, nipping every now and then soothing the pain with his tongue. He slowly moved his hand up my top and I helped him take it off. I unbuttoned his shirt and took off his vest. I kissed his stomach and he let out little giggles.
"Jack that tickles!"
"Shh, Alex, or I'm going to have to punish you." I said winking at him.
"Hmm, maybe I'll just keep on giggling and you'll have to punish me."
"Hmm Gaskarth, If you don't shut your dirty little mouth I'll shut it for you." I smiled and licked my lips. I kissed him roughly exploring his mouth with my tongue. Alex unbuttoned my jeans. I put my hand on his chest and shook my head.
"Not today Lex." I said sighing. "I-I'm not ready." Alex smiled.
"It's okay jacky." He kissed my cheek and we fixed ourself up.
I felt something in my pocket vibrate and I saw an unknown number calling me, I picked it up. "Hello?"
"Is this Jack Barakat?"
"Yes, why are you calling?"
"Your mother Joyce Barakat has been found dead." My head began to spin. My own mother? Found dead? I dropped my phone and locked the bathroom door. Tears started streaming down my face. I reached for my blade. I was so upset I wasn't even cutting, I started fucking sawing my wrist. I'd never cut my wrist before and it was slightly less painful. The blood started oozing out dripping onto the floor.
"Jack are you in there?" Alex started banging on the door. Then my vision went black and I fell onto the floor, i guess i must have passed out.
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