Inflicted

He opened his eyes and blinked a couple of times to adjust to the brightness. He felt something warm and looked over to see Jack tightly holding his hand. He smiled and slowly shook Jack trying to wake him up. The older stirred before opening his eyes in shock.

“ Alex! Are you okay? Oh god! I was so worried. The doctor said you have an illness and I was so scared. I thought you were going to leave me and I almost broke down. You have been unconscious. for three days and I...”

“ Shut up.” Alex snapped sitting up.

“ What?”

“ Stop pretending like you care! You're probably upset that I’m not dead because you hate being friends with me and don’t have the courage to say it. Right?”

“ What the hell are you talking about? Who said that huh? Who fucking said I don’t care about you? I care so much but you don’t care do you?”

Alex stood shocked trying to clearly process what he just heard. Jack said he cared but how could he believe it. That’s what everyone told him. That’s what Zack had once told him. The memory caused the young male to unknowing shed a tear.

“ I’m sorry. I didn’t want you to cry.” Jack apologized pulling the younger in his arms.

“ It’s fine. I’m also sorry.”

“ It’s fine. I gotta go to work but I’ll try to stop by before visiting hours end.”

“ Okay.”

“ Bye.” he said giving Alex a quick kiss on the cheek before running out. Alex smiled actually feeling okay with it. He suddenly felt stuffy so he stood up and decided to go on a walk.

He felt his entire body and mind relaxing as he walked around the garden; inhaling the fresh air. It’s been so long since he got to just walk around and feel free. Alex looked over and saw the back of a person who was trying to reach a apple from a tree but he was short. He walked over and chuckled.

“ Need help?” he inquired reaching a hand out behind the stranger.

“ No. I’m fine.” the low voice said still trying to reach. That voice sounded familiar but why? Alex just chuckled again and reached his hand out just as the shorter male jumped causing them to fall on the ground; Alex on the ground with his arms securely wrapped around the smallers waist. The smaller groaned and lifted his head before freezing.

“Zack?” Alex choked not believing what he was seeing. Zack’s lips were chapped and his face looked like it shrunk. Zack’s face looked like it lost the sunshine that he had before.

“ Alex?” Zack chocked.

“ hat happened to you?” Alex asked in a low voice; almost in a whisper while caressing the youngers face.Alex stiffened and shivered before relaxing in the touch. Zack immediately stood up and scoffed.

“ Did I say you could touch me?” Zack scoffed putting on a disgusted look.

“ Zack.” Alex called trying to reach out.

“ Don’t touch me! I don’t want to see your face ever again you bastard!”Zack spat running away inside the hospital. Alex’s heart tightened and his fist clenched. Why would he expect him to change after all these years? Zack was a selfish bastard back then and he still is.



Alex looked over at the bench and noticed a phone. He picked it up and froze at the screen. It was a picture of him and Zack when their school went on a camping trip. He remembered how they stayed up late talking about random things while everyone else was fast asleep. He remembered when someone pushed him in the lake and he jumped in to save him because Zack had a breathing problem.Alex smiled because that lucky ass always got to skip anything that was physical in gym class. He just sat on the bench and cheered for everyone; but mostly himself. He remembered how they would always pair up for every activity and everyone felt jealous because they had such an inseparable relationship. Alex smiled at the memories but why would he still keep this?

He slid the phone and tried to think of what could be that babies password. He tried their pet names and failed. He tried Zack's name and failed. He put his name in and it opened which shocked him. Why would his name be the password? He looked at the photos and every single picture of them together were still in their. The songs that Alex composed and made for him were in there. He looked at his notes and noticed his name on almost everyone of them.

December 20, 2008
Class was boring just like normal except for we got a new student and let me just say. Damn! He’s hot. I approached him and we got really close. I hope we become good friends

January 5, 2009

We finally came back from winter break and I was so excited. I don’t know why but I thought about Alex all break. He’s so cute. why am I thinking of him?

February 14, 2009
Alex gave me chocolates and was going to ask me something but the stupid fangirls came and bombarded us with gift. They are so annoying and they always come at the wrong time. I looked up and Sehun was gone. I was upset because I wanted to ask him to be my valentine.

April 12 2010
It’s Alex’s birthday today and I spent the whole weekend ignoring him because I wanted to plan the best surprise for him. I ordered a chocolate cake since that’s his favorite flavor and wrote ‘ I love you Alex, will you accept my heart?’ on it. I was so excited because I was going to confess. I got the party designs and everything set up at my house. I went to the doctor since my mom has been bugging me about my headaches and random pass outs. I was okay because I could still attend the party later. I went to get my check up and found out that I have cancer. My mom sat there crying for a hour while I stood emotionless. I was gonna die. What was the point in confessing to him? I went to the party and the night went on as if nothing happened. Everyone left and Alex brought me to the park. He told me his biggest secret and I felt like crying. I wanted to hug him and say it was okay but I scoffed. I made fun of him and left him alone. My heart is shattered and I’m crying my heart out.

April 20 2010

Alex and I haven’t talked since his birthday and he still came over and brought me a gift. I felt myself weakening and I wanted to hug him but I just slammed the door in his face. The happiest day of my life became the worst. I really deserve to die.

September 16 2010

I went to school and Alex wasn't there. I went to his house and everything was gone. The house was on sale. I broke down and had my first panic attack. He left. He’ll be better without me. I know he will. Good bye Alex. I hope you are happy and don’t forget I love you.

October 19 2013

I woke up in my hospital room and suddenly realized I had a dream about Alex. Damn! I missed him so much but why would I suddenly dream of him.? I just hope I get to meet him again once before I die. I always wonder how he turned out. Is he happy? Does he have a family? He’s better off without me anyway. I hope I dream of him again. Goodnight Sehun.

Alex looked at the phone and noticed today was the 20th. That means Zack had that dream yesterday. Alex sat on the bench and his tears repeatedly came out. Zack loved him this whole time and he didn’t even notice. Zack was dying and he ran away. How could he be this selfish? He continued pounding on his heart trying to calm his breathing. He wiped his tears away and sniffed. He walked up to the reception and asked the lady for Zack’s room; not knowing that Jack was following behind confused.

He breathed in and out while he took slow steps towards Zack’s room. He gripped Zack’s phone tightly in his hand. He slowly opened the door and peeked in. His stomach turned and he wanted to look away but he couldn’t. Zack’s face was so pale and he was sweating profusely. One nurse was holding his hand while another was injecting him with a needle. The nurse finished and Zack ran towards the bathroom.

“ What’s going on with him?” Alex asked as the nurse came out.

“ He was having a panic attack. Someone or something must have triggered it but he’s gonna be in and out for awhile. This one seems to be the worst out of them all.”

“ Thank you.”

“ Are you close? I’ve never seen you once ever since Zack was emitted three years ago.”
Alex’s breathing hitched and he froze. Zack had been in here the same year he left him. He tried breathing and it seemed to calm him down. He turned and smiled at the nurse.

“ Yes. I just came back from oversea.” he lied and she nodded before walking away. He walked in leaving the door slightly opened. Zack walked out and froze.

“ What are you doing here?” he asked walking over to the bed.

“ I’m here to visit you.”

“ Why would I want you to visit me? Just get out!”

“ Why are you doing this?”

“ What?”

“ Why are you lying and hurting both of us? I know you love me and I loved you too so why did you have to do this? Why didn’t you tell me you were sick? I would have still loved and cared for you. “ Alex confessed in a softer tone and Zack scoffed.

“ What are you talking about?”

“ Don’t lie! I read it all.”Alex said raising Zack’s phone. Zack lost control and started sobbing as he put his head in his knees.

“ I’m sorry Alex. I thought you would be better off with me. I didn't mean any of those things and I regret it because I lost it the second you left. I just wanted to die because I was such a bastard. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. I love you so much.”

Alex blinked back his tears and pulled Zack in his embrace. He kissed his forehead and slowly cradled him back and forth like a child.

“ Don’t worry. I forgive you and I won’t leave. I love you .”

Zack tightened his grip on Alex and he smiled; and silently cried tears of joy. He couldn’t believe that he would meet Zack again after such a tragedy. He looked down and noticed Zack had fallen asleep. He tucked him in and kissed his forehead before turning away towards his room. He stopped dead in his tracks when he saw Jack leaning against the wall outside. He looked like he was crying but Alex shook that thought away because Jack never cries. Jack looked up and smiled at Alex before walking over.

“ What are you doing here?”

“ I came to say goodnight and thought you were lost so I decided to follow you. Who’s room is this?”

“ A friends. You didn’t hear anything did you?”

“ No.” Jack lied. Jack didn’t want Alex to think he was selfish. He loved him but it seemed the male loved this other boy. Jack put on a smile and helped Alex back to his room. He pecked his forehead and smiled tucking him in. He wished he could be the males other half. Jack closed the door and walked out of the hospital with an aching heart; not wanting to ever look back.

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