All My Life I've Been Searching For Something

The next day at school, I received a note in my locker. I felt the piece of paper for braille but there was none, instead just slight indents. I figured it was probably writing so I pulled Rian aside and asked him if it was his.

"Dude, I thought you weren't gay?"

"I..I'm not. Why what does it say?"

"It says 'meet me in the broom cupboard near the canteen at break' but its definitely a guys handwriting. A blind guy at that"

"Oh" I felt my face heat up. God fucking dammit, Zack.

"So c'mon, who is it? I was right, wasn't I? Its a guy"

"Fine okay I kinda fooled around with someone and yeah...it was fun"

"Someone? Who is it?"

"Fuck, Rian, you can't say anything, okay?"

"I won't!"

"Its Zack"

"Zack?!"

"Rian! Shut up! Yes, Zack..we're kinda..friends with benefits now"

"Why didn't you tell me?!"

"Really, Rian? Did you really want me to ring you up and be like 'oh hey Rian okay so me and Zack are gonna just randomly jerk each other off all the time now and probably give each other head and stuff ok bye'?"

"Ew. Too much information. Thank you for the gross mental image"

"You were asking for it"

"But still! You could have just come out to me, y'know? Like when you realised you were gay or bi or whatever like dude you coulda told me!"

"I just did!"

"You wouldn't have if you hadn't have gotten the note!"

"Yeah true"

"Asshole"

"So anyway..you like dicks now?"

"Seriously shut the hell up" I punched him and he laughed.

"I fucking knew it though! You always looked a lil bit gay"

"What the fuck I don't look gay"

"Yeah? How would you know?"

"You're a fucking smartass, you know that?"

"Mhmm, just..no jacking off to the sound of my voice or anything" he sniggered.

"Y'know, there are some people who would be grateful to have me jack off over the sound of their voice"

"Whatever" he laughed, me joining him in the splutters of laughter.



Later on that day, I went back to the same broom cupboard that Zack and I had kissed for the first time in. I waited there for about ten minutes before getting impatient. Where the fuck was he?


Suddenly the door opened and closed again and there were hands on my hips. I smiled as he kissed me softly. I ran my hands up his arms, trailing my fingers across his skin. He felt different, less muscly. I carried on kissing him, tangling my fingers in his hair. His hair was longer too and had a significant amount of hairspray in it. This was not Zack and I had absolutely no idea who it was. I began to panic but at the same time, the soft, delicate kisses and the gentle but still just rough enough bite of my bottom lip was enough to keep me calm. I had no idea who I was kissing but it was nice. Nicer than with Zack. I moved us so my back was against the door of the broom cupboard. I felt the person smile as they pressed closer to me. I felt behind me for the doorknob, my nimble fingers quickly turning the lock. They didn't stop kissing me, in fact, their hands moved to my belt. I gently pushed them off me, still guarding the lock.

"Who are you? You're definitely not Zack" they stayed silent.

"Tell me who the fuck you are, right now!" Now I was panicking, the kisses no longer there to keep me calm. I wanted to know who the fuck I'd just made out in a broom cupboard with and I wanted to know now.

Notes

I told you jalex would be happening soon!;)