The next few weeks, I avoided talking to Jack about what I blew up on Vinny about.

Every time he asked, I would just simply walk away, despite how much I wanted to be in his presence.

Vinny had been a little ticked off with me for yelling at him, but when I apologized, he smiled & gave me a hug.

It was now July, & Warped ends in August. Jack & I had gotten to the point where it was always too awkward when we were by ourselves, so we had to have at least one more person involved in conversations, or else we would just walk away from each other with awkward goodbyes.

It was getting quite ridiculous, & week after week, I was growing more irritated. I knew we had to talk, but I couldn't bring myself to actually face him alone, & I don't think he could bring himself to face me either.

So, when it was two days before the end of tour party, Alex had pulled me aside after their set.

"You need to fucking talk to him. The two of you are bugging the fuck out of the rest of us, and it's getting ridiculous. You both fucking like each other, so do something about it, I swear," Alex said. I stared at the ground for a minute, not saying anything.

"Rebecca," Alex warned after a minute or two of silence. I met his gaze, & I glared at him.

"I can't, Alex! I cannot do it by myself," I said as my emotions got the better of me, & my eyes filled with warm tears, "you know that I've got anxiety, don't you? The thought of me walking up to Jack & spilling my guts out to him terrifies me, & I can't do it."

The warm tears fell fast down my cheeks, & I turned my back on Alex, crossing my arms over my stomach & lowering my head. I shut my eyes & let the tears fall.

I heard footsteps approaching, & I opened my eyes & looked up, eyes meeting Jack's.

"Now, how come whenever I approach, you've got tears falling down your face?" Jack asked. I only turned my back on him too, making them both sigh.

"I'm not always crying like a bitch when you show up, Jacky," I said.

"Seems like it," he said quietly.

"What are you saying?" I asked as I turned around, glaring at him.

"I didn't mean anything by it, Becca," Jack said.

"Sure. I'll see you two later," I said. I stormed off & wiped my face.

I was sitting on the bus an hour later when Jack walked on, followed by Alex.

"-yeah she told me that she'd love to go with me, so I'm stoked," Jack said. I looked up & then down again.

"Oh. Cool," Alex replied. He left Jack standing there as he retreated to the back lounge, & I kept my eyes on my phone.

"You look like I should be mad at you," Jack said.

"Well are you?" I snapped, eyes never leaving the screen.

"Not at all, Rebecca," he said sternly. My full name sounded foreign coming from him.

"Oh," I said simply, finally looking at him, "where were you and Alex?"

"I was just telling him how I asked Jenna to the party. She said she'd go with me," Jack said, & I felt my stomach drop. Why couldn't that be me? Why didn't I deserve to be asked to the party by Jack? 'Duh, because he doesn't know you like him, idiot' I thought to myself.

"Oh," I said again.

~

"Hurry up, Rebecca!" Rian yelled.

"I'm coming!" I yelled back as I finished putting an earring in. I jogged off the bus & almost bumped into Jack & Jenna, but I stopped myself. She was looking way better than I was; her blonde hair straightened to perfection while my black hair was braided over my shoulder. She was wearing colorful, form-fitting clothes while I was wearing a black Linkin Park shirt with a pair of dark blue skinny jeans & converse.

"You ready?" Zack asked. I nodded, & we all made our way to the party. It was outside, & I could hear music blasting from some speakers. I wasn't really looking forward to this party, but I had no choice.

An hour into the party, & I was sitting in a chair, staring down at my lap, trying to keep myself from scanning the mass of people in attempts to find Jack & Jenna. Whenever I did, they were having a blast it looked like, & it made my heart drop even more each time. But this time, I couldn't help but look again, & what I saw brought pathetic tears to my eyes. His hands were on her hips, her arms around his neck. Her body pressed flush against his, their lips moving together perfectly. My heart started beating rapidly in my chest, & my breathing quickened. I soon found it difficult to breathe as tears clouded my vision, & I couldn't distinguish anyone in front of me.

I stood up, which was probably a stupid idea. I stumbled & pushed past a few people until I was touching no one. I tripped and fell, feeling a great deal of pain in my head soon after touching the ground. Before I knew it, I was being succumbed into darkness.

What was wrong with me?

Notes

Chapter Six!

Title Cred: All Time Low

Well, we're onto one chapter a day now. I ended up changing this chapter up a bit, so it's quite different from the original.

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