Guts
Chapter Twenty: The Diary of Jane
"All I wanted was to see her Jack. That's all I wanted!" I sobbed.
We were back on the bus, & I was crying my eyes out. My uncle had never talked like that to me before, & it was shocking.
"It's okay, baby. It's okay.." Jack said, soothing me. I only shook my head. Everyone else was dead silent. It sounded like they were trying not to breathe; like they were afraid I'd snap at them at any second.
"It's not okay," I whispered, & I laid down, placing my head in Jack's lap. I wrapped my arms around him & slowly, I drifted off to sleep.
~
I came to & took in my surroundings. Jack was gone; in fact, everyone was gone. I sat up slowly & pushed myself up off the couch. I walked into the kitchen & grabbed some water, downing some of it. I then went to the bathroom & looked in the mirror.
I looked like pure shit. My hair was a mess, my eyes were red & swollen, my cheeks were tear stained, & I had trails of dried makeup on my cheeks. I took a shaky breath & placed my hands on the counter, looking down into the sink. I looked up into the mirror again as my breathing quickened. I got suddenly dizzy, & black spots danced in my vision. I was shaking, that's for sure.
My knees buckled & I lost my grip on the counter, & I fell, my vision going black.
~
"C'mon, get her up," I was lifted, & set down a minute later on something soft. I let out a groan & opened my eyes, meeting the bright lights of the bus.
"What happened?" I asked, immediately sitting up. My voice was hoarse.
"Calm down. We don't know what happened, but we found you passed out in the bathroom," Jack said. I looked at him & took a deep breath. I'd had an anxiety attack, I knew it.
"Well... I'm fine now," I said, & I stood up.
"If you're sure," Jack said, & I nodded.
We were back on the bus, & I was crying my eyes out. My uncle had never talked like that to me before, & it was shocking.
"It's okay, baby. It's okay.." Jack said, soothing me. I only shook my head. Everyone else was dead silent. It sounded like they were trying not to breathe; like they were afraid I'd snap at them at any second.
"It's not okay," I whispered, & I laid down, placing my head in Jack's lap. I wrapped my arms around him & slowly, I drifted off to sleep.
~
I came to & took in my surroundings. Jack was gone; in fact, everyone was gone. I sat up slowly & pushed myself up off the couch. I walked into the kitchen & grabbed some water, downing some of it. I then went to the bathroom & looked in the mirror.
I looked like pure shit. My hair was a mess, my eyes were red & swollen, my cheeks were tear stained, & I had trails of dried makeup on my cheeks. I took a shaky breath & placed my hands on the counter, looking down into the sink. I looked up into the mirror again as my breathing quickened. I got suddenly dizzy, & black spots danced in my vision. I was shaking, that's for sure.
My knees buckled & I lost my grip on the counter, & I fell, my vision going black.
~
"C'mon, get her up," I was lifted, & set down a minute later on something soft. I let out a groan & opened my eyes, meeting the bright lights of the bus.
"What happened?" I asked, immediately sitting up. My voice was hoarse.
"Calm down. We don't know what happened, but we found you passed out in the bathroom," Jack said. I looked at him & took a deep breath. I'd had an anxiety attack, I knew it.
"Well... I'm fine now," I said, & I stood up.
"If you're sure," Jack said, & I nodded.
Notes
Chapter Twenty!
Title Cred: Breaking Benjamin
Just a filler chapter today guys. I'm way too tired, and in no mood to write anything more. I can't think straight right now because I've just been overthinking about how I'm going to tell the guy I like that I like him.. and I'm just terrified of the idea.
Leave your wonderful comments down below, please. I'll read them!
Shout Outs:
@StillSleepingBy
@andie617
@Tell My Voice What It Takes
No problum !
3/30/15