Sick Little Games

Jack's POV:

Today has been fucking brilliant! I'm finally married to the man I want to spend the rest of my life with...and it feels amazing!

The party was now in full swing, around 200 people were crammed onto the dance floor, all jumping around and starting mini mosh pits to Blink-182. I'd lost Alex somewhere along the way. I wasn't really concerned though: there's a lot of people here tonight and nearly everyone has come up to us so he's probably talking to someone. I started the jump even more when 'Carousel' came on. I felt a strong hand pull me off the dance floor, almost knocking my drink out of my hand.
"Hey, Jack."
"Hello, Dad."
My voice was quiet. Although my dad and I were close, he never really accepted my sexuality. He'd always say that he did, and he never used to act like he didn't, but I knew deep down that he didn't accept it. Plus, I'd heard him vent his frustrations to my mum more times than I can count. He'd blame himself for it. He said that it's his fault that I'm the way I am because he was hardly around during my upbringing and that I wanted a male figure in my life. He couldn't be further from the truth.
"Listen, Jack. I'm sorry, okay? I can see how truly happy you are with Alex and I never want to see you the way you were when...well, you know."
I nodded, words seemed to fail me. I was trying to form a sentence in my head but I kept stuttering. It was just too hard to take in. After all those years of hearing my dad blame himself for my sexuality and hearing how it isn't 'normal' and how it's a 'sin' I just accepted that my dad would never fully accept me for who I truly am. But now...now it's all changed. I never thought that I could get any happier today but it turns out that I thought wrong.
"I'm happy for you, Son. It's nice to see a genuine smile on your face for a change."
I flung my arms around his neck and started to cry. Tears of joy, happiness and, I guess, acceptance. It was an emotion that I will never forget. My dad pulled away from me and held me at arms length, staring into my tear-brimmed eyes.
"I love you, Jack. I never said it enough before and now I do regret it. But listen, you look after that husband of yours, okay? Your mum told me about the majority of things that he's gone through and I am extremely proud of you for helping him out of it. But, be careful? It's still there, Jack. The sadness. It'll return. I don't mean to sound horrible or to put a downer on your big day but I just feel like you need to know."
I shook my head in disbelief.
"Yo-you don't know Alex. He's s-stronger than anyone thinks, including himself."
"Jack, I know that's what you want to believe but trust me, I'm a doctor. I've seen a multitude of patients walk through the doors to hospitals with that look in their eyes. The emptiness, the look of just being lost. I'm just telling you, so you can be there for him when he needs you."
"No. I cannot believe you, Dad! Today of all fucking days!"
"I'm sorry, Jack."
"No you're fucking no-"
The music had now stopped and I was brought out of my little rage by someone tapping on a microphone.
"Right, so I guess this is my speech."
Alex's voice filled the room, echoing slightly as his voice bounded out the speakers.
"As you all know, I absolutely suck ass with actually talking about shit like this, but over the past few months, I've discovered a talent that I never knew I had. So, Jay?"
I walked through the crowd of people that were now gathering in front of the stage and ended up directly in front of Alex, who was now sitting on a stool with his brother's acoustic guitar balanced on his knee.
"Alex? What are you-"
"This one's for you, Jay."

Alex started to strum a beautiful little tune before launching into a song, lyrics flowing out of his mouth. He had his eyes screwed shut as he got lost in the music that he was creating. Tears formed in my eyes as I dissected each lyrics as it entered my ears.
"I wish you could see your face right now
'Cause you're grinning like a fool."
He's right. I could sense the huge grin spread across my face.
"You're just a daydream away,"
That's most definitely true. I remember Alex once told me that he'd space out a lot and his mind would always wander back to me, no matter how hard he tried not to.
"And you would offer you a t-shirt
And I would stay another night."
Since Alex had that fight with him mum about our relationship, he would stay at mine and I can always remember offering him a t-shirt to sleep in.
"We never stood a chance out there,
Shooting love in real-time."
This is concerning. I guess he's referring to both of us being told by our parents that our sexuality was wrong, well, not necessarily in Alex's case. His mum was fine with him being gay, she just had the problem with me. I'm glad that it's starting to resolve itself. And now that Peter is back in Alex's life, maybe he will fell like he has a family again.
"Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose."
This was a cute lyric. I hope he doesn't 'watch from a safe place' though because I want, no, I need him by my side, every step of the way. I never want to lose him either.
"You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you."
I was stunned. I stood frozen, rooted to the spot as the last remains of the echo of the guitar and Alex's voice rang through the silent room. It seemed that everyone was in total shock. Someone started to clap very, very slowly from the back of the room. Eventually, more and more people began to clap and cheer. I heard people sniffling behind me. Alex had a slight pink tinge to his cheeks. I felt tears run down my face. His voice was fucking beautiful and I was pretty sure that I was addicted to it already. Just one more way that Alex was perfect.. Of course, I'd heard him sing along to Blink-182 in the shower and we'd both sang along to songs in the car before, so I had heard him sing before, but he was always mumbling. This...this was different. His voice held so much emotion, so much love. It was like a chorus of a thousand angels.
I'd finally snapped back into reality. I leapt up onto the stage and flung myself at Alex, engulfing him in the tightest hug I'd possibly ever given him.
"Alex...that was so fucking beautiful. How have you only just discovered this?"
I felt Alex shrug against me.
"I love you so fucking much, Lex."
"I love you too, Jay. Always."
Alex pulled back slightly but only to connect our lips again. What a perfect way to end the most perfect day.

Notes

Hey,
HOLY SHIT IT'S OVER. DONE. FINISHED.
Well, there will be a sequel up soon but not for at least a week because I'm away on holiday to London and it''ll be nice to have a break from everything, well, apart from revision. Lol no.
Anyway, the sequel will be up a week this coming Sunday (1st June).

Credit for the use of this line to Ciaran Carson: "I was trying to form a sentence in my head but I kept stuttering." It's from his poem called 'Belfast Confetti'. It was in my GCSE poem anthology and I'd fell in love with the entire poem so...yeah.

I want to thank each and every one of you for all the amazing support that you've shown for this fic. It's been an amazing experience and I have to say that I've loved every second of this. It's gotten my back into writing again and it's been something different to do. So, thank you. Also, to know that this was runner up in the fanfic awards for best teen Jalex is insane so, again, a huge thank you for that.

Sequel up on the 1st June.
Thank you so much for reading etc.
Em x