Trigger Warning: Mentions of cutting and scars

Alex's POV:

I walked up the stairs, clutching onto Olivia as she continued to lick my face, she really has taken a liking to me. I quickly spotted the door with the Blink poster on. I felt kind of awkward just walking into his room without him with me, I don't know, I just feel like I'm invading his privacy. He did tell me to go in though...As I continued to ponder over whether I should go in or not, Olivia jumped out of my arms and ran into the room through space that the almost-closed door created. I ran after her, not knowing if she's allowed in his room alone or not. I saw Olivia sat in the middle of the carpet, looking up at me and wagging her short tail. Well, I guess she made my mind up for me. I scooped her up in my arms, once again and started to fuss her again. I took the time to look around Jack's room. Posters, ticket stubs and photos literally covered the walls, not a centimetre of wall could be seen. The posters were mainly of Blink-182, Green Day and New Found Glory but there were a few of other bands such as Yellowcard, Sublime and Sum 41. His music taste it utterly perfect. His room was pretty big, well, in comparison to mine anyway. He had a double bed pushed into the corner, just below the window that looked out over his back yard. He had a desk along one wall, some drawers and a wardrobe along the other. There were photographs of different concerts, different family events and a load of him with Zack and Rian. He had two guitars sitting in the corner, on stands. I didn't know he played. I walked over to his guitars to have a look. He had a black Gibson acoustic and a purple ESP electric. They were beautiful.
"Ahh, I see you've met my babies." I jumped slightly and spun around to see Jack leaning against the door frame with his hands shoved into the pockets of his jeans. I took the time to let my eyes wander across the sight before me. His hair perfectly fallen over his eye, his eyes had a certain kind of glint about them and the light shining from the hall cast a shadow over his face, making him look even more beautiful. His arms were tanned and skinny, but they suited him. His torso was slightly leaning into the door frame, his ribs pushing through and making themselves visible through his, slightly too tight, Green Day shirt. His jeans were riding low on his hips, showing a bit of his happy trail in between his shirt and waistband of his jeans. His jeans hugged his legs perfectly, showing off the curve of his legs beautifully. He had his Nike-clad feet crossed over each other, making his hip push out slightly from the way he was standing. He just looked...perfect.
"Take a picture, it'll last longer." I snapped my head up from my gaze and met Jack's smirking face. He sent me a wink, which made me blush.
"S-sorry, I was just...I d-don't know." I looked down again and blushed even more than I thought possible.
"It's okay, Lex. I can't help it if I'm good looking." He winked at me again, causing more heat to rise to my cheeks. Damn this boy.
"Jack, stop it, you're making me blush." I whined, dragging out Jack's name.
"But I like it when you blush, Lex. It's cute and it just makes me want to do this." I looked up in confusion.
"Do what, Jay?" Jack stood up straight from his previous position and walked over to where I was stood. He took Olivia from my arms and set her on the ground. He snaked his arms around me waist and pulled me in closer to him. My heart started to beat out of my chest and I could feel the butterflies starting to awaken again in my stomach.
"This." Jack crashed his lips with mine. The kiss was slow and passionate, nothing like out heated make-out session like earlier that night. I put one hand on the small of his back, pushing us closer and I put the other at the base of his neck, fiddling with the small strands of hair. I felt Jack nibble at my lower lip, practically begging for entrance. I granted him access and our tongues immediately started to flick each other's, starting off with soft kitten flicks but they didn't last long and soon turned into us just exploring each other's mouth. I remembered that Jack licked the roof off my mouth earlier so I thought I'd try and do the same to him. I tilted my head and deepened the kiss, making it easier for me to carry out my mission. I managed to gain dominance, it wasn't that hard: Jack was a lazy kisser but damn, was he good. His kisses are addicting. I ran my tongue along the roof of his mouth, he let out the most amazing moan that I have ever heard in my entire life. I did it again and received the same reaction. His moans were enough to turn me on again and I had to pull away, no matter how much I wanted to carry this on. Plus, I don't want to move too quickly, I'm still pretty raw about the whole situation.
"Why did you pull away, Lex? Did I do something wrong?" His voice was filled his worry, we still stood in our little embrace though.
"NO, of course not, I just don't want a repeat of earlier, if you get what I'm saying..." I dropped my voice to a whisper and leant in, my mouth millimetres away from his ear. "But that's not to say I don't want that to happen one day." I pulled my head back and stared into his eyes, he stared back. "What you thinking about, Jay? I can see it in your eyes."
"Us. Like, how I'm so happy that you're not mad at me any more and how amazing it feels to actually have you close like this."
"It does feel amazing, it feels so...right. Like we were meant to be." Jack kissed me nose and I giggled. Fucking giggled!
"Did you just fucking giggle, Lex?" I buried my head in the crook of his neck and groaned.
"Don't make me blush again...please."
"Whatever you say, cutie." We were interrupted by the sound of a camera going off. Jack and I spun around to see Joyce standing in the doorway with a smile on her face.
"I'm sorry but you two were just too cute to ignore." Jack and I looked at each other and blushed ferociously. "I'm sorry to interrupt your little...um, session but Alex, dear, it's getting late and your parents will be wondering where you are. Not that I'm trying to kick you out of my house or anything but I just don't want you getting into trouble."
"Yeah, of course, I get what you're saying, Joyce." I said with a smile, even though I just wanted to stay with Jack.
"Mum, can't Alex stay the night? I mean, if it's okay with you, Alex, and your parents."
"It's okay with me but I'll have to ask my mum if it's okay." Jack looked at Joyce and pulled the cutest puppy dog face I had ever seen.
"Oh fine then, but I don't want to hear you two having sex whilst I'm just down the hall."
"Mum, please!" I chuckled at Joyce and sent her a smile.
"Thanks, Joyce. And don't worry about the noises, I'll make sure he bites a pillow or something."
"Lexxxxxx" I was having too much fun with this, and by the look on Joyce's face, so was she.
"Thanks, Alex. I've heard him when he's been...you know. He can get pretty vocal."
"Mum. Out." Jack was bright red in the face and I couldn't help but chuckle.
"I'm going, I'm going. See you boys in the morning." She turned away from us and shut the door behind her.
"You know, Jack, your mum is pretty cool. Oh, and you look adorable when you blush." That only caused Jack to blush harder.
"Shut up and call your mum."

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Jack and I were laying in his bed, cuddling with Home Alone playing on his TV. Jack had lent me some baseball shorts to sleep in, him wearing a pair too. Our legs were tangled together beneath the covers. Jack and I were both shirtless and we were lying so my head was resting in the crook of his neck with my back against his chest. Jack kept rubbing his thumbs over my scarred hips, muttering how beautiful he thought I was, even with the scars. I didn't believe him but it made me feel better, nonetheless.
"You know, Jay, for the first time in a while, I'm sat in bed at night and I'm not cutting or crying or thinking negatively about myself...or all three and I think that's down to you. Thank you."
"There's no need to thank me, Lex. I'm just glad that you're not doing those things. You don't deserve to do those things to yourself. I'll still think you're beautiful, and I don't ever wanna lose my best friend." I sighed at those two words. Best friend. Yeah, I know I shouldn't really be complaining because less than 24 hours ago, I couldn't stand to be around him and he was calling me a faggot with any given opportunity but I can't help but want to be more.
"What's up, Lex?"
"What are we, Jay?"
"Well, what do you want us to be?"
"I'm not too sure. I know I want to be with you though."
"Well how does being boyfriends sound to you?" I grinned up at Jack and kissed him. I couldn't wipe the smile off my face.
"Sounds perfect." I leaned up again and kissed Jack. His kisses were to die for.
"We better go to sleep, Lex. We've got school in the morning.."
"I know, I'd much rather stay up and kiss you though."
"Me too, but we've got all day to do that tomorrow."
"I suppose so. Night, Jay."
"Night, Lex." Jack turned off Home Alone and snuggled down in the bed. We turned on our sides and Jack cuddled me from behind. So this is spooning, then. I quite like this. I'd never done anything like this before and, although I didn't admit it, Jack was my first kiss. I was completely new to this and I couldn't think of a better person to be my first. For the first time in a very long time, four years in fact, I fell asleep happy, with a small smile tugging at the sides of my mouth.

Notes

Hey
I think this is possibly the longest chapter I've written and I'm really effing proud of it.

I know it may seem that I'm putting trigger warnings for the slightest of things but I know that it can only take the smallest mention of something to trigger someone.

I really do appreciate all your comments, even though I don't really reply to them and I'm really sorry for that.

Thanks for reading though,
Em x