This Ones Different

*Jack POV*

“Okay Alex I sort of remember you, I think. I just can’t remember my feelings for you. I sort of remember our friendship.”

“That’s good, why don’t you go upstairs in your room try to remember more, I’ll make lunch or something”

I nodded to Ale- woops sorry, Lex, and went up stairs. I sat down on my bed, Okay Jack try to remember. Think about all the things Alex has told you.

Alex keeps telling me I love him but I still barley know the guy. I keep asking him to tell me about the times we spent together close to the time of the accident, but he refuses to tell me anything. The past 6 months or so are on lockdown, it’s my life and I think I have the right to know what happen. I keep telling Alex ‘maybe if you tell me about more recent times, I’ll remember quicker’ he just says ‘no that’s not important’… I think it is, it’s like he doesn’t want me to know what happen. Yet he tells me that we recently confessed are feelings for each other, but he wont tell me what happen.

Alex won’t tell me any stories of us together, it’s like he doesn’t want me to remember what we said or anything we did. He just wants me to remember my feelings of affection towards him. I feel like there is something he doesn’t want me to know, dose he not understand?
Here’s a guy I didn’t even know was my friend. I just woke up not that long ago, why am I with him and not Rian or Zack? I couldn’t remember I single thing about him and here he is telling me how madly in love we are, without even giving me any proof that we ever did express feelings for one another.
Don’t get me wrong Alex seems like a really great dude, he isn’t that bed looking either, but there is something fishy about this whole situation. Alex is really eager to have me ‘remember’ my feelings. Hell he even kissed me as soon as I got home. That did help me remember a little bit though. Not as much as Alex wanted I would presume. Alex gave me a kiss; witch is a way of showing affection so I’m guessing Alex wanted to kiss to trigger something so I would remember our affectionate moments? Alex is talking to me like he is the love of my life or something.

I’m pretty sure I would remember the love of my life, and even if I didn’t, wouldn’t I feel something? When you see your true love don’t you just know that’s your true love? When I look at Alex I don’t feel anything. He’s hot, but doesn’t everyone have a man crush?

I know he is hiding something from me, I can tell. I have to figure out what, I have to Sherlock Holmes this shit. He wants me to love him but not remember how we started the love thing. I think he wants us to just pick up where we left off but he won’t even tell me where we left off! Am I not feeling anything towards him because (What Alex told me) I fell in love with his personality over time? When Alex and I first met when we were younger I didn’t fall in love with him right away then so maybe this is the same thing? If it is, why is Alex rushing me to instantly love him? It’s obvious that He loves me.
He is so desperate to love me back. He’s sort of acting like those desperate weird girls “looove mee” and you’re pushing them away “nooo” ha-ha. At least he isn’t messing with me. You have someone who just woke up and doesn’t remember a thing, you could tell them anything and there is a god chance they will believe it.

They wake up and you say stupid things like “Hey your name is Click your mom left your dad for a park ranger your father sells TV remotes hence your name and you are ¼ Adam Sandler”
Good thing for me is I remember everything but Alex. Ha Alex could have told me something like “I am your guardian angel” no that’s stupid OOO more like “I am your husband and we own 2 rainbow color dogs” I would look at him like “Shit I’m married… And to a guy!?!?” I would wig out, but I would probably see that I didn’t have a ring…
Well at least Alex is not doing that. He is telling me the truth. Him my husband ha that’s funny, maybe it would have fooled me? Its would be very--- … OH MY GOD THAT IS EXSACTLY WHAT ALEX IS DOING!!

He is telling me I love him because he loves me! The times he doesn’t want me to remember is, Alex confessed his love to me and I rejected him. Me not remembering him he took the opportunity to trick me into loving him back!

He wants to love me back but can’t give any proof that I ever did love him. They are no stories of us together because we never were! Alex is in love with me, he told me he loved me and I rejected him! He wants me to love him back so he tells me I already do.
That’s why I don’t feel anything! He was telling me I hated him when I woke up because when Alex told me he loved me and I didn’t feel the same way be probably did something that made me mad or I walked away and he took that as me saying I hated him.

Alex is trying to trick me into loving him back but he doesn’t want me to remember that I really don’t love him the way he loves me. ALEX HAS BEEN LYING TO ME! This all makes sense why he doesn’t want me to remember recent times, he doesn’t want me to remember that I rejected him. I still don’t remember Alex saying he loves me and rejecting him but I figured it out and it all makes sense, that’s close enough.

I got out of bed and walked back down stairs. How am I going to confront Alex?

I sat down on a bar stool right in front of Alex who was at the stove. I rested my arms on the counter in front of me.

“Alex?” Alex looked up at me “hello Jack”

“Alex why won’t you tell me about us confessing our love?” Alex tensed up
“B-Because I want you to remember it own your own”

“Yeah but why wont you tell me anything around that”
“Jack I told you that stuff wasn’t that important”
All the color is Alex face was gone.

“Alex…. I know” He looked like he was about to puke

“Y-You know w-what?” Alex can barely talk, I knew it! I’m right!

“I know what you’re trying to hide from me”

“Y-You do?” GOTCHA!

“Yup. I know what you don’t want me to remember”

“Jack I’m so sorry okay, I should have even-“

“Shh Alex no need to explain yourself I get it”

“You do?”

“Yeah, you just told the person you love about your feelings towards them and they reject you. They wake up and they don’t remember you so you see an opportunity to make them fall in love with you. That’s why you don’t want me to remember recent times, because you confessing your love to me was recent.”

Alex looked at me in fear and daze

“Jack what? No that’s not what happen!”
“Alex stop lying I figured it out”
“Jack that isn’t what happen you really do love me!”

“Oh really then what aren’t you telling me! Why wont you tell me what going one!? What don’t you want me to remember!?”
Alex looked down

“I… I cant tell you”
I stood up out of my chair “See! You cant tell me because you’re lying to me!!”
“Jack I’m N-“ “Shut up Alex.”

I walked to the hall and grabbed my jacket and slipped on my shoes.
“Where are you going?” Alex called.
I opened the front door

“I’m going to Rian’s house he is someone I know wont lie to me. He is someone I can trust.” I walked out side and slammed the door behind me. I heard Alex call my name as I walked away.

I looked down at my feet, a water droplet fell on my shoe. I looked up, its not raining. I looked back down at me shoes, why is there- another one. I felt it run down my cheek.
I wiped my eyes, why am I crying? There is no need to cry, why do I also feel like I’m leaving a piece of me being? Am I missing something? Think Jack

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I got into the car and started the engine, today is going to be great.

I turned on the radio and started driving to Rian’s house thinking over what I’m going to say. Wow I am really bad at this gloating thing. How about when he opens the door I’m just going to yell YOU WE’RE WRONG!~~


You we’re wrong? Wrong about what?

Notes

Have you ever noticed how many songs have 'Carry On' in them? (Carry On my wayward son)
(Carry On, Carry On, 'Cause nothing really matters) (We'll Carry On We'll Carry On) Just thinking
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