*Megan*
As I sit here in the car with my mom, I realize I'm thinking about Jack and nothing else. It didn't make sense why he cared so much about my well being. It was starting to make me fall for him. The entire time I've been in the car, I've said nothing. I told my mom what happened and she freaked out, but other than that, nothing's been said. She took me to a coffee hut so I could get a smoothie, and before I know it, we were home.
I go straight to my room, lay on my bed and burst into tears. I feel so overwhelmed just from this last two days that I've been through. I'm not sure if I can take it anymore. The only positive note is that I just found out earlier that I'm not pregnant, but other than that, life is worthless. Then, the unthinkable comes. I get up and walk to the kitchen and grab a knife and sneak back to my room so my mother doesn't see me. I sit down on my bed, knife in hand and begin to cut myself on my right forearm and wrist. I so badly want to relieve all the pain Doomerz has caused me. This was the first time I had cut myself in a long time. After about fifteen minutes passed, I look down at my arm and see the bloody cuts. I put the knife to my arm, but stop myself.
Jack popped into my head. The words he said to me the other day popped into my head. 'You can't say those things!' 'You're a beautiful girl!' 'You deserve so much better.' I put the knife down on my bed and begin to cry harder than I've ever cried before. Even when Jack's nowhere near me, he's saving my life. I get up and put the knife back in the kitchen after cleaning it off, go in the bathroom to clean my arm up, then go back in my room. I sit there and think about everything. I don't even eat dinner. I went straight to sleep at 8:00, an earlier time than I'm used to. I have to talk to Jack tomorrow. One way or another, I will talk to him.
I wake up the next morning and lazily get ready for school. At least today is Friday. For once, I might be looking forward to school. I'm more than likely going to see Jack today, and I will be telling him about my incident last night. The school day went very slow, but before I knew it, I am on my lunch break. I get my food and find a hall to sit in by myself. I didn't even want to be around my friends right now. Hell, who am I kidding? Everyone in this school hates me. I constantly blew off my friends for Doomerz because they told me he's psycho and to get out when I can, but I didn't listen, and now I have no one. Just then, I see Jack walking by and stare at him.
"Jack!" I yell. He then looks over and comes running to me with a smile and sits next to me.
"Hey, beautiful." He says happily. I saw that he was blushing a little and I could feel myself blushing as well. "How you feeling?"
"I'm okay I guess. Better than the usual." I mumble. "I need you to see something." I then pull down my jacket sleeve revealing the cuts from last night. I see his face get extremely pale and then he hugs me tight and lets go so he can talk.
"Megan, why?" Jack yells grabbing my wrist. I could tell he was getting upset. "Why did you do this?!"
"Jack, listen ok?" I state in as serious of a tone that I can. "Last night, I was crying non stop and couldn't stop thinking about how I have no friends and everyone around me hates me and now I got my ass beat by my ex. He's never abused me in that way before, till yesterday. I don't deserve to be here. But, I-" Jack then interrupts.
"Megan, remember what I said the other day?" He asks me still holding my hand, "I meant every bit of that. Promise me you won't hurt yourself anymore. Even if we never talk again, I want you to stop, for me."
"Jack, that's the thing. After some time of doing this to myself, I stopped and thought about what you said, and I put the knife down. I didn't keep going." I start to explain, "Jack, you saved my life last night. The words you said, they saved me. I want you to be part of my life. You seem like such a great guy and I want to get to know you better. All because you saved me."
"Wow, that means a ton." He says sitting there in shock. He kisses all of my cuts telling me how I'm beautiful with or without them. He then stands up and lifts me up. "Come with me. I want you to meet some people." He then grabs my hand and directs me to a table of three other guys.
"Megan, here's my best friends. They know everything about you and I. Everything we've discussed. They are here for you. They want to help you out just as badly as I do." He stares at me as his friends sit there and stare at me. This is so awkward. Just then one of them stands up, walks over to me and gives me a huge hug.
"Hey, I'm Alex. I've heard a lot about you." He whispers in my ear. "You're a gorgeous girl, and you deserve a better life. I'm sorry about the cuts on your arms, you don't deserve this. Just promise for us that you will stop this." I couldn't comprehend the fact that not just one, but two, maybe even four guys were showing all the care in the world for me who don't know me. They all walk up and hug me and introduce themselves. I have a feeling I am going to bond really well with all of them. Zack seems so much like me in the sense that we're both quite shy, and Rian, well we somewhat have the same sense of humor.
"So, Megan, do you wanna hang with us tonight?" Jack asks me. I am not sure if I feel comfortable with the idea, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try. I text my mom asking her if she's ok with it, and she doesn't mind, so I guess I'll be hanging out with people for the first time in years. The rest of the day went by somewhat fast.
As soon as the last bell of the day rung, I went straight to the front of the school to meet up with Alex, Jack, Zack and Rian. When I got out there, I saw Rian and I run over and sit next to him. We sit there quietly as Zack comes out and sits by us. Then there was more silence till Alex and Jack come out and we all walk out to Jack's car. I go to get into the back, but then Alex tells me to go ahead and sit in the passenger seat. Sweet, I'm getting shotgun without even trying.
Before I know it, we're at Jack's house. I follow all of them slowly and nervously into his house. We all go straight upstairs to his room. As much as I was looking forward to coming over earlier, I suddenly feel awkward and can't wait to go home. But as the night progressed, whether it was them showing me some songs, playing games or even just talking, I was starting to feel better about being here. Around the time I was expecting to have to go home, Jack grabs my hand and pulls me out of his room to talk to me.
"Could you possibly spend the night?" Jack asks me holding my hands. A thought then came to me. Jack's always kissing my cheek, holding my hands and hugging me, but we're not dating. Hell, we just recently became friends really. I'm not going to argue with it, but I was starting to realize how weird that was. Then I realize, he's asking me to spend the night. "The other guys are staying here too, so it wouldn't be just us two. So it wouldn't be too awkward for you, I would hope."
"Um, I don't know, maybe." I answer nervously. "I guess I can ask." I text my mom, expecting her to say no, but I shockingly get a sure why not. "My mom said I could stay. There's just one problem. I don't have anything to change into." I see Jack form a smile on his face. "Don't get any ideas." I laugh.
"I'll give you something later to change into if you want." He says flirting. He pulls me in and hugs me tight. I look up at him to see him smiling down at me. I see him starting to lean inward, to the point where our lips are practically touching. I'm not sure whether to let this happen or not. Next thing I know, our lips are locked and we're kissing. The kissing goes on for a couple minutes before I decide to end it.
"Well, that was unexpected." I laugh nervously.
"Megan.. I know this may seem a little fast, but I want to be with you. The moment I saw you, a bunch of feelings rushed through my body and I've been thinking a lot these past couple days, and I like you, a lot." He puts his palm on my face and softly rubs my cheek. "Megan, will you be my girl?" I'm not sure how to respond. I do want to be with him, but I'm not sure if I should. Ah, what the hell?
"Yeah, of course I will." I smile at him. He gives me another quick kiss and we decide to walk back into his room.