Memories That Fade Like Photographs

All I could do was stare at him. I was frozen, just looking into his eyes. I was waiting for him to start laughing, say he was kidding, but he just looked back at me. His eyes were full of worry as he waited for me to say something. That’s when I felt it, a small tear roll down my cheek. Alex? He came back? He remembered me? My Alex?

“Jay?”

That’s when I moved around the table so fast I was amazed I didn't fall over. I wrapped my arms around him and began to sob, whispering his name over and over again. I felt his arms wrap around me and I instantly knew this was really Alex, his arms had always made me feel safe, and they still did. I felt Alex’s lips press gently against the top of my head and I looked up at him. He smiled back down at me, his eye full of tears. I glanced at his lips and before I knew it, they were on mine.

We kissed passionately, the kind of kiss that was full of love, desire, and happiness. When we finally pulled apart I realized people were staring. So I grabbed a couple bills out of my wallet and left them on the table. Taking Alex’s hand in mine I led him to the park we went to long ago when things had gone terribly wrong. This seemed to be a spot where we had always talked to each other about things. I had so many questions I wanted to ask him, but when I turned around, he answered half of them for me.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry Jay. I was stupid and careless with my phone. It got destroyed and I had to buy a new one. I lost your number when that happened. I thought I would never see you again and I missed you so much. It hurt everyday knowing that I had probably hurt you by not responding. Trust me, if I could have I would have. God I missed you so much! I came back here hoping, just hoping that I would find you. When your old neighbors said you had moved I had thought, ‘well, that’s it. The love of your life is gone.’ Yet, here you are! I love you Jack! I’m home.” He finished with a smile and I couldn’t help but grin back as fresh tears slid down my face. I put both of my hands on either side of his face and pulled him in for a couple sweet peaks on the lips before pulling away again.

“I missed you too lex. So gad damn much it hurt. I love you.” I kissed him again, this time for much longer. Soon I realized it was getting dark.

“Do you have a place to stay?” He nodded.

“Do you want to come back to my place? Or do you need to work tomorrow?” He bit his lip a tiny bit and I couldn't help the blush that rose to my cheeks.

“I-I can call in sick tomorrow. I just really want to be with you Lex.” I mumbled, looking down at the ground. He laughed a bit and put his finger under my chin, raising it so I had to meet his eyes.

“I see you still haven’t gotten over not looking people in the eyes.” I gave him a small smile and he kissed me before lacing our fingers together.

He led me towards the apartment buildings that were pretty close to mine, maybe three blocks away. We went up to the third floor, room 328, and I waited as he unlocked the door. When we went in he flipped on the lights and I couldn’t help but smile. His kitchen was clean and organized, the living room was tidy except for the corner with video games in it, which made me laugh a little bit. He led me to his room where he took off his shoes and I followed his motions. This room looked very similar to his old one, band posters everywhere, his guitar int eh corner, and even pictures of him and me together, which made me smile and blush at the same time.

He tossed me a pair of grey sweat pants then pointed to his bathroom which was joined to his bedroom. As I changed I couldn’t help but think about how all of this must be a dream. About how I would wake up tomorrow, in my own bed, with no Alex anywhere to be seen. I walked back out with my shirt on to see Alex shirtless and I couldn't help the blush that crept onto my face. He looked at me then smiled as he walked towards his bed and got in, motioning for me to do the same. I slowly went over to the other side and got in.

I was pretty tense but when I felt his arms wrap around me and hold me close to his warm body, I couldn't help but relax. Before I knew it I was drifitng off to sleep, and I was the happiest I had been in a long time. Before the darkness completely pulled me under I heard Alex whisper into my ear softly.

“Love you Jay, so much. See you in the morning.” I couldn't reply, but I sure as hell thought it.

I love you too lex, more than you’ll ever know.
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Title Credit: You're Not Alone ~ Of Mice & Men

Notes

Hey everyone! I wrote this last night but it was like 3 am so I didn't upload it until today! I'm SO tired. Thanks again for all the comments, votes, and subscribers! Please keep commenting! I will try to upload again maybe today if i have the time or tomorrow I'm not sure. Since you guys seem to really like this I'm wanting to upload a lot more than just on the weekends. You're comments are really helping me with all of this so thank you again! <3 ~Anna