Me Without You

“Alex! Where are you all?” I practically screamed down the phone.
“Jesus, no need to yell. We’re at Zack’s. I only just woke up. We all have like five missed calls. Are you alright?”
“I’m fine.” I sighed, pulling up flights on my laptop. “I’m going back to California.” There was a silence that followed.
“You’re what?” Alex sounded stunned, I didn’t know what the big deal was. “Why?”
“I need to pay my rent.” I laughed. I paid my landlord by cash by the first of every month and I had paid him for June and July before I left with the boys on tour.
“Why are you paying rent on an apartment in California? Haven’t you moved in with Jack?”
“All my stuff is still in California. I only have what I brought on tour. Is he awake yet?” I took a sip of my smoothie and smiled at my accomplishment. This one was good. There was a grunt on the other end before a shuffling.
“Hello?” Jack’s voice was husky and cracked. He had been drinking.
“Baby? It’s Jase.” I whispered.
“I know.” Jack laughed and I breathed a sigh of relief when he didn’t sound angry. “Why are you going to California?”
“I need to go to my apartment. I do have a life waiting in California, you know that right?” I was worried that now we were together Jack expected me to drop everything and stay in Baltimore with him. Don’t get me wrong, I loved it here with him, but I had to say goodbye to my friends. I had to pack up my shit and move it here. I had to grab my car and hand in my notice to my landlord that I was leaving so he could put the apartment up for lease. I had shit to do on the west coast.
“You’re moving back to Cali?” Jack sounded upset.
“I never moved to Baltimore.” I couldn’t help but laugh at how simply Jack thought of things sometimes. “I just stayed here with you after tour.”
“I thought you were living with me?” His voice was barely a whisper. I had loved being here so much I nearly forgot about California. But now moving to Baltimore was becoming more and more of a reality I was starting to get cold feet. I loved living in San Diego. The beaches, the sun, Mike and Vic. My friends, my apartment, my jobs with Pierce The Veil.
“Jacky, why don’t you come home so we can talk?” He mumbled a ‘yeah, sure’ before hanging up on me. I hadn’t mean to upset him, I just missed home. MY home.

“Jasey?” Jack called as he came through the front door. I was sitting on the couch still looking for cheap flights. I called out to him and clicked on a seat. “You’re going to California?” He asked as he entered the room, Olivia in his arms. I nodded and entered my card details into the booking. The flight left in two days. I didn’t book a return ticket, I didn’t know how long I would end up staying down there. “Why?” I pushed my laptop onto the coffee table and turned to look at him.
“My whole life is in San Diego, Jack.” I sighed, knowing things could easily go from calm to extremely dramatic. “My home, my car, my stuff, my job, my family.”
“Your family lives in Baltimore.” Jack stated bluntly even though he knew full well what I meant.
“The Fuentes’ are my family, Jack.” He slumped down on the couch next to me but didn’t put his arm around me like he always did. I frowned and continued. “I love you baby, but I can’t just drop everything.” Jack picked up my laptop and examined the screen.
“You haven’t booked a return flight.” He looked wounded, as if he thought I would really not return. “Jasey. I’m your family now. We’re getting married. Me, You, the baby. We’re our own family. You move in with me, you don’t need a job, I can support us all easily with the money the band brings in. Why would you ever want to leave?”
“It’s not that simple!” I tried to stop myself from yelling. “You’ve always lived in Baltimore. This had always been your home. My home is in California. That’s where my life is.”
“Your home is with me!” Jack yelled, standing up from the couch, sending Olivia yelping to the floor as he started pacing the room. “Your home is wherever I am. Your life is with me now. Me, your fiancé.” I leaned against the back of the couch and sighed. “How are we ever going to make this work and get married is you’re on the other side of the country? Do you even want to get married?” Now it was my turn to get mad.
“Of course I want to marry you! But marriage isn’t about one person dropping everything for the other! We have to compromise, we have to agree on things. I had a life in San Diego before we got together. I would be there right now if I wasn’t with you.” Jack was leaning against the window, glaring at the cars passing on the street. “I want to go home, Jack.” An uncomfortable silence passed as he figured out what to say.
“Are you leaving me?” He asked, his voice cold and shut off.
“What? No! Jack, how could you think that?” I gasped. God, I couldn’t leave him, it would kill me. “I miss California, I want to see my family. I want to sleep in my own bed for at least a night.” Jack pulled me into a hug and held me against his chest.
“Promise me you’ll come back?” He whispered into my hair.
“I couldn’t leave you if I tried.” I smiled as I reached up to kiss him.

Notes

Ooooooohhh will Jasey come back? >:) Will I let her return? Or will I keep her there forever!
I feel like I'm keeping a character hostage :P
I hope you guys are enjoying it! xx