Two Kids, No Consequences
I can't fight this feeling anymore
I waltz into Alex’s room, and lock the door behind me. Alex assumed I am like the average girl and take an hour to get ready, but I’m not. I take 15 minutes. But I told him I needed to get ready so I could take some time to think.
I strip down to my bra and underwear and walk to his closet. I open it up and there in front of me are about 20 t-shirts and around 5 hoodies. I grab one of the hoodies and put it on. With me being 5”4 and Alex being well over 6 foot tall, the hoodie reaches to my knees. I waltz around his room, shoving my nose in the sleeves. I plop down onto his bed and imagine what it would be like if he and I were together.
When John and I broke up, I was devastated. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized I was secretly hoping something like this would happen. It was my way out, without feeling like an idiot for leaving him. Let’s face it; John only wanted the best for me in my life. He helped me get a job, enroll in college, and stay out of trouble. Now yes, he was a hypocrite who cheated. But at the time, he was just a guy who kept me out of trouble, on the right track, and was there when I woke up in the mornings.
But with Alex, everything is different. He makes me feel all fuzzy and nervous inside, but nervous in a good way. Like you are on the verge of starting something new, something wonderful. When I look at Alex, I see a guy who cares. Someone who wants me to be around not feels like he has to keep me around. He’s making all of the moves to be around me. I’ve never felt so wanted in my life. And I feel so free when I’m with Alex. I can be whoever I want and he will still want to be around me no matter what. There would never be a dull moment.
The more I think about all of this, the more I think I shouldn’t do this. I care about Alex, but I don’t know if I’m ready to start anything serious. I just broke up with John a few days ago. What if Alex is the rebound? He doesn’t feel like it, but I’ve never had to have a rebound. John was my only boyfriend. And Alex is in a band who tours, at what point will he have time to settle down? I don’t know, I just don’t think it’s right.
I look at my phone and realize its 9:05. Shit, I have to get ready. I spring up, take off his hoodie, and place it back exactly the way it was. I slip on my jeans and shirt. I run into the bathroom with my makeup for a quick touch-up. I look in the mirror and realize how amazing I look. I would never wear such a low cut shirt with John, but now I can. I touch up my makeup and brush my hair out. I pull my bangs back, clip them, and try to flip the ends of my hair inwards with a hairbrush. I look at the final product and am completely satisfied. I take all of my stuff back to Alex’s room and come back out to the living room.
Alex’s jaw dropped when he saw me, and he picked it up quickly. “Wow. Diana you look…amazing. I can’t even describe.”
“Thanks.” I blush looking down at myself, suddenly very aware of what I was wearing.
“Come here.” Alex gestured for me to sit next to him.
I sit down next to him and he immediately grabs me by the shoulders and pull me in closer. I relax, enjoying the feeling of being held. I wonder if this is considered leading him on.
“Oh shit wait, I have to change.” Alex laughs, looking down at his pajamas.
I laugh with him and he goes into his room. Within 30 seconds, he’s back out wearing Jeans and a white t-shirt.
“I think you’re too overdressed.” I mess with him.
“Asshole.” He stands in front of me, acting like he’s about to fall on top of me.
“Stop!” I squeal. I push him back lightly and he grabs my arms and pulls me up so we are standing together, bodies touching. I look up at him and he’s staring at me with the most intense stare. I wrap my arms around him and rest my head against his chest, trying to avoid any eye contact. I feel like as soon as we make eye contact for more than three seconds, I’m going to kiss him. I don’t want to put him in that position.
We stand there, holding each other tight. He rubbed my back with his hands in small circles and rests his nose on top of my head. All of a sudden, there was a knock at the door. We both jumped and smiled at each other. Jack sprints out of his room, like a bat out of hell and answers the door. It’s some girl I don’t recognize and she pounces on Jack.
“Party’s here!” Jack laughs kissing her lightly. “Diana this is Jamie, my girlfriend. Jamie, this is Diana, Alex’s soon to be girlfriend.”
“Cut it out.” I laugh and give Jamie a kiss on the cheek. “We are just friends.”
“It’s nice to meet you.” She smiles at me. “I love your hair. I totally wish I could pull that off.”
“Thanks.” I thanked her. All of a sudden I feel two arms wrapping around my waist and pulling me back. I land on top of Alex’s lap on the couch.
“Stoooooooop. She’s mine.” Alex groans. “I’m already not enjoying the idea of this party. Not in the mood for loud, obnoxious drunk people.”
“Then leave.” Jack says matter-of-factly. “There will always be more parties.” He bounces off with Jamie into his room.
“Do you want to stick around?” Alex murmurs in my ear.
His breath on my ear sends tingles up my spine. “I’m good with whatever.” I whisper back, barely able to speak.
“Excellent.” He states. He holds onto me, picks me up, and carries me to his car. I open the door and he places me in the seat. “Buckle up.” He reminds me.
As he walks around to his side of the car, I realize something. It may not be the right time, or the right place, but I think I’m falling in love with Alex Gaskarth. No matter how badly I don’t want it to happen, it’s happening. And there’s nothing I can do now to stop it.
I strip down to my bra and underwear and walk to his closet. I open it up and there in front of me are about 20 t-shirts and around 5 hoodies. I grab one of the hoodies and put it on. With me being 5”4 and Alex being well over 6 foot tall, the hoodie reaches to my knees. I waltz around his room, shoving my nose in the sleeves. I plop down onto his bed and imagine what it would be like if he and I were together.
When John and I broke up, I was devastated. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized I was secretly hoping something like this would happen. It was my way out, without feeling like an idiot for leaving him. Let’s face it; John only wanted the best for me in my life. He helped me get a job, enroll in college, and stay out of trouble. Now yes, he was a hypocrite who cheated. But at the time, he was just a guy who kept me out of trouble, on the right track, and was there when I woke up in the mornings.
But with Alex, everything is different. He makes me feel all fuzzy and nervous inside, but nervous in a good way. Like you are on the verge of starting something new, something wonderful. When I look at Alex, I see a guy who cares. Someone who wants me to be around not feels like he has to keep me around. He’s making all of the moves to be around me. I’ve never felt so wanted in my life. And I feel so free when I’m with Alex. I can be whoever I want and he will still want to be around me no matter what. There would never be a dull moment.
The more I think about all of this, the more I think I shouldn’t do this. I care about Alex, but I don’t know if I’m ready to start anything serious. I just broke up with John a few days ago. What if Alex is the rebound? He doesn’t feel like it, but I’ve never had to have a rebound. John was my only boyfriend. And Alex is in a band who tours, at what point will he have time to settle down? I don’t know, I just don’t think it’s right.
I look at my phone and realize its 9:05. Shit, I have to get ready. I spring up, take off his hoodie, and place it back exactly the way it was. I slip on my jeans and shirt. I run into the bathroom with my makeup for a quick touch-up. I look in the mirror and realize how amazing I look. I would never wear such a low cut shirt with John, but now I can. I touch up my makeup and brush my hair out. I pull my bangs back, clip them, and try to flip the ends of my hair inwards with a hairbrush. I look at the final product and am completely satisfied. I take all of my stuff back to Alex’s room and come back out to the living room.
Alex’s jaw dropped when he saw me, and he picked it up quickly. “Wow. Diana you look…amazing. I can’t even describe.”
“Thanks.” I blush looking down at myself, suddenly very aware of what I was wearing.
“Come here.” Alex gestured for me to sit next to him.
I sit down next to him and he immediately grabs me by the shoulders and pull me in closer. I relax, enjoying the feeling of being held. I wonder if this is considered leading him on.
“Oh shit wait, I have to change.” Alex laughs, looking down at his pajamas.
I laugh with him and he goes into his room. Within 30 seconds, he’s back out wearing Jeans and a white t-shirt.
“I think you’re too overdressed.” I mess with him.
“Asshole.” He stands in front of me, acting like he’s about to fall on top of me.
“Stop!” I squeal. I push him back lightly and he grabs my arms and pulls me up so we are standing together, bodies touching. I look up at him and he’s staring at me with the most intense stare. I wrap my arms around him and rest my head against his chest, trying to avoid any eye contact. I feel like as soon as we make eye contact for more than three seconds, I’m going to kiss him. I don’t want to put him in that position.
We stand there, holding each other tight. He rubbed my back with his hands in small circles and rests his nose on top of my head. All of a sudden, there was a knock at the door. We both jumped and smiled at each other. Jack sprints out of his room, like a bat out of hell and answers the door. It’s some girl I don’t recognize and she pounces on Jack.
“Party’s here!” Jack laughs kissing her lightly. “Diana this is Jamie, my girlfriend. Jamie, this is Diana, Alex’s soon to be girlfriend.”
“Cut it out.” I laugh and give Jamie a kiss on the cheek. “We are just friends.”
“It’s nice to meet you.” She smiles at me. “I love your hair. I totally wish I could pull that off.”
“Thanks.” I thanked her. All of a sudden I feel two arms wrapping around my waist and pulling me back. I land on top of Alex’s lap on the couch.
“Stoooooooop. She’s mine.” Alex groans. “I’m already not enjoying the idea of this party. Not in the mood for loud, obnoxious drunk people.”
“Then leave.” Jack says matter-of-factly. “There will always be more parties.” He bounces off with Jamie into his room.
“Do you want to stick around?” Alex murmurs in my ear.
His breath on my ear sends tingles up my spine. “I’m good with whatever.” I whisper back, barely able to speak.
“Excellent.” He states. He holds onto me, picks me up, and carries me to his car. I open the door and he places me in the seat. “Buckle up.” He reminds me.
As he walks around to his side of the car, I realize something. It may not be the right time, or the right place, but I think I’m falling in love with Alex Gaskarth. No matter how badly I don’t want it to happen, it’s happening. And there’s nothing I can do now to stop it.
Notes
Short-ish chapter. I'm in the Florida Keys (As I am every weekend) and I'm bored out of my mind. You can expect another chapter soon. I think you will like it. Probably what you all have been waiting for since day 1!Thanks for the support!
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5/23/13