Because I'm thinking about
A brand new hope
The one I've never known
Cause now I know
It's all that I wanted

-Alex’s Point of View-

Sunlight was a bitch, pure and simple.
It came pouring in through the window, directly into my eyes, boring into my very soul. I’m quite dramatic, I know.
The sun must have woken Jay up aswell, I could feel him moving below me..
Wait… BELOW ME!?!?
It took all my willpower not to jump up and run out of the room, screaming that I was sorry and blushing my head off.
I was obviously at quite a predicament here. Why couldn't life be simpler? Why couldn’t I just love him, or any other man? Why can’t I just love in general? Why does it have to be about gender!?
I groaned softly in defeat, cursing under my breath as I realized he now knew I was awake and we could no longer stay in this position.
“What?” he asked, the confusion in his voice enough to show that he was trying to figure out if I was awake or talking in my sleep.
Maybe I could use my fabulous, and quite dramatic, acting skills to wriggle my way out of this...
I kept my eyes closed and willed my voice to sound thick with sleep.
“Jaaaaaaaaaaay stop moving. Just stay here with me. You’re warm and comfy”.
My voice was tired and my tone was heavy with bleariness and confusion. Perfect.
He didn't reply, but simply wrapped his arms around me.
I slide my body up until my head was tucked under his chin. His body vibrated with unheard laughter.
Soon, his breathing got steady and I could tell he was asleep. I had gotten my greatest desire at the current moment; I got to stay here with him, something I could visualize myself doing for the rest of my life. He was a stranger to me, but I already knew that he was confident and funny, but shy and sensitive too. It was a combination that matched mine perfectly. He also had the same interest in gender as me, which was quite convenient. I mentally shook my head. I didn't even want to think about it. I hated being gay, but I knew it was who I am.
I willed the thoughts to go away as I took in my surroundings. It was my same old room, but something was different, Jack was here. I didn't bother to open my eyes, I was perfect here in his arms, and he was the only thing that mattered anyways. I reveled in his warmth and beauty, just all of his perfection. He was like an angel, I swear. But at the same time I knew he could be the devil that undid me. I can’t let him take me off my true path.
I’ll ask him about helping me find that bastard Jack later...
~
“Lex? Alex… Alex.. ALEX!” Jack said, shaking me gently.
“Huh? What?” I said, my voice actually plagued with sleep on this occasion.
“Somehow you ended up over here.. Erm well.. Up there” Jack said with a small smirk.
“Oh My Gosh I’m so so so sorry! I can’t believe I did that, I just get cuddly when I’m tired and move to the nearest object! I’m sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable, I swear to God it didn’t mean anything” I said, rushing my words and not really comprehending what I was saying.
His face fell and I re-analyzed my words, wishing I could take them back.
But you don’t always get your wish.

Notes

Title Cred: Macy's Day Parade by Green Day
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