Guts

It was the first day back at school after the break and I did not want to be here. I had begged my parents to let me stay, but they made me go. I met Jack and Maria outside the doors and we walked in together. It was the worst feeling in the world, knowing everyone was staring at you, judging you because you tried to commit suicide. Jasey had managed to spread it all through the town in a matter of weeks. They all knew. The teachers looked at me with pity and the students looked at me like I was a walking time bomb. Others laughed and called me names. I tried to ignore it like they told me to, but it still got to me.

As I was walking to my first class, Jasey walked by, wrapped around the quarter backs arm, they shot me a glare then laughed as they walked away. Luckily I had class with Jack so I wasn’t so alone. The rest of the day was a blur, until music class. The teacher pulled Yanni, Jack, Maria, and I aside and told us that his band had talked to some record companies and pulled some strings. He told us to have an EP by the end of our junior year and we could go places.

We were stoked! We couldn’t wait to tell Zack. For some reason though Yanni was super quiet and not his loud self. We couldn’t really ask what was up though because the teacher split us up into groups to learn a new instrument.

After class we had plans to meet up at my garage for practice. Zack beat us there because he was taking college classes and got out early. Jack and I couldn’t wait to tell Zack, but before we could say anything, Yanni cleared his throat and said he had an announcement.

He told us that his parents were moving out of the US and to Italy. He was devastated. They had less than 3 days to pack and go. He had begged and fought but they had made up their minds. We were at a loss for words. We just lost our drummer and a friend. He said that today was his last day of school and he couldn’t play today, but he didn’t want to leave us hanging and he invited a friend who drummed over to see if we wanted to let him join.

We were bummed out but we agreed. He told us they had been childhood friends and that they had been drumming together for years. He went to a high school across town. Yanni told us he was in the same grade as us.

A few minutes later a kid on a dirt bike pulled up. Yanni introduced us to his friend, Rian Dawson. We all introduced ourselves and asked what he could play. He told us pretty much anything that needed a beat. We all got set up and started playing “Bohemian Rhapsody” by Queen. As soon as we started playing he went for it. He did amazing! We were super stoked!
We informed Rian of the EP we had to do, and told him that if he was serious that he could join. But this wasn’t just going to be a little band; we were going to go places. He told us he was in! We all said our goodbyes to Yanni and went inside to introduce Rian to my mom.

*And her cooking!!!*
^That to haha

She was sad about Yanni like the rest of us, but she had taken a liking to Rian, she thought he was a good kid. After super we all went outside to talk. Rian told us about his life with his mom, step dad, and older brother. He pretty much spends his time drumming and fixing/riding his dirt bike.

We all told him about us and the band and how we came to be, we left out the hospital part. Before everyone left I asked them if it would be okay if we didn’t have practice that week because I had some stuff, they all agreed and Rian, Maria, and Zack all took off, leaving me and Jack.

Jack asked why I had canceled practice. I told him I had some ideas for a song and needed to start writing it so we could play it next week. He asked me what it was about, but I refused to tell him. I had the one song I wrote about Tom and I had another on my mind, now all I needed was to find some alone time to write it, because I had no alone time anymore.

I had to shower with the door unlocked, my meds were on lock down, I couldn’t go anywhere alone, and neither Jack nor Maria would let me sleep alone, if Jack wasn’t staying Maria was. All the parents were okay with this because they didn’t want anything to happen to me and with my mom working random hours, they didn’t trust me. They knew Maria and I wouldn’t do anything because she was like my little sister and her and Jack loved each other so much, they just weren’t allowed to stay at the same time unless my mom was there.


So thus my problem, I couldn’t write when people were around, it made me uncomfortable. So how was I going to do this? I had less than a week.

Notes

Hey guys I missed you! How are you?
I went camping and it rained like 3/4ths of the time -_- but it was fun I got to see alot of my family and my sister is here in town with me right now! We are going to the 3OL concert thing tomorrow (I have no idea what it is really). Is anybody going to it? Its in Dallas.

You guys are the best! <3




xoxo ^.^