Thanks To You

Jack POV:
Our lips barely brushed each others but it felt like a dozen butterflies shot through my stomach. It only got worse when the kiss deepened. I moved my hand to the side of his face, letting my fingers graze his hair. I let my tongue run over his bottom lip, begging for entrance, but that’s when things went wrong.

Alex pulled away from me, breaking the kiss, and jumped up from the couch. His eye were wide and scared. I immediately regretted kissing him so suddenly.

“A-Alex I-”

“I need to go.” He mumbled and shot towards the door. I jumped up and grabbed his wrist, making him stop but he just stared at the floor instead of me.

“Alex please wait! I can explain!” I said, I tried to get him to look at me, when he did, I gave him a pleading look.

“I-I can’t Jack. I-I can’t do that with you. I-I’m not gay!” He said, probably a bit louder than he meant to.

My eyes widened and I looked down, hoping my hair would hide my eyes that had started to tear up. “I’m sorry…” I whispered. I let him go and he went out the door, over to his car, and drove away without looking back.

I messed up.

I shot up towards my room.

I messed up.

I went into my bathroom.

I messed up.

I grabbed the only thing that could take this pain away.

I messed up.

I grabbed the blade that was hidden under my mirror and slid it along my wrist, not bothering to try and do it on my thighs like normal. I watched as the blood dripped down into the sink. I closed my eyes.

I’m sorry Alex.

Alex POV:
Jack kissed me, Jack kissed me, Jack kissed me!

I couldn't stop repeating that over again in my head as I drove away. I didn't know what was going to happen now. I told him I would always be there for him and then I ran from him.

Awesome Gaskarth, just great…

What was going to happen at school tomorrow? Would I be able to talk to him? If he even talks to me… I thought to myself as I pulled up to a stop sign. I groaned and hit my head agents my steering wheel. A couple minutes later another car behind me honked and shouted at me to 'Get going!'

My head shot up and I realized I was crying. Why am I crying? I wiped the tears from my eyes as I drove home. I’m not gay, I’m not gay, I can’t be gay! I like girls! Even though I thought these things, I still could still feel Jacks lips on mine. I couldn't get the thought of them and what happened out of my head. Then I realized, I kind of liked it and wanted it to happen again.

Shit…. What am I going to go now?

Notes

Uh oh... What's going to happen next?! Here is one before I go to school! Thanks for all the great comments and please keep them coming. Tell me if I'm doing anything wrong or if my story sucks! 205 views! :D