Deer In The Headlights

Jack's p.o.v.

"Wake up, there's a purple polar bear with dildos as fingers!" I yelled in Alex's ear, making him jump up.

"W-What? Where? I need to see this shit." Alex stretched out, laughing, exhausted.

"Awh, damn, you just missed him." I sadly said, rubbing Alex's back with a pout.

"Dammit, that was on my things to see list." Alex faked some sobs, pulling me down to hug him.

"What else is on that list?" I smirked, adding a creepy voice as I slowly said the words.

"You don't wanna know." Alex chuckled, pushing me off him.

"Fine then." I acted offended that he pushed me. I crossed my arms over my chest, stomping over to my chair and sitting on it with a pout.

"Stop being a drama Princess." Alex laughed quietly. I just shrugged and huffed, facing away from him, my inner five year old sneaking out.

"Don't be emo, come here." Alex opened his arms. I sighed, getting up, but stopping in front of Alex. I glared down at him.

"How do I not know that you're going to push me away? Make me fall onto the harsh ground?" I asked- the quote that happened in my nightmare last night- to Alex. I suddenly felt my mood turn down. What if he does push me away? What if he gets fed up with me?

"Because you'll trust me enough to know that I won't let you fall.I'll hold you tight and securely. " Alex grinned at me. Okay, so that was probably the most heart touching thing anyone has ever said to me.

"Now come here." Alex opened his arms again, looking at my with his shiny, light- brown eyes. I bit my lip, smiling though, and gave Alex a tight, big hug. He wrapped his arms around me, his head over mine, while mine was resting on his chest.

"I love you so much." I whispered, closing my eyes as his warmth relaxed me.

"And I love you too, a lot." Alex began rubbing little circles on my waist.

"I'm glad I met you, y'know. I don't know where I would be without you." I know I was being a sap, but I really wanted to tell Alex how exactly I felt about being with him.

"Really?" Alex asked calmly, pulling his head off mine. I lifted my head of his chest, my back arching slightly from where I was still standing. I looked up to him whilst he looked down.

"Yeah, you're basically my hero, even though I never wanted one." I frowned, looking away from Alex.

"You didn't want to be saved that night, did you? You didn't want to live in this world." Alex's voice held a strong piece of emotion. I nodded, finally letting out the truth.

"I didn't want to, no. I hate my life right now, you're the only good thing coming from it." I spoke truly, looking back at Alex's saddened face. I made that sad look on his face, and it kills me because it's the truth.

"Then why didn't you think about me?" Alex looked so upset, I just really wanted to make the look go away. But at the moment, as he spoke those words, my heart felt like it had been stabbed. Why didn't I think about Alex? What if I did die, what would Alex be doing now? Hitting up with the receptionist? Crying himself to sleep? I felt tears pickle the back of my eyes.

"I don't know." I whispered, barely hearing myself.

"You don't know?" Alex's voice was getting slightly louder. He didn't even realise it was rising with slight anger.

"N-No, I don't. I'm such a fuck up and I'm sorry."

"What if you died, Jack? How do think I would be feeling? What do you think I would be doing, huh?" Yet again Alex's voice got more angrier. I gulped, trying my best not to cry.

"You'd be h-happy and y-you'd be hooking up with the r-receptionist." I let a tear shred from my eyes, the warm salty water trickling down my face.

"So you think I would be happy? You think I'd automatically lose hope in you and run to someone else? That's how you see me is it?!" Alex snapped, making me flinch at his tone. I walked away from Alex, sitting myself at the corner of the room, away from him. I sat with my knees up to my chest, my forehead resting on my knees and my arms draped around my legs. I've made him angry. He thinks I don't trust him anymore. What sort of person am I? Clearly a fucked up one.

*Alex's p.o.v.*

I watched as Jack turned his back to me, walking over to the corner and pushing himself down. Why the Hell would he think that I would be happy if he wasn't alive? It's so untrue I don't even know where he got the idea from. There's certainly something that happened to make him think that. But what?

"Jack, I'm sorry, I just..." I groaned in annoyance and stress as I decided to get off my ass and go comfort my boyfriend. Why am I suddenly taking everything seriously? Jack might be saying that because...well, why would he be saying that I'd be happy if he was dead? Maybe it's his head messing around with him. I wouldn't be happy if Jack died, no way.

I sat down next to Jack, almost in the same position. I had my knees up to my chest, my arms around them, but I was looking at my broken boyfriend. I bit my lip, moving my hand behind Jack and pulling him into my chest as I laid out my legs.

"I'm so sorry Jack. I'm just frustrated because I don't understand how someone so perfect like you could hurt yourself like that." I said truly as Jack curled up into my side, his head placed in my neck and his hand around my waist. I could hear him sniffing slightly, making me feel so much more guilty.

"I'm not perfect though, I'm so far from it." Jack said so quietly, I only just heard him. He sounded like he was talking to himself, like he didn't want me to hear.

"You can shut the fuck up because that's defiantly isn't true." I say, kissing his hair, it tickling my nose.

"No, that's a lie. What you just said. I honestly don't understand what you see in me." Jack sniffed. Okay, what the fuck is up with Jack? He seemed so fun when he woke me up, then with just some different sentences, he clicks.

"Jack, I don't know what's happened to make you think and talk like this, but I'm not gonna pressure you into telling me. There's only one thing I'd like you to do, and that's to trust me when I say that you're perfect. Can you do that for me?" I ask. Jack's head slowly lifted up, he looked down at my lips before looking up and my eyes. There was a long silence. Jack seemed to look like he was thinking, so I let him. He needs the time to think through stuff. I stared into his eyes -to distract myself from breaking his thinking- noticing they were all pink and puffy from the tears. As I concentrated, I noticed that his eyes dropped down to my lips and his head tilted, moving closer to me. Before I knew it, Jack's soft lips were placed on mine, then them special Jack sparks sprouted in my belly. I closed my eyes instantly, Jack's lips finally moving after a few seconds. Our lips moved so innocently in so much passion. Our lips just moved together so nicely, it was almost un real. This kiss was so different from the others we've shared. It's the most innocent kiss we've ever shared. I wasn't complaining. My hand found its way to the back of Jack's head, bringing him more closer. And with that, the innocence disappeared. Jack's leg slipped between mine and he was pushing my body to the side, away from the wall. From there, Jack's whole body was hovering over me, straddling me. Our kiss deepened, got more rough, and I was loving every second of it. Jack pulled back slowly, opening his eyes as I did. He stared at me, panting slightly.

"I trust you, Alex. I really do." Jack grinned, looking down at me, his hair hanging down.

"Good." I smirked.

"Are you still gonna be a cute smart-ass and help me catch up on my lesson?" Jack asks, getting off me. I was actually enjoying Jack straddling, but oh well. I sat in front of Jack.

"Of course," I said, leaning over to peak his lips.

"Come on, up." I chuckle, getting up myself. As I got up, Jack held his hand out. I rolled my eyes playfully, reaching for his hand and helped him up.

"You lazy fuck." I commented, walking over to the table and sitting myself down on my seat. Jack followed, going to his seat.

"Okay, we're gonna play 21 questions because I want to learn more about you."

Notes

:)) elllllooooo. Sorry I didn't update twice yesterday, Batman and then sleep distracted me...kinda. Thanks, ey love ye. Where did all you guys goooo? ;-;