Deer In The Headlights

Alex's P.O.V.

"No Alex, seriously, I'm helping." Jack assured one last time, making me roll my eyes. Jack is too kind. I started by collecting all the egg shells and by then, Jack had done most of the side.

"No, Jack, let me do most the work, please " I said after quickly placing the sticky egg shells in the bin.

"Nuh- uh, nope." Jack protested, picking up wrappers from the side and walked up to the bin beside me. I starred as he put the rubbish in the trash. I kept silent, zoning out on nothing. My mind just went blank for no reason.

"Alex?" Jack asked, standing straight and looking at me. I moved my eyes to him and then suddenly I clicked, coming back the reality. What the fuck even was that?

"Sorry, I don't even know what just happened." I said in a bit of shock before shaking my head the slightest, getting back to cleaning the sides. I really didn't know what happened. I think I was zoning out on the way Jack was acting. He's helping me and being so kind and I just love the attention he's giving me, it makes me feel that I'm being loved.
I continued clearing the sides until they were ready to be sprayed. Jack put most of the food that was un-touch back into the fridge. I wad planning on cooking some kind of healthy dinner, I just felt like I needed it.

After clearing the whole kitchen-even stuff from days ago, we clasped on the sofa, both groaning with abit of exhaustion. I rolled my head-that was resting on the sofa back, and looked as Jack was half laid down on the sofa (his feet still on the ground but he was laying across the sofa) I smiled at him. He really is beautiful.

"Thank you for helping, Jack. You really didn't have to you know." I said softly, getting in a more comfortable position, my back arched forward a bit. Jack looked at me, his head moving, but not his body.

"You're welcome, Alex. And I wanted to help... Anyway, are we watching movies?" Jack asked, finally sitting up from his position. I nodded, getting off the sofa and walked over to my ps3, kneeling down and turning it on.

"Wanna pick one, I have Netflix?" I asked, turning to Jack who was getting a bit comfortable on the sofa. He shrugged.

"I really don't mind, any movie's fine." Jack mumbled, his elbows on his knees and his head in his knuckles. I nodded, turning back to the ps3 before getting up and walking to light switch and turning it off before walking back to Jack with an controller in my hand. I sat down next to Jack, leaving just a little space between us- I didn't want to be too close in case he didn't like it. I went to Netflix, searching through the movies. I saw Batman and smiled.

"Can we watch Batman?" I asked, turning to Jack- I could only just see him from the reflection of the ps3.

"Only if you let me cuddle with you." Jack smirked. Oh, okay. I'm defiantly taking Jack's deal.

"Come 'ere then." I chuckled. Jack's smile lighted up and attacked my side. He rested his head on my chest and I sighed.

"Hang on, let's find a comfortable space first." I laughed, pushing Jack off me gently.

"I think that sitting on my lap like a kid would be better." I finally said, believing it would work.

"Seriously, Alex? Alright...okay." He mumbled, placing himself in my laps with a blush. I rolled my eyes and moved him so it was comfortable for me as well. Jack laid his legs straight out on the sofa.

"Alright, are you comfortable?" I asked, placing one arm around Jack's waist and the other on his leg. He rested his head on my chest, his hands around my body a bit.

"Now I am." He mumbled in to my chest. I smiled down at him and then lifted my head up to the TV and pressed a couple of buttons before it finally played. I bit my lip from excitement. No matter how many times I've seen Batman, it always gets me giddy to see it. It's my second favorite movie, Peter Pan being the first. I snuggled Jack closer as the room was filled with sound effects and the room was dark, like, completely dark.

"I really don't like the dark." Jack mumbled, holding on to me just a little. I felt my heart flutter. God damn, he's cute.

"Spooky." I said in an over-dramatic ghost-like voice.

"Please don't Alex." Jack mumbled against my chest, giving me butterflies. Just then, the movie properly began.

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"Why would you hide where loose wood is covering a well?" Jack moaned.

"He doesn't know that!" I chuckled, resting my head on Jack's soft hair.

"Batman's stupid and confusing." Jack whined. I gasped, not believing what Jack said.

"Batman is the best, how could you even say that?" I 'angrily' said. I felt Jack shrug. I looked down at Jack, his eyes already glued on mine.

"I hate how annoyingly cute you are." I randomly said out of no where. It was true though. First he's scared of the dark and now he's just starring at me, eyes sparkling from the light.

"I'm cute?" Jack mumbled to himself.

"Mmhm." I hummed, so desperately wanting to kiss Jack. I don't think I've felt the desperate need to kiss Jack before. Do it now you dick. The voice inside my head said. Fuck it.

I lifted Jack's chin up from where it was looking down at his legs ever so slowly. He looked up to me, smiling and eyes twinkling. I leaned in, turning my head and Jack was quick to be met with my lips. We instantly began kissing slowly, every second a new butterfly shows up in my belly. I took my hand that was on Jack's leg and moved it to Jack's cheek, my other hand doing the same. Jack started going a little rougher with his lips now smashing against mine. I instantly did the same, enjoying the taste that Jack gave. Before I knew it, I was being pushed to lay my back on the sofa by Jack. Wow, I never knew Jack could be like this. And shit, he was good at what he was doing. He hovered over me and slowly connected our lips back together, closing his eyes before. Okay, so gentle to rough to gentle. Damn.

Jack decided to bit my bottom lip, making me moan. He licked my bottom lip then, his tongue being so gentle. I opened my mouth just the slightest before I opened it just enough for Jack to enter. Now he was straddling me, his tongue exploring my mouth. I moaned again and this time Jack removed his lips and tongue from my mouth. He starred at me for a while, panting slightly.

"Where is this going?" Jack asked. I frowned with confusion as to what he was saying.

"I mean, how far are we going?" Jack asked, a small blush forming on his cheeks. Once I finally realised what he was saying, I let out an 'oh'. I was ready for wherever this leads up to, but I don't know if Jack is. I mean, we only made ourselves official today, I don't wanna rush things.

"You can lead it up to any point because I'm okay with it, but I don't want you forcing things you don't want, okay?" I asked. The last thing I want is Jack doing something for the other when he's not comfortable. I don't think this will be going far anyway.

"Well, uh, i don't wanna go too far because we only just started dating today." Jack mumbled, hesitating a little before connecting his lips back with mine. I loved it how Jack was concerned about certain things, it's really cute.

We ended up making out for a really long time, and I was not complaining at all. I don't think I could ever get sick of Jack's lip- they're so different and nice. I was brought out my thoughts when Jack's belly rumbled. Oh, Fuck, I haven't offered him anything yet. I'm so terrible.


"Oh my god, I'm so sorry. Oh Fuck, umm, let's get you something to eat, do you want something to eat because I can get you something to eat if you lik-"

"Alex, I'm fine, stop worrying, I'm okay." Jack chuckled, cutting me off from my rambling. I sighed.

"I can't help it. I feel terrible that I haven't offered you any food yet. I was suppose to order a pizza an hour ago. Fuck, I haven't even offered you a drink." I started to panic that Jack would think I'm a terrible boyfriend. Why am I so forgetful and stupid? Jack probably can't pluck up courage and ask and he would've been hungry for God knows how long. I brought out by my worried state in my head from Jack kissing me softly on the lips. He pulled away shortly, his face still very close to mine.

"It's okay, Alex. I'm okay. I'm not even bothered about food. Stop worrying before you bring yourself into a panic attack okay. You're amazing and I lo-" Jack stopped mid word, seeming a bit shocked. Was he going to say the 'L' word? I smirked.

You lo' what?" I asked, a smirk still on my face.

"I love the way eyebrows." He said all too quickly. I bit my lip, trying not to laugh.

"You love...the way eyebrows? Jack, that doesn't even make sens-"

"I'm off to the bathroom; me needa pee." Jack said, getting off the sofa quickly with an sad expression on his face.

"Jack, get back here,".

"Jaack." I warned, watching him still walking.

"Jack, you don't even know where the bathroom is." He still continued to walk. I pouted before quickly getting off the sofa and slowly walking over to Jack.

"Jaaack." I whined like an five year old, walking faster and grabbing Jack by the hand. He tried pulling his hand away from mine, his other hand on his face.

"Alex, let go, please." Jack said, looking at me with tears in his eyes. Oh Fuck. Shit! What did I do?

"Jack, I-"

"Alex, I-I'm okay...just-just let go off my hand." Jack breathed out. I could see he was trying to fight tears in the back of his eyes. I let go and he walked up my stairs. I starred at the ground wondering what's wrong. Was it me? I think I did something wrong. But what? I heard a door upstairs shut so I carefully began walking up the stairs. I really wanted to know what was wrong.

I checked the bathroom and found out Jack wasn't there. But he said he was going to to the bathroom? I frowned and started walking over to my bedroom where Jack was just starring down at his hands, on my bed, seeming to be zoning out and lost. I sadly walked over to Jack and sat next to him on my bed. I immediately hugged him softly. This time I could see him crying.

"Shh, Jack." I hummed, rubbing his back a bit. Jack sniffed quietly like he was afraid to.

"I'm sorry, Alex." He sniffed again, hugging me tighter. I started to feel my own tears in the back of my eyes because of how broken he said that.

"Jack, why are you sorry? You haven't done anything wrong?" I asked, obviously confused as to why he would be sorry. It took a moment, but Jack finally answered back.

"I feel like I really don't deserve you. You don't deserve someone who spends their night in their bedroom wondering when it'll get better. You deserve someone so much better, Alex." Jack sobbed, his head into my neck, his sniffs turning into light sobs.

"Wondering what will get better?" I asked, starring at the wall and waiting for Jack's answer.

"Wondering if these scars will heel, wondering if school work gets better for me, wondering if my mum truly loves me, wondering if you truly love me." He said, slowing down at the very end. I bit my lip, pulling back from the hug. Jack went straight to looking at his knees, looking so broken.

"Jack, those scars will heal, school work does get better, trust me. Your mum loves you! Your her son! You may not see it because you have so much going up in your head that it's making you blind from the good things in life. And I, I love you with all my heart, Jack. The first time I saw you in hospital, I knew you were something so special to me. That's why I never said goodbye, Jack. I never say goodbye to the one's who mean so much to me because I feel like if I say goodbye, they'll never come back. You give me all tingle-y feelings and I love every one. Even when you slightly touch my hand I get butterflies. And yes, I'm aware that it might be a little too early, well it is way too early to say this, but I do love you Mr. Jack Barakat and I will always until you've had enough of me." I smiled sadly, to Jack. Jack looked up to me in shock.

"A-Alex, as far as I'm concerned, I'll never get enough of you. You so cute and amazing and I'm happy I found someone like you." Jack smiled, chuckling and leaned in to kiss me.

Notes

Okay, so this happened. I'm sorry if the jalex seems just a little rushed in this story D: I just want to say thank you for reading and actually enjoying this story; it means the world to me. Also, we're nearly at 11,000 readers! :o woahhh. I think this is the longest chapter I have wrote. >.< Happy thirty chapter? I don't know. okay, I'll stop rambling. thank youu.