Head On Collision

Jack's POV

I corner my husband in the corner of the room and I don't even realize what I'm doing before I do it. Not that I understand why I do it. Maybe I'll explain why later.

"I thought I told you to clean the house." I spat as Alex sits there, looking terrified.

"I never got to it. I'm sorry." He apologizes. I hit him and he shrieks at the sudden contact. "Please stop!" He begs. This has occurred more frequently now.

I feel bad for hurting him, but at the same time I don't know how else to show I love him. I was basically raised this way. My dad used to abuse my mother and I thought this was how you show them so I abuse him. I realize how wrong it is, but I don't know how else to do it. I really don't.

I begin to beat him to the point where he doesn't want to fight back anymore. I repeat things like "you've been a bad boy" or "you should've listened to me."

I wish I knew better.

--an hour later--

I lie in bed with Alex by my side, shaking from when I was beating him. His head is on my chest, our fingers intertwined and legs tangled together. I feel a wave of guilt take me over and I sigh.

"You okay, Jacky?" He asks, his voice shaky. I shake my head playing with his hair. "Wh-what's wrong?" He asks.

"I just beat you shitless." I sigh. "I feel awful."

"But it's normal... I should be used to it."

"It shouldn't be normal and you shouldn't be used to it. It's not right!" I nearly shout. He sighs and kisses My cheek. "I'm sorry I keep hurting you."

"I know you love me. That's all that matters."

"I shouldn't be hurting you." I say.

"You're still shaking." I say, hugging him and holding him tightly.

"I know."

"I'll never hurt you again. I promise. Okay?" I ask. "I'll try not to. I swear." Alex nods and kisses me. I smile, happy he hasn't decided to ditch me.

"I trust you."

"You shouldn't."

"But I do." He says, looking at me with eyes that say don't argue, so I don't. I nod and hold him against me. "I will always trust you. No matter how many times you hurt me. I know you love me. I know you'd never ever hurt me more than I know you're capable of. Don't worry about me."

"Okay." Is all I can think of saying. He nods and closes his eyes. "Goodnight baby boy."

"Goodnight, Jacky." He says.

I feel his muscles loosen and his grasp on my hand loosen as he slowly falls asleep.

In the morning he wakes up groaning. I Shake him lightly and he opens his eyes. I see pain in his eyes and I sigh.

It's all my fault. Mine. All because I don't know how to love someone without hurting them. I don't and it's because of my dad.

I looked up to him and I thought he was the perfect person. I thought everything he did was right. I still think so. I just started feeling guilty about it recently when I really noticed the fear on Alex's face.

"Jacky, do we have pain killer?" He asks. I sigh feeling bad.

"Yeah." I answer. He stands and I get up. "I got it. Just stay here and relax." He nods, lying down again.

I head into hall and over to the cabinet. I grab the lock and enter the code. I open it, quickly pouring out two and shoving the container into the cabinet.

I lock the lock and head into the bedroom. I hand him two and the glass of water that was on my side table. He smiles and takes them, then cuddling up to me again.

"I'll always love you." He says. I smile.

"I'll always love you."

Notes

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