It's just a dare. How bad can it be?

Alex's P.O.V.

"Jack, say something...." I spoke stepping closer to Jack & cupping his face in my hands. Jack kissed me one last time.

"I love you...m-more than you'll ever know...just promise me y-you won't e-ever talk to me ever again. Promise me you'll stay away from me. Just go on with your fucking life like we never met! Take your fucking money from Rian & laugh at how you lied to me about everything, lead me to think you actually loved me....just stay away from me." Jack spoke. My heart broke into a thousand tiny pieces. This can't be happening right now...this isn't real.

"No, Jack! Please! Don't do this, baby...don't do this. I'm fucking sorry! I love you, Jack! The feelings were & still are real!" I yelled desperately. I was begging him, crying into his chest. It hurt so fucking much. Jack pushed me off him & ran out the room, down the stairs, & out the front door.

I ran after him, calling his name but he just started running. I sank down to my knees in the middle of the street & cried my eyes out like waterfalls. My mom came outside running to me. She held me in her arms as I cried into her chest. After a while my mom took us inside the house & into my room.

We were sitting on the bed, I was still crying in her arms. She held me tight & gave me kisses on my forehead from time to time & rubbing my back.

"It hurt's so much..." I spoke barley able to say anything.

"I know baby, I know......it's gonna be okay." She whispered. I cried so much it felt like I could cry forever & the tears would never stop coming. My mom stayed with me until I fell asleep.

I woke up later, it was only 11 PM. I was all alone now. I don't have anyone. I don't have a best friend. I don't have a boyfriend. It's just me now. I looked for my phone & called Jack. One ring, two rings, three rings, four rings. No answer. Then it went to Voice mail.

"Jack, I-I'm sorry love....I know I screwed up really bad, I can't handle this....j-just give me another chance, please...I love you so much." I spoke into the phone crying. I called & left about a hundred more voice mails, then realized it was 12 AM now. Out of all the calls I made, he didn't answer once....not one time. I started thinking about everything, not having him with me everyday, not talking to him in the hallways & walking him to class, not being able to kiss him, hug him, hold his hand, & tell him how much I love him.

The room started spinning, my stomach was turning, I could barely catch my breath & it felt like my heart was pounding out of my chest. I was freaking out, I was shaking. I felt like I was dying. I knew what was happening....it's a panic attack.

I rushed out of my room trying to find my mom.

"M-om, help me...I can;t breath, I can-"

"Baby calm down, you're gonna be fine. It's just a panic attack, sweetie...breath." My mom was trying to calm me down but nothing worked, it went on for about twenty minutes until I was finally calm & able to breath.

I tried going back to sleep but it wasn't possible right now. I can't go to sleep knowing Jack just broke up with me. He's my whole world & my whole world came crashing down on me today.

I didn't go to sleep the rest of the night, I stayed up thinking about everything that's happened since I met Jack. I thought of how we met when I tripped him, when I made that bet, when I talked to him, when I took him on our first date, when he kissed me, when we played that game, our first time, when we started dating, when I started growing feelings for him, bailing him out of jail, when I knew I was in love, Valentine's day, writing a song for him, finding out about his past, making him feel better, struggling to make breakfast for him, being jealous of Brendon, staying at his house for the first time....the fight with Rian & now this....it's over. It's done.

I couldn't stay inside anymore, every wall felt like it was caving in. I went outside, the sky was dark & full of stars, the air was fresh & calming. I felt just a quarter of an ounce better. I walked around the neighborhood, not expecting my feet to take me straight to Jack's house. I stopped in front of his door. I wanted to go in but then I remembered his mom.

I went through the back & climbed up to Jack's window. I opened it, thank god it wasn't locked. I got in his room & saw that he wasn't even sleeping. He was huddled up on the floor, crying...My heart broke just a little more than it was before.

"Jack, baby. I'm sorry.." I whispered.

"A-Alex...what are you doing here?.." Jack asked. I walked over to him & sat on the floor with him.

"I love you. You have to believe me....you're my whole world, I can't have you leaving me...I'm so sorry..."

I started crying again.


"Just leave...don't make this harder for me than it already is.." Jack spoke.

"You don't have to make it this way....Jacky, I love you." I can't handle him saying no again.

"You lied to me, Alex....the entire time....everything was a lie...you did it for the money."

"No, Jack. It was like that at the start....but...I fell in love with you...you can't just leave me..." I spoke.

"I don't think I could ever trust you again....I'm sorry Alex...." Jack walked over to the window & held it open for me to leave.

"Just forget you ever met me, Lex...." I knew there couldn't be any other way to get him to forgive me...in that moment I knew everything I loved had become everything I lost. I went back out & came back home. I lied on my back, crying. I'm so glad I'm suspended for three days. I need the time off....who knew such an amazing thing could turn into such a catastrophe...

Notes

Well.....that's it for this. ;_; <\3

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