Unicorn Hair

“So, about this animal?”

“Seriously? You really want to know this?” I smile at him.

“Yeah.”

“Well, I don’t know. It’s a hard to say just one, you can call me an animal person if you want.”

“See and you said that it wouldn’t say much about you,” he laughs.

“And it does?”

“Kind of. So up to next question?”

“No! What does this animal thing says about me?” I break out of his embrace and look him in the eyes.

“Well, I don’t know if this is really true or is it just me, but persons who love animals are just…nice…they are nice to everyone and…lovely…I don’t know how to explain this, but…yeah…just nice…” he pecks my nose, “So, next question?” his voice just above the whisper.

“I guess so,” I crawl back him and wrap his arms around me.

“What do you like to do the most?”

“Like a hobby or something?”

“Mhm…” he hums in my hair.

“I don’t know. I don’t have much free time when to do what I really like. And when I do have time I’m too tired to actually do that.”

“But what do you want to do?”

“No, just move up to next question,” I murmur, moving my back closer to him and resting my head against his shoulder.

“Come on! Don’t say that you’re ashamed of that!”

“No! I just don’t want you to know that!”

“Why? You said I can ask you things I want. Things that will let me know you better. I want to know this. Please!”
“I like to sing,” I whisper, “I used to perform on Friday nights at bar a while ago, but not now.”
“Why not?”

“I haven’t had a free night in a while and when I have I just...I guess I just don’t feel like singing.”

We sit in comfortable silence, Jack drawing small circles on my hand, me – just staring at his long fingers. I guess he felt that this is hard thing for me to talk about. I just really don’t feel like sharing that with anyone. Jack is the only one I had talked about singing in last three years. If he got this out of me then I suppose he will find out more. I just can’t keep things from him.

“Why are you here?” he breaks our silence and startles me.

“What?”

“I mean, why are you living and working here? Is this really what you want?”

“Why do you keep asking that kind of things?”

“Just this last one,” I feel his soft lips on my temples.

I let out sigh and start talking, “When I got here I actually didn’t have a choice. Well, I didn’t need to do this, but I was here. Actually it was me who asked if I can do this, kind of. I wanted this and I got what I wanted, but now…I don’t think I like it. I know I don’t like. Well, not the way I liked it then.”

“But you can leave. It’s not like they’re holding you here, right?”

“They’re not, but I can’t. They need me. I’m not sure if this House would be able to survive without my money.”

“Is it really that much? Your incomes?”

“Mhm, as much as I know it’s almost half of the whole money House gets.”

“Wow, you really are popular,” he laughs, apparently trying to cheer me up.

“Yeah,” I stare with blank eyes and consider what Jack said. I can leave. I just need to stop thinking about others. It’s my life and I should live it the way I would like to, but I can’t, I’m too scared to be alone, without anyone who would help me, who would stand up for me. In this House we all stand up for each other and that’s what makes me feel safe here, ”It’s not like I hadn’t thought about leaving, I have, but leaving would cause me more problems than staying here.”

“Like what? I believe you have enough money to leave and find yourself normal place to stay.”

“And where would I go? I can’t stay here, it would be the same as to stay on the street and I have been there so I don’t need that. Of course, I could leave this town and go somewhere else, but…I have done that too and I don’t want to do that again. You can call me a coward, but I better stay here, at place I might hate, but at least I’m safe here.”

“We can leave this place together,” quiet whisper passes my ears and I’m not sure if he said what I heard.

“What?”

“We could do this together. We could leave together.”

“You wouldn’t do that.”

“I would, just say yes and I’ll be ready to go after few hours if that’s what you want.”

“You wouldn’t,” I break out of his arms one more time this night and turn around to look at him properly, “You want to say that you would leave everything you have hear and run away with me?”

“You don’t believe me, do you?”

“No, I don’t!” my voice is higher than it should be talking to Jack, but I can’t help it, “few weeks ago you were too scared to stood up for yourself and say no to these weddings. You were too scared to lose everything you might get from your father! You were too scared to lose money and all those goddamn houses you own and now you want to run away knowing that, if you do this, you definitely won’t get anything from that!”

“It’s different! If I wouldn’t have married this girl, he would’ve kicked me out I wouldn’t be able to even see you! I would have nothing! And I’m not talking about money or these houses! I’m talking about you! You might not believe that, but you mean more to me than these houses! If I have chance to get away from this place with you I will do this!” his voice is higher too and he’s yelling at me, maybe, because I was yelling at him too.

“You wouldn’t! You grew up living like that! You have no idea how it is to live with nothing! You would crawl back to your father after week!”

“How can you know what I would do! You don’t know me! You don’t know what’s happening in my head! You have no idea what I think about my family and you have no idea how much I would love to get away from them!”

“Then why didn’t you do that when you were supposed to get married! You had your chance back then, but you didn’t take it! Why now!” I was yelling at him and I’m pretty sure the whole House could hear it.

“What does this all have to do with wedding? Why are these weddings so important to you? You know there is nothing between me and that girl and that’s exactly how it’ll stay! Just forget about it! For you I’m still the same Jack without wife!” he gets up from my bed and starts walking toward doors.

“Oh, so now you will run away from me? Just like you’re running from all your other problems?”

“I’m not running from my problems! I hate yelling at you and that’s not how I imagined this night!”

“Of course, all you wanted from me was free sex, right! That’s all I can give to you!” I feel my throat getting sore and my eyes filling with tears. Don’t let him see you like this!

“I’ll see you some other day,” he drops his voice back to normal and walks out of my room.

“Don’t go,” I whisper, tears running down my face, “don’t leave like this!” I yell throwing pillow at doors, hoping that he will come back.

“Don’t leave me, Jack,” I hide my face in my messy sheets and let the tears run down my cheeks, “don’t go…please, Jack…”

Notes

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