Do it for me (Book one)

"I don't even bother to ask anymore." Alex replied.
Soon more people crowded in and I tried my best to not stand in the corner.
I hated being alone in crowds.
It made my anxiety rise extremely high.
"Hey." I heard a familiar voice behind me.
I shot up and turned to see Alex.
"Hey."
"I haven't seen you all night." He mentioned.
"Yea, I've kinda missed you." I admitted.
"Kinda?" He smirked.
I chugged down some of the drink letting the alcohol burn as it slithered down my throat.
"Jack's over there half naked." He laughed.
"Man, he really does get crazy doesn't he?"
"I figured you knew that."
"I did, but I didn't want to see like a crazy obsessed fan."
"Thinking about it, you probably are. You someone ended up on the same bus as us."
"Shut up you know I'm not." I said turning away.
I felt a hand on my arm lightly pulling me back to face him.
Our eyes met and he quickly removed his hand.
"I uh, I think I'm going to go back to the bus. Tell the guys."
"Why?"
"Just not feeling it."
"I'll come with you." It was an excuse to leave.
"I uh, don't think you should be alone. I'll keep you company." I continued.
"If you don't want to be in the crowd just-"
"Shush," I said rushing him out the gates.
"Wait, wait where are you guys going?" A shirtless Jack asked making our way over to us.
"Back to the bus." Alex spoke for me.
"Oh with Adrienne, I get it." He looked at Alex and smiled wide.
"Jack we're not going to do anything." I said assuringly.
"You said it yourself earlier, nothing on tour is serious." Alex looked back at me raising a questioning eyebrow.
"Come on let's go Alex."
"What's he talking about?"
"Uh, I said something like nothing on tour is serious."
"I got that."
"So he asked if that meant kissing, fucking, y'know and I said it does."
"Like you could practically be in a relationship with someone on tour and afterwards it was just, 'nothing serious'?"
"I mean I guess if it wasn't really official."
I stopped and turned to him, and he raised an eyebrow.
"So I.. could you know kiss you right now and it would be nothing serious?"
"Yea, but I couldn't allow that on the first night." I said opening the bus door and ascending inside.
"But, it still would be nothing serious right?" He asked following behind me.
"Why are you in such disbelief?"
"Because I've never met a girl who would take a kiss and not thinks it's serious."
I shrugged.
"So, I'm guessing you say that because you and Derrek?"
"It's always been a rule for me but it definitely goes in effect with Derrek." I laughed. "Aha, you guys get wild?" He asked winking.
I playfully slapped his shoulder.
"No, we don't do anyt- why am I talking about this to you?"
"C'mon, I want to hear about your's and Derrek's sexlife." He said jokingly.
"No sex." I cleared up.
"Really?"
"Don't be surprised!"
"No- no that's not what I mean-"
"Are you calling me a whore?" I asked jokingly.
"No!" He laughed.
I sat down onto the couch and reached for the remote.
"Why did you make up an excuse to leave?"
"You're a bad liar." He added.
"I uh, it's a really long story."
He looked out the window and turned back to me.
"I don't see the guys coming back for awhile."
He eased himself down next to me.
"It's so stupid I don't know why i'm hung over it."
"It's why you have anxiety isn't it?"
Seriously how does he know this?
"How?" I asked tagging a small laugh behind.
"Like I said, I have it too."
"I uh, was a shy kid back in highschool."
"Really?"
"It was uhm- really bad. And now these kids look up to me. I get letters and things about how much the lyrics I write means to them, and it's overwhelming. I dunno, I guess I don't feel good enough to be someone's role model?" I nervously laughed.

Notes

How would you guess like it if instead of just an update every Saturday, I update every wednesday and Saturday. I may or not, I dunno. Thank you for reading! Xoxo Makayla~