Missing

''Ugh, I need -'' Sarah yelled, ''I need -'' she groaned, continuing to claw through her make-up bag, ''OH MY GOD WHERE THE HELL IS IT?!''

''JESUS CHRIST, SARAH YOU MADE ME SMUDGE! WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR?!''

''MY LIQUID EYELINER!!''

''IT'S HERE YOU TWAT!'' I threw the tube at her, hitting her in the head. I let out a huge huff and wiped the smudged eye shadow from my eye.

Sarah's bedroom door opened and in walked in her sweet, sweet mother, Samantha. She had a large grin on her face. ''You girls ready to go? The concert starts in an hour,'' she said enthusiastically, why couldn't Jessica be like her?

''Almost, Mrs. Bowers!'' I cheered, shooting a glare at Sarah. ''If Sarah over here will stop making me smudge!'' Sarah stuck her tongue out and me and blew a raspberry.

Mrs. Bowers chuckled, ''I could hear you girls from downstairs, and how many times have I said it, Joce? Call me Samantha!''

''Oh okay,'' I smiled, ''Mrs. Bow- Samantha.''

- Half an hour later.

''Okay, Sarah, promise me you'll go straight home after the concert?''

''Yes mum,'' Sarah sighed, me and her were just itching to get out of this car and into that arena.

''I'm serious, no after parties, no getting drunk, no being late-''

''Okay mum! we're going!'' She moaned, pulling me out of the car as I just managed to say a goodbye and thank-you-for-dropping-me-off to Mrs. Bowers. Sarah was probably going to get drunk, she always got drunk after concerts, even before she was eighteen!

Once we were inside, everybody was 'raising the roof'. People were already dancing to the background music and All Time Low hadn't even appeared on stage yet! I was so excited yet so nervous to meet Alex again. The last time - and the only time - I met him, I told him practically everything about me. I wish I hadn't been so open, then again, he kept in touch after I told him about how I got bullied and beat up at school. I think I actually went to that concert with a broken nose.

''Hello everybodaaaaay!'' I hear an extremely familiar voice call into the mic. I look up to see the one and only - Alex Gaskarth, stood on stage right in front of me. It was funny how me and Sarah ended up at the front, we arrived quite late - not gonna point any fingers but let's just say a little birdy couldn't quite get her outfit right - and everybody had already filled almost the whole place. When you're with Sarah, being at the front was inevitable.

I heard Sarah next to me, screaming uncontrollably with the rest of the crowd. I was just stood there, smiling at him. God, he's even more gorgeous in person. You were right, fourteen-year-old self.

After around two hours of constant head-banging, mosh-pit avoiding and screaming along to the lyrics, All Time Low had finished their set. I'm sad to say that Alex made eye contact with me only once, and when he did he didn't even recognize me.

''Are you wanting to go outside their tour bus again or did you sort it out with Alex?'' Sarah asked, putting her arm around me as we walked through the gates and outside, then around a corner to the car-park where her mother would be picking us up. We could sort of make out where the ATL tour bus was from where we were stood.

''No,'' I said, feeling so disappointed that he didn't even wave at me or anything.

''No, what?'' She said, raising her eyebrows. ''What's wrong, Jossy?'' She stopped, making us both stop because her arm was around me.

''I don't know, it's just - Alex, I thought he was gonna notice me or something,'' I shrugged, leaning my head on her shoulder. I felt heartbroken. I had been waiting three years for this concert, three years for them to finally come back and play in a concert where I actually lived.

Three painful years.

''Well, you can't just expect him to stop performing and jump down off the stage and say hi to you now, can you?'' She tutted, ''God, this was supposed to be a fun birthday for you, stop worrying about him oka-'' She stopped speaking and widened her eyes.

''What?'' She grabbed me by the shoulders and span me around. I found myself face to face with the person I've been wanting to see all night. Alex. This time he was accompanied by Jack. Rian and Zack were no where in sight.

I couldn't say anything, all I did was open my mouth slightly, wanting to say something but no words came out. Instead, he did it for me.

''Hey!'' He grinned from ear to ear.

''H-hi,'' I stuttered. Oh my God, this isn't happening right now.

''Jocelyn, right?'' I was desperate to say something, but I couldn't. That's my social anxiety for you, I wish I was fourteen again, before all this shit happened. Before I got fucked up in the head.

''Yeah! She's Jocelyn,'' Thank you so much Sarah, ''I don't quite know what's wrong with her right now, she's... speechless, as you can see,'' I nodded along to Sarah's words, smiling. That's when I realized, Jack was with him, how can I just stand here and not say anything, when my best friend's probably freaking out inside right now.

''It's been a while,'' Alex chuckled, holding out his arms. ''Can I get a hug?'' I nodded enthusiastically and he engulfed me in his warm arms. Being honest, I had never felt more safe in my entire life.

After the hug, I found my voice. ''So, um, this is my friend Sarah, Alex you remember her, right?'' Alex nodded, sending a warm smile in Sarah's direction. ''More importantly, she's been wanting to meet you for ever!'' I said, looking at Jack and receiving a goofy smile from him.

I could feel Sarah shaking nervously, ''Say hi, Sarah,'' I smiled and pushed her a little.

''Hi,'' she said, barely audible.

I nudged her a little and whispered in her ear, ''Now who's the shy one?'' She cleared her throat and glared at me from the corner of her eyes.

''Yeah, I'm Sarah, I've been wanting to meet you forever, we were supposed to one time but you didn't come outside your bus, that was when we met Alex before,'' she explained, me being slightly shocked at how she spoke so fearlessly.

''That's really sweet,'' Jack laughed.

''Aw, give the girl a hug, Jack,'' Alex snickered, looking at me with a mischievous smile on his face, as Sarah and Jack hugged awkwardly. I secretly knew Sarah would be loving it though.

Jack and Sarah started talking about stuff, she looked like she was having the time of her life. This has to have been the best birthday ever. Alex took my wrist and made me face him, ''So, me and Jack are supposed to be going to this after-party thing, Rian and Zack bailed, so we were thinking of inviting you and your friend, waddya say?''

''Sounds awesome! Oh, shit,'' I sighed, thinking about Samantha's strict rules about no after-parties.

''What is it?'' Alex asked, frowning.

''Oh nothing, Sarah's mum just didn't want us going and-'' I was interrupted by Alex's cute chuckling. ''What?''

''Your accent, it's so... adorable,'' he smiled, I could feel my cheeks burning.

''It's only British, Alex,'' I furrowed my eyebrows but still smirked at him. ''But yeah, I don't know if I can go, I mean, I really want to and all... but if Sarah doesn't want to..-''

''If Sarah doesn't want to what?'' Sarah raised an eyebrow at me.

''Alex invited us to an after party and -''

''You know what my mom said,'' She shook her head, narrowing her eyes.

I sighed angrily, about to blow my top. How dare she just decide what I can and can't do, if Alex Gaskarth just invited me to a fucking party, then that is where I shall go.

''Well, I'm going, you can go home then,'' I said, causing an outraged expressed to spread across my best friend's face.

''No way, you're coming home with me,'' She demanded, grabbing my wrist.

''No,'' I yanked my arm from her grip. ''I'm sick of people making decisions for me all the fucking time, Sarah! Now are you coming with me or not?''

I don't think I'd ever seen Sarah this mad before, her face was almost bright red with a mixture of embarrassment and anger. I hated doing this to her, but I'm seventeen now, I'm my own person, and from now on; I make my own decisions.

''Fine! Go to the after party! Go get lost somewhere and end up in a gutter, raped or murdered! I don't even fucking care! Fuck you!'' She screamed at me before storming off.

''Oh, God,'' I sighed, looking at Alex and Jack who seemed to be shocked but remained silent throughout the whole thing. ''I'm really sorry about that, guys. She never goes off like that,'' I let out a second sigh, because I didn't know what else to do.

''You know what? It's fine, everybody fights, you'll make up. But since you've probably just lost your ride, you should come back to this party with us. Better than staying out here all night on your own isn't it?'' Alex smiled, making me feel a little better. He put his arm around my shoulder and Jack put his arm around my other one.

''Yeah, you'll be okay,'' Jack rested his head on top of my head. I loved how tall he was.

''Happy birthday, by the way,'' Alex said, winking at me.

''Thanks, for remembering too,'' I smiled.

''It's your birthday?!'' Jack gasped dramatically, ''you know what this calls for, Jocelyn?''

''What?'' I smiled.

''One heck of a party,'' Jack looked at Alex.

''LET'S GET WASTED!'' They both cheered. I didn't care how old I was, all I knew is that getting absolutely hammered tonight was inevitable.

Notes

Here's chapter three! I'm on a roll c;