A Daydream Away

Chapter 2
“Dude! This is awesome! You can finally talk to Jack!” Zack whispered excitedly at our usual lunch table.
I had told my two best friends about the exchange in the classroom, and they couldn’t have been more excited.
I, on the other hand, was scared out of my fucking mind. How was I going to talk to a boy I’d had a crush on for 2 whole years? I could already see myself stuttering as I tried to tell him that I had to sit next to him from now on. This wasn’t going to help my grades at all.
“Guys, this is going to screw everything up. What if I get like a boner in the fucking middle of the class?! He’d totally notice. I was fine just daydreaming about him.”
I had chosen not to get anything for lunch, I felt like I was going to throw up the cereal I had for breakfast. I squirmed in my seat, completely uncomfortable with what was going to happen tomorrow.
“Dude, he’ll love you. You’re hot, you’re hilarious, and you’re utterly fabulous.” Rian joked, knowing I hated it when he made out that all gays were flamboyant.
“Rian, I like dicks, not glitter and Vogue.” I responded halfheartedly. My anxiety was already on overdrive, and it didn’t help that Jack and his friends were sitting two tables down, in full sight of me.
Jack and his friends were… well popular, unlike me. Some were jocks, some were just class clowns, and some were just really hot. Jack was only the last two, but he was still good at P.E., or at least he was when we had it together last year. The best part was having a locker 10 down from his. I smiled, thinking of his happy trail and the faint smell of the cologne he put on after class finished.
“Alex!”
I snapped back into reality and sighed out a “what?” towards the direction of my friends.
“Did you finish it?” Zack questioned.
“Finish what?” I responded, confused. I really needed to work on zoning out. It had been getting worse lately. I turned my head towards Zack, giving him full attention.
Zack sighed before speaking again. “Did you finish the song you were writing for-”
He looked towards Jacks table and smirked “-for you know who… speaking of him, don’t look now, but he’s burning a hole into the side of your face.”
My eyes widened and I swallowed as I attempted to casually turn my head to face his.
Before I knew it, we had locked eyes. His lovely brown orbs peered into mine, and he smiled. Jack Barakat was smiling at me. I felt the side of my lips perk up as I smiled back, my heart going a million miles an hour.
After what seemed like an eternity, one of his friends said something funny and he turned away, laughing at whatever joke was floating around their table.
I sucked in a breath, and felt the air shaking as it went into my lungs. The world around me was fuzzy, and I heard Zack and Rian speaking but I couldn’t comprehend what they were saying.
I was having a panic attack in the middle of the cafeteria.
'It's just chemicals. Breathe. It's just chemicals' i repeated to myself, taking deep breaths.
I turned to Rian, trying to get him to do something. He stared at me, his eyes wide. He knew what was happening, but didn't know how to stop it. No one did, not even me.
Everything was spinning. It was going so fast. A black circle started appearing around my vision, and the only thing I could hear was my heart, and it sounded like a bass drum going a billion miles an hour. I tried to grab on to Zack's shoulder, but instead of feeling his warm shoulder in my hand, I was falling backwards into nowhere.
And then, everything was black.

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