I'll Keep A Secret If You Keep Me Guessing

“You can stay here if you want to.” I said, smiling
“I wouldn’t want to bother you…” He thinks he's going to bother me?! He'll never bother me. Actually, I prefer him then most of my friends now, because he's all quiet and doesn't start shit that he can't end. Plus nobody has slept around for some time.
“You’ll never bother me.” I coughed.
“Us, I mean… It’s not a problem if you stay the night.” I blushed a little as I walked out the room to leave Jack in there. I wondered downstairs to get some food as I was starving. My mum was sat at the table, as usual.
"Hey, mum!" I greeted, trying to grab as much crisps and biscuits as I could. She looked up from her book and smiled.
"Hey, darling." Then went back to her book. I still don't understand why Jack can't go home. What happened? I think I'll ask him later, that's if he'll let me in and be open.
"Hey, mum? Could Jack stay the night?" I asked putting about five crisps under my arm and two handful of chocolate and biscuits.
"Why of course, he's no trouble." She smiled. I smiled a 'thank you' to her as I slowly made my way back upstairs- trying not to drop anything. But in result: I dropped about two crisps. That made me annoyed. As I walked in my room, I saw Jack kneeling down at my guitar. I smiled, he plays, huh?
"Hey, sorry about that. Yeah, you can stay for sure." I assured, as I dumped the very un-healthy food onto my bed. He turned around and looked up to me, before standing up awkwardly scratching the back of his neck.
"T-thank you." He looked down, then back up. His eyes starred at me. I saw something strange in them. Something I've never seen before but suddenly knew about. I saw pain. No Alex, don't be stupid!
"You're welcome." I pulled my eyes away from his and remembered I had dropped some crisps on the stairs.
"Be right back." I said, walking out my room and walking halfway down before coming back up. This time Jack was stood right where I left him, confusion written on his face. He was just starring into thin air.
"Hey, I'm back." I said quietly, not wanting to disturb his zoning. He didn't even look up, and probably didn't hear me.
"Jack?" I said a little loudly. His head shook a little then he looked at me for a split second before replacing them on the ground.
"Hey." He quietly said. Something is up. I just don't know and I want too. Not being nose-y.
I walked further into my room. I walked to my bed, moving all the 'crap' food to one side and gestured Jack to sit down. He made his way to me and slowly sat down.
"So! What do you wanna do?" I smiled to him. He shrugged, playing with his hands. Urg.
"Hey, I saw you eyeing my guitar...do you play?" I asked. That's when a smile approached his lips. He nodded shyly. I got up and grabbed the guitar, and carefully place it on Jack's knees. He just starred.
"Go on! Play" I shouted happily. But then he shook his head. That made me confused as hell. "Why the fuck not?!" I sadly said. He took a deep breath and carefully placed the guitar under his hands and played a random chord.
"B-because I'm not that good." He shyly said, before putting the guitar back on his legs where I gave it to him.
"No! I bet you're good. Just please play me something." I begged, giving him my best puppy eyes. He sighed and put the guitar in playing position.
"Okay, but what should I play?" He asked, more interested. I thought for a second.
"How about...Blink?" I suggested, and he nodded.
When the start of I Miss You started playing, I was amazed. I actually had to remind myself that it's Jack, not Tom or Mark. It just sounded so good. His head swayed along with the sound. He was so good. Better than me! I started humming along to the first chorus, but then I started singing through the whole song. Jack was looking at me as I sang. I wasn't too comfortable singing in front of people. But come on, it's Jack. I know he won't tell anyone.
Jack played the last note before looking at me with shock.
"Jack, that was ama-"
"Holy shit, Alex! Y-your voice. It's amazing!" He said still shocked. I blushed, letting my hair flop down in front of my face as I looked down, awkwardly tugging my jeans.
"No, b-but thank you," I mumbled, before looking up, "You are absolutely amazing at playing guitar!" I smiled.
"T-thank you." he blushed.
We sat in silence. Not too awkward and not too comfortable. That was until I broke it.
"Hey, do you wanna watch a movie downstairs?" I asked, looking at Jack as he nodded. I got up and helped him up. I grabbed some of the crisps on from the bed.
"Come on then, lazy shit." I laughed and he chuckled. We walked downstairs and I gestured Jack to sit on the couch as I went to the fridge to get some drinks. As I got to the fridge I saw a note stuck to it. I sighed and ripped it off before reading it.
"Alex,
I have gone out to help your father on his business trip and won't be back for about two weeks. There is some money in the money jar to last you. Be safe and don't do anything stupid. Plus don't have any of your idiotic friends around, but Jack.
Bye,
Mum."
It read. Why couldn't she just tell me instead of writing it? I was literally upstairs. Urg. Why not anyone but Jack? Mm.
I opened the fridge to get two colas out. I walked back to Jack and sat down, handing him his drink. I picked up the remote as I pressed the 'on' button and waited for the t.v to turn on.
"Do you wanna pick a movie?" I asked Jack as I opened my cola. He shook his head.
"N-no, you can." He awkwardly said. I looked back to the t.v as I saw it had turned on. I went straight to 'movies' and started looking: Green Lantern..no, Life Of Pi..what? Hell no, Saw..no, Home Alone, Frozen-
"Alex." I heard Jack whine.
"Uh, yeah?" I asked confused. He said he didn't want to pick a movie.
"Home Alone, please, please, please." He begged. This is the type of Jack I have never seen. The non-shy Jack. I like it. I sighed as I moved up to Home Alone and pressed it. Luckily, it only had started, but the advert were playing. Urg, adverts.
"Thank you." He smiled and opened his cola.
"You're welcome, but why Home Alone?" I asked, taking a sip if my cola, and moved slightly up to Jack as I was literally right at the end of the couch and I didn't want him to think I was staying away from him.
"What do you mean? '...but why Home?' Home Alone is like the best movie ever!" He shouted. I laughed and got up to turn the lights off. As I sat down, I made sure I was close to Jack. If I'm closer to Jack, he might find it a bit easier to see that he doesn't bother me. But as Home Alone started, I pulled Jack's head to my shoulder.
"Uh, A-Alex, wh-"
"Shh, it's starting." I said, putting my attention on the screen. He sighed before smuggling into me. I place my arm around his shoulder and we stayed like that. As the Home Alone theme song finished and the actual movie started, I heard Jack mumbling on the lines of the charters on the movie. Wow, he must of watched this movie more then once to actually know what they are and what they are going to say. It was annoying but cute. Wait? Cute?! What the hell, Alex? I sighed as I tried to concentrate on the movie, but ended up concentrating on Jack. He seemed more happier now then earlier. This honestly made me a bit happier. The fact that he's not so shy to talk to me made me happier. Getting the shyness out the way is step-one. Now I just need him to open up. Then earlier came back to me.
"Jack, Why couldn't you go home?" I asked over the movie. He looked up to me and I could see the glim of sadness in his eyes through the dark.
"I uh, I don't wanna talk about it." He said sadly. I hugged him tightly to me.
"It's okay. You don't have to tell me. I was just wondering." I said. I was a little disappointed that he is still not opening up. Damnnit Alex, stop being selfish. 'Maybe he doesn't want to open up to someone as horrible as you' The voice in my head snarled. I sniffed and looked up to the movie.
Near the end of the movie, I glanced over to Jack to see his mouth parted and his eyes closed. I sighed as I moved out off his grasp and stood up. I looked at the way he slept. So peaceful. 'Stop starring you weirdo'
I leant down and wrapped one hand near his thighs and the other on his shoulder blade as I gently picked him up. I moved slowly to the stairs. He's so light, it's unbelievable. I steadily walked up the stairs- trying not to drop Jack on his head. As I reached my bedroom, I placed Jack on my bed. What? I couldn't let him sleep on that uncomfortable sofa. Plus I didn't want to sleep on it either. I moved the biscuits and chocolates on my coffee table and went to the bathroom to get undressed.
I looked into the body mirror and sighed in disbelief at the scars on my belly and thighs. Some were recent. I shook my head and pulled my pjama bottoms on, and walked back into my room with just my bottoms on. I joined Jack, and pulled the covers over both off us and started drifting off with the heat of Jack and the covers.

Notes

Awwhh ,Alex. Thank you guys so much for subscribing and voting and actually reading. I didn't expect to get anything. Thank you so much!