Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

I woke up 3 hours before my alarm and I could tell by the way I was immediately grinning that I wouldn't be able to get back to sleep, despite it being 4am. I got to see my baby again today and I couldn't wait.

I practically ran to the kitchen, deciding against having a coffee, instead pouring myself a bowl of cereal. I tried to waste time eating it slowly. I couldn't help keep glancing at the clock, counting down the hours and the minutes until I could see Alex again. Once I'd finished my cereal, I went and had a shower, blasting Greenday and singing along as loud as I could.


After a couple more hours, I began to feel sick with nerves. I kept on adjusting my tie and my hair, making sure I looked good for Alex. I sat on the settee watching the clock, my legs jigging up and down with anxiety and excitement.


I was almost bursting with happiness. After today, Alex and I were free to do whatever we wanted. I'd been looking online and found a gorgeous little house near the beach in Southport, North Carolina. I'd already emailed the owners about it before even showing it to Alex due to my extreme excitement. I was sure he'd love it. If I worked efficiently I could get everything sorted in under a week. Luckily, the local high school even had a vacancy. I just hoped I wasn't wrong about Alex loving it.


My therapy sessions were going great and I could tell I wouldn't even be thinking about the sleeping pills soon. I wondered how Alex was getting on at his. I knew before therapy that he had almost completely stopped cutting and he was purging less, although I think stress got on top of him during his exams because there were a few days where I'd hear him be sick more than once a day. At night, I'd hold him in my arms and run my fingers through his hair, my chin resting gently on his shoulder and he seemed to know I was telling him that everything would be okay because I'd feel him relax.


I couldn't wait to get away. Escape to my dream place with Alex. Especially now vic was in the scene. Alex came home from school one day and he smelt different. I asked him why he smelt weird and he told me he'd been hugging vic. He said he'd broken down after one of his exams and didn't want to bother me. I was suspicious but Alex promised me there was nothing else to it. I tried to push it to the back of my mind but it wasn't the first time vic had been a bit..friendly. I told myself they were just good friends but it was hard.



I jolted awake suddenly, not even realising my thoughts had whisked me away to sleep. Glancing at the clock I saw I was going to be late, depending on how fast I drove.

"Fuck!" I cursed as I rubbed the sleep from my eyes, dashing out to my car and speeding away. Time to go see Alex again.

Notes

I BET Y'ALL THOUGHT THIS CHAPTER WOULD BE THE GRADUATION CEREMONY

HA YEAH NO THAT AINT HOW I ROLL


I'll probably update again today cos I have nothing else better to do so yeah



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