Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

I'd just gotten home after my final exam, the one I'd been dreading most. It had finished after schools normal finishing time so Jack was already home.

"Woah, what's up?" Jack appeared from the kitchen, drying his hands on a tea towel.

"What? How did you know?"

"I heard and felt the door slam. You made the lights flicker. What's wrong?"

"I've fucked everything up!" I threw my bag at the floor, tears starting to spill over down my cheeks.

"Your exams? Oh baby I'm sure you haven't"

"I fucking have! I've done shit in all of them and I'm going to have fucked up my entire future because of it!" I practically screamed at him, punching the wall.

"Lex, baby, please don't take your anger out on my wall. I bet you've done amazingly. You spent the past month studying non-stop. You won't have done badly, I promise. Nobody could study that hard and not do well. And anyway, even if you've not done as well as you wanted, I'll still be extremely proud of you. You haven't ruined anything"

"You don't know anything! I've done so badly in nearly every single one of my exams, I know I have!" I yelled.

"Lex, calm down. Its okay, just breathe" I did what he said, my hands still balled up into fists.

"You're just stressed. All those exams and that studying has put you under a lot of stress. You just need to calm down, okay? Come on, come and sit down and we can cuddle" he held his hand out to me.

"You don't fucking know shit!"

"Alex, I am not going to try and help you calm down and feel better if you talk to me like shit" I glared at him for a minute and he raised his eyebrows at me. Tears kept falling down my face and I just crumbled under his gaze. I let my body go limp before crying harder and throwing my arms around him. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight. We ended up on the settee, me in jacks arms, my head tucked under his chin protectively.


"You've finished all your exams now anyway. We just have to wait until graduation. Just a little bit longer before we can be in a relationship properly, out in the open. Have you thought about what you want to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"About us. Do you want to move away from here? Get out of this town? Escape all the memories?"

"I don't know, I've not really thought about it. I don't care"

"Lex..don't be like that"

"No, no, I meant I don't care what we do, as long as we're together. Do you want to move away?"

"I think so. I kinda want to go somewhere where nobody knows us and we can start fresh..if you're okay with that, of course"

"I'm happy with whatever you want to do"

"I was thinking we should just pack up all our stuff, sell my apartment, transfer my work, say our goodbyes and just leave"

"Where were you thinking?"

"I'm not sure. Somewhere coastal and warm I think. I think that would be nice"

"Mhmm. I'd like that. As long as we're together, we can go wherever you want" I kissed him softly.

"I've booked you in for therapy this week by the way. Me as well"

"Why you?"

"I need to sort out my sleeping tablet addiction. I don't want us to start a new life together with our old problems. I want our new life to be like a second chance for both of us"

"Sounds goo-" I was interrupted by my phone ringing. It was vic so I excused myself and answered it, settling against jacks chest to talk to him.

"Alex! Alex, are you with Jack?!" He asked in a panic. I sat up slightly.

"Yeah, why? What's wrong?"

"You need to fucking leave! Right now! You and Jack, you're not safe anymore! There are rumours, I don't know how they started or who started them but you need to get away from Jack! School knows!"

"What?! No no no! This can't fucking be happening! We were so careful! Why now?!"

"I don't know, kitten. But you need to fucking go home! I'll be your alibi for anytime you need. Just go! Leave Jack and go home!" He hung up and I turned to Jack.

"What's wrong?!"

"School knows. About us. They know." I stroked his face gently as I spoke, trying not to cry.

"No! No, they can't!" Jacks face looked pained.

"Its okay, baby, its okay, but I have to go. I have to keep my distance from you now. I can't be seen even talking to you. Delete my number and any pictures of me. I have to go, I'm so sorry. I love you so much but I guess I can't really speak to you now until graduation" I kissed him hard before I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him as tight as I could. "I'm going to miss you so much. I love you more than the world. I'm so sorry this has happened, we'll be okay, we'll make it through" Jack told me, giving me a bone-crushing hug.

"I love you more than anything"

"Just promise me you won't relapse. I still want you to go to these therapy sessions, okay? I'll find a way of letting you know the times without contacting you. I love you"

"I love you too. See you at graduation, baby" I said, my voice turning into a whisper and I left jacks apartment having no idea when I'd next be able to even speak to him.

Notes

I'm sORRY DON'T HATE ME
JALEX ISN'T BROKEN JUST SEPARATED FOR A WHILE

ITS OKAY
but I also started a new fic, its called Let's Fabricate and I'd love it if you gave it a read!:D