Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

I went against my gut feeling that told me I shouldn't call vic because I really needed a hug and if I couldn't get one off Jack, vic was the second best.

He knocked on jacks door so I went to let him in.

"Oh, lex..I'm sorry" he said sympathetically, pulling me close to him. I did nothing but burst into tears.

"Come on now, don't cry, its okay, he'll be out of hospital soon I'm sure" he said softly after a minute or so.

"But what about Rian?"

"He wouldn't dare do anything. He's a coward. He can't even face the truth about what he is" vic reassured me. I bit my lip, still anxious.

"All you need is distracting and cheering up, yeah?"

"And Jack back"

"Yes..well..I'm a friend, not a miracle worker. I don't have healing powers, kitten. No matter how much I wish I didn't have to be here comforting you because he's in hospital. But, I did bring popcorn and your favourite film"

"You did?"

"I did!" He grinned at the small smile threatening to appear on my face and took my hand, spinning me round and pulling me into the room. He got a blanket and wrapped it around me then sorted the film out. He then pulled me over to the couch and sat down, moving me so I was leaning against his chest.

After we'd watched the film, I was starting to get tired but not tired enough to fall asleep so we just sat there for a while. Vic's fingers were combing through my hair gently.

"You know, I was pretty scared about asking you to come over"

"You were? Why?"

"I was scared you'd try something and I'd cheat on Jack"

"I wouldn't do that"

"I know. I don't know what I was thinking. I know you better than that"

"Besides, I've met someone new"

"Really?" I looked up at him and saw that he was blushing. I'd never seen vic blush before.

"Mhmm. He's really cute and hot and we like all the same things and he makes the nicest cupcakes you've ever tried even though you wouldn't think it to look at him and his parents are really nice and lovely and he's in some of my classes but he was always too nervous to talk to me before but then he got really jealous when I was with you and he said it made him realise he had to get the fuck over himself and talk to me so he did and I'm so glad he did because I really really really like him"

"That's great! What's his name? When can I meet him?"

"He's called frank and I'm not sure. We're kinda dating in secret at the moment but oh god I just want to hold his hand in public and kiss him on the nose and let him hold me and I want to show him off to the world but he said he's not ready for that yet. He looks all tough but he's really so shy"

"Have you told him all that?"

"Not yet. Do you think I should?"

"Definitely. He might be ready now anyway, it just might not have come up in conversation or something"

"Yeah, you're right!"

"I always am"

"Shush kitten"

"Wait so if you call me kitten when I'm only your best friend then what do you call him? It must be cuter otherwise it'll be weird" Vic's cheeks turned scarlet.

"What do you call him?" I laughed.

"I-I'm not telling you"

"Aw come on it can't be that bad!"

"cuddlebug" vic whispered reluctantly, blushing furiously. I burst out laughing.

"Shut up! I knew I shouldn't have told you!" He hit me on the arm.

"I'm kidding! Its not that bad, its..cute....kinda"

"Aaa-leeeex!" He whined.

"No, no, okay it is pretty cute I suppose"

"It just suits him, okay?" Vic blushed bright red again and looked down.

Silence fell over us again. I was getting closer and closer to falling asleep when vic spoke again.

"Do you ever think about the future?"

"What do you mean?"

"Like you and Jack. Have you ever thought about what's going to happen with you guys?"

"Not really, besides staying together"

"You've not thought about marrying him or having kids with him or anything?!"

"Nope. I don't care about any of that as long as we're together. I've not even thought about if we'd move house or something because honestly I'd live in a cardboard box and be completely happy if Jack was there with me"

"That's cute. You really love him, huh?"

"Yeah, I really do" a minute passed where neither of us spoke.

"So what about you?"

"What about me?"

"Have you thought about the future? You and your cuddlebug?"

"Shut up! Not specifically but since we started dating, everytime I've thought about the future I've not been able to imagine it without him in it"

"Do you love him?"

"I'm not sure. I'm not sure what being in love feels like"

"Its hard to explain..I feel like Jack tore my heart in two, took one half of it and replaced it with half of his heart. He's a part of me, y'know? I don't think I could live without him. I just...I'm in love with him, I dunno, I can't explain how it feels. Have you ever loved something so much it feels like you're just going to explode and cry and yet you're just smiling? That's what its like with Jack. I love him so much it hurts sometimes"

"Don't you just hate life?" Vic said quietly after a minute.

"Sometimes. I definitely used to but then Jack became my life. Why do you hate life?"

"Its so unfair. Why is it that the person you're in love with is one of the only people you're not allowed to be with? Why couldn't I have been Jack and Jack have been me? Why couldn't we have been born the other way around? Its so unfair, the injustice of it"

"We're okay though. We're like romeo and juliet with our whole forbidden love thing but without the suicides. And of course, juliet is a guy who likes dick in his ass" vic smiled at that, sighing softly and making no further attempt at conversation.

I found it astonishing sometimes how Jack knew me better than I knew myself. Having vic round had helped me a lot. I just hoped that Jack wasn't in too much pain and was getting to sleep easier than I was.

I eventually drifted off to sleep with one concluding thought on my mind; I couldn't think about the distant future yet. Moving in together, marriage, kids. We couldn't think about that yet, first we had to get through now, although I had no idea how we were going to do that.


How would I cope if Jack was taken from me?

Notes

Did I just ship Vic Fuentes and Frank Iero?! YES. YES I DID.


fuero. I like it



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