Sin

I didn't see Alex the rest of the weekend, and even though his text message said he would see me today, I was sure things were over. Rian even said that Alex didn't like being referred to as my boyfriend that morning. So now, here I was, waiting at his locker ready for the worse.

It kind of really sucked, feeling like I was going to be left. Is this how Holly felt all those times I said no to a relationship? Now maybe I feel a little sorry for her. And all the others. I don't know if I can even go back to the lifestyle I had before. Well, no, I probably could. With the reminder never to give a shit about anyone like that again.

“Jack?” I looked up and found Alex in front of me. Well, here it comes. “You look like you're thinking too hard.”
“Yeah...so uhh. Hey.” I muttered.
“I know my mom saw you yesterday. Smoking.” He said, seeming to be perfectly okay with this. Asshole. “But don't worry, I convinced her you're still a good person. We can still hang out, just not as much.”
“Oh..”
“What's up with you?”
“Well, considering we had a fight then Rian told me you said I wasn't your boyfriend, I figured we were over.” I mumbled, looking away. “Guess I was wrong...I'll just go.”
“Wait, Jack-” Alex said as I pushed off the lockers to walk away.
“See ya later.” Is what I said, but Alex grabbed my arm and managed to pull me back towards him.
“I didn't mean to say that, okay?” He said, making me look at him. “I was just really mad, and now that you mention it, we should talk about that fight.”
“Okay, fine. Let's talk about it.”
“Well, not now. We have class.”
“Well, when then?”
“It's been a couple days.. You can come over to mien after school.” He offered and I shrugged.
“Kay.”

The day went by awkwardly, if Alex and I saw each other we just kind of waved, Music class we hardly spoke. Seems like Alex caught on to my annoyance, and was starting to feel the same way or just bad about it. When class finally ended, I quietly followed Alex to his locker before we went off to take my bike to his place. All was silent up until we ended up in his room.

“So, uhh, I guess I'll start.” Alex said, sitting on his bed, patting it for me to sit down. I chose to stay leaning against the wall. “I understand you're upset with me because of the bullying, but you don't understand. If Jon beats me up, he leaves Patrick alone. The poor kid is messed up enough, I don't want to see him hurt anymore. I didn't tell you because I know you'd freak out, and it's terrifying when you're mad. I don't want to see you like that again.”
“Well what about the school?”
“Why would I do that? They'd tell my parents and I would be pulled out of the school.”
“It would be better that way then you being hurt every day.” I snapped. “I would make the time to see you, I would do everything to make sure nothing really changed. I hate seeing you all bruised up like that. It still bugs me that I can see the burns on your arm. I've known it was Jon this whole time, but I have yet to do anything cause I was hoping you would!”
“I don't want to have to start over again! I don't have any friends around here but you and kind of Patrick.”
“What about Rian and Zack? They love you already, man. They're your friends. Hell, you're parents would probably send you to Zack's school, you'd be fine.”
“I don't wanna be away from you!” He complained, standing up. “I like you, I really fucking like you. My entire character has been changing, all thanks to you. I'm pretty sure I'm going to hell, for you!” He yelled at me back.

Since I was guessing his parents weren't home, considering we were just screaming at each other and Alex just swore I channeled all my anger into something more useful. I pushed off the wall, stomped up to Alex, ignoring him when he tried to say something, and slotted our lips together for a heated and angry kiss.

Alex seemed put off for a moment, but that didn't stop me from pushing him til we fell onto his bed, lips never leaving each others. He seemed to mold into me, hands coming up to roughly tug at my hair while my own kept him pinned down. All I could think about right now was how angry I was, how long it's been since I've gotten off, and how fucking hot Alex was.

Surprisingly, Alex was the first one to try tugging at my shirt, and I was quick to take it off. When I did, he started ripping his own off as well. There was barely a second for me to breathe in his shirtless torso when his hands were gripping my shoulders, forcing me closer to him and he was attaching our lips. Every plane of my body was touching his, and the cheeky bastard was biting my lips, hoping for an entrance. Of course, I let him in wanting to taste more of him just as bad.

The only noises I could hear was our lip smacking, and the occasional grunt or somewhat moans between us. We would part for a bit for air, panting into each others mouths, but it always led back to more tongue wrestling. Soon, I was feeling a not-so-small problem in my pants, and I moved so one of my thighs were between Alex's, moving my hips to get some needed friction. The second I did though, Alex pulled away with a gasp.

“J-jack...”
“Mm,” I muttered, moving to kiss and suck on his neck. “It's okay.”
“I just, uhn...where is this going?”
“Not too far.” I assured, whispering in his ear and biting that one sensitive spot.

Of course, that got a delightful noise out of Alex and I bit down harder and I moved my hips faster against his. I just need this, so bad. It was a great stress reliever too....seeing as Alex and I are having some issues anyway. I heard Alex make a couple, weird noises and felt his hips move to try and copy my movements. IT felt amazing,even if he was off beat, I didn't care. I'm fucking horny dammit. Just a bit more and....

“Alex? Sweetheart, you home?” Alex's mom's voice called through the house.
“Dammit.” Alex whined under his breathe. I groaned and kept up with my movements even though he srtopped. “Y-yeah, I'm umm, up in my room with Jack.”
“Oh, Jack's here?” I could hear the disappointment in her voice. If only you saw what e were doing, bitch.
“We're just doing homework.”Alex said before whining and pushing me.
“Just, just a little more.” I whined quietly, but we both could hear his mom's steps as she trecked the stairs.
“Jack, fucking, move.” Alex whispered and I rolled my eyes rolling off and grabbing my shirt. Alex grabbed his as well and we both scrambled to look okay again. We just got out some books when his mom's head showed up in the door way.

“Hello, Jack...” She said slowly, and I offered my best smile.
“Hello Mrs. Gaskarth.”
“Hmm.” She said looking to Alex. “Dinner's at six thirty.”

When she disappeared Alex let out a breath of relief and I sighed.

“So...we okay?” He asked, peeking at me. I smiled and leaned in to kiss him softly.
“Yeah. We're okay.” I went to kiss him harder, but Alex held a book up.
“Mom's home. No making out.”
“But, my boner!”

Thankfully, things were better after that. Alex and I were good again, even if we didn't see each other as often, and he was getting so much better at making out. Even though last time I tried grinding on him, he stopped me and stuttered out that he wasn't ready for this kind of thing yet. I groaned and whined for awhile, but I let it go. I guess if he's really not ready.

We figured out a new routine. Week days, when we could hang out was spent at his place, weekends he was allowed to come to Zack's with me. The boy was getting better at learning what we played, hell, he was a natural. Plus, a quick learner. We could do almost any Blink song and nearly every Green Day one too. It was coming together nicely. The band.

So, when I had a small meeting with Zack and Rian on Sunday bringing up Alex's official joinment into our band, I was happy to hear...

“Fuck yeah, he should be in the band!” Zack smiled, “Kid can sing, play guitar, and he doesn't mind our smoking. I love him.”
“Hell, I thought he was already in. Ask him Jacky!” Rian laughed, and I chuckled.
“Here, I'll call him now. We can all ask.”
“Yay!”
“Speaker phone, speaker phone.” Zack chatted as I dialed his number.

“Ello?” Alex asked, sounding a bit tired.
“Hi Alex!” Rian yelled, along with Zack screaming.
“Bro!”
“Zack, Rian?” He asked, with some shuffling in the background.
“And me, Princess.” I chuckled, and he mumbled.
“I was napping, what's up guys? You know I can't hang today.”
“We know, but we have a question.” Rian said.
“Shoot.”
“How would you....” Zack started, and I smiled.
“Like to officially be apart of our band?”
“Oh.” Alex said, and was quiet for a moment. “Umm, I mean...”
“Come on, don't be shy.” Zack laughed into the phone
“You're awesome at singing! With you, we can finally do live shows.” Rian added.
“Whattya say, Lex? Come on.”

We all waited for him, the seconds ticking by, then....

“No. I-i...can't.”

Notes

Jack's horny and Alex is being a butt. Yay.