Jack

I had walked back to Rian's after taking Alex home. I didn't mean to push him that far. Now I actually felt a little bad, I mean, usually my influence was easy to follow. Alex was different, I guess. I had gotten a few texts from Zack saying to leave the square and one from Rian simply saying 'I told you so.' For once, I told Zack to shut the fuck up because Alex was my friend.

He was my friend.

I don't care what my original plans were, but the minute Alex refused to even look at me on the way back to his house and still made sure I wasn't in sight of his house they changed. I just wanted him to be by my side again. It was better than feeling like shit over something I usually did without a second thought.I was losing my mind over this little church fuck. That kiss wasn't planned, I just did it. I just wanted him to know I was seriously sorry, and that's all I had thought of. Jack Barakat does not just do cutesy things to fix problems. In fact, I need to make sure I'm still able to do the thing I love more than breaking rules.

I barely got Rian's and just went through my contacts. I needed a guy, and I knew who was available and ready for a good time with me.

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“Ugh, Brendon, get off.” I complained, pushing the other guy off me and rolling over. What time is it?
“I've been trying to wake you up, school's in an hour.” He smirked from the other side of the bed. “Unless, you want to go for round four in the shower.” He said, running a hand up my chest.

Honestly, I thought about it but then I remembered I needed to see Alex today. Needed to make sure he didn't hate me still.

“No, I have an important meeting at school. Let's go.”

Brendon took me to school, thankfully. And let me borrow some clothes. We were a good twenty minutes early for school and I practically bolted from his car the moment we parked, shared a kiss, and Brendon said 'see ya around.' I needed to catch Alex at his locker or something and make sure he would talk to me today. I just want him to talk to me.

I quickly walked through the halls, ignoring people who were once again surprised I was here before first period. I wasn't always gone, was I? Maybe. Oh well, not important, need to find Alex. I turned down the hall where it was located and saw him at it, digging out books from within the metal closet. I quickly started walking towards him.

“Alex! Hey Lex!” I called and he turned to look at me.


I smiled but he only frowned and slammed his locker walking away from me. I tried to follow after him, but the five minutes bell rang and everyone started rushing to class flooding the hall. I soon found myself slipping out the doors I usually did to smoke, upset and annoyed. How dare he just ignore me like that? I apologized didn't I? He has to talk to me eventually.

I was so deep in thought, smoking when I heard the door opened and looked over to find another sex buddy of mine. Holly.

“Hey Jack,” She smirked. “So, a little birdie told me you went to Brendon's last night.”
“Yeah, and?” I asked, snippy and not in the mood for her. Holly was...obsessed, and constantly tried to treat me like her boyfriend.
“Well, if you needed some relief, you could have asked me.” She said, leaning close and I pushed her away.
“I felt like fucking a dude last night. Now leave me alone, I'm in a bad mood.”
“Aww, why Jacky?”
“Fuck off, Holly.” I glared at her, throwing my cigarette on the ground, not even finishing it and walking back in.

I wasn't in the mood for people bugging me about things like that. I should be used to it, somehow word always got out when I was getting some and everyone wanted a piece. I went through the day, annoyed and snippy. People started leaving me alone and I finish off half my pack by the end of lunch. I was tempted to skip Music, somehow make Alex miss me instead but I walked into the room anyway, close to being the last one in and finding one of the only available seats right next to him. It was finally a chance to be near him, but at the same time, I didn't want to be right next to a cold shoulder. So, I went to a different one.

The class was spent with me trying to catch Alex's eye and him trying to ignore me. We were all showing how far were in whatever instrument we were playing and when it came to my turn. I knew exactly what I wanted to play, I just hoped Alex recognized the notes, since I wasn't going to sing. I never did, I didn't like my voice.


My hand glided across the guitar I grabbed, the tune of I Miss You playing through the as I stared directly at Alex. Once I was done, Billie said I did a great job and I asked to be excused. Of course he let me go, he always does. I walked out of the room, shoulders hunched and the need for maybe two or three more death sticks in my gut. I barely got down the hall when I heard the voice I wanted to hear all day.

“Jack! Wait!”

Notes

Jack you slut. But hey, at least he feels bad.