Weightless ~

I woke up surprisingly early on a Sunday morning, it was only 7.30. It was the day of the wedding and I was expecting Vic's call later on. I checked my phone out of habbit when I saw I got a text and it was from Jack.

It said Wherever you fell from, thanks for landing in San Diego ;) hit me up for coffee later. That brought a smile to my face. It reminded me of yesterday, when I sang to Jack for the first time. I remember his look, being stuck to me, he almost didn't blink. He made me feel nervous, but in a good way. When I finished my breakfast and took a shower I texted him to come over with the guys. I crashed on my couch and played a few songs, the band kinda gave me determination to do it. About an hour later my bell rang. I kinda dozed off, but by the third time the bell buzzed I snapped out of it and went to open the door.

»Surprise!« There was just Jack. »Oh hey!« I scratched my head. »Where are Rian and Zack?« I asked, letting him in. He took his shoes off and joined me in the living room. »They're busy. Zack said they'll give me a call when they finish so we can meet them for a beer.« »Cool.« He saw my guitar on the couch. He slid over it with his finger, gently. »And this I presume, is your baby.« »Yes.« I said and proudly picked it up. »This is my baby. You wanna play on it a bit?« »Haha, Mr.Gaskarth, are you pulling a Jack Barakat on me?« He winked. »I'd love to, if you don't mind.« He said. God that look he was giving me since I've met him… felt like butterflies, insane. It can't be, right? I mean I've only known Vic for a couple of days too and all but he's Vic, my Vic, is he? Here I go again, confused as fuck.

Jack played a Blink 182 song, I could tell in a second, but he didn't sing. At least not out loud. He was just mummbling something to himself. »Don't mumble.« I said and smiled. He blushed. »Oh come on, it's just you and me here.« He looked at me and I could sense some insecurity there. »I'll sing with you, it's one of my favorite songs.« I started singing.

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time

He joined me near the chores. His voice was beautiful and as I was singing, I could not wipe a smile off my face. I could sense his emotions and the vulnerability, it almost made my cry, ah. There was something about Jack, he was perfect. Emotional, sweet, talented, nice, just a fucking good person. He stopped playing and put the guitar back in the case.
»Alex… Y-You're great. I'm so happy we found you. I'm happy I found you.« He said. »What do you mean you fo-« I was interrupted because his lips crashed onto mine, gently. I was so shocked I had to gasp for air. »I'm sorry… I didn't mean to…«

He looked at me in the eyes, I was shaking a little. »I think it's best if I just lea-« He didn't finish his sentence, because I pulled him towards me and kissed him. I squeezed him tight and never wanted to let go. I totally dominated him, it was nothing like me. I licked his bottom lip very slowly, making him want more. »Ugh, Alex…« I heard him moan. Then I broke the kiss. I just kept starring at him. »I-I don't know what to say.« I said. I never in a million years thought he liked guys.

»How are you gay?« He said with a smirk. »I'm not. I'm bisexual, it's just that…« »What?« »I'm better with the guys, it's pulling me in everyday more.« He had a killer smile, bam! »Jack Barakat, how are you gay or bi, or… I'm sure girls find you bangin.« He removed his hair from his face. »Nah, I'm gay. I've been since I was like 16. I remember when I met this girl and we dated for 2 months. When I lost my virginty to her, I felt nothing. So I knew it wasn't my thing.« »Wow, I get you there. Because as much as I enjoy having sex with a girl, I feel more tense than with a guy.«

My cheeks turned red. I've talked about sex with pretty much everyone I hang out with but it's still a little weird. »I like you.« He said. I could feel how my heart skipped a beat. »So much I actually risked being punched in the face when I kissed you, haha.« He laughed. »I love your smile.« I blurted out and covered my mouth instantly. »Thanks, yours is also killer.« Now my face turned completely red. »Thank you Jack.« I was shy at moments, yes.
Me and Jack were talking and so a few hours passed. Then my phone rang. It looked at it, it was Vic. »Excuse me, I'll be right back. Help yourself with some soda, it's in the fridge.« I said and went to bedroom to talk.

Me: Hey!
Vic: Hey, how are you?
Me: I'm fine, how are things going, did you talk to Celine?
Vic: Yeah, I've talked to them both. Look, I just wanted to ask you a favour.
Me: Anything.
Vic: Please don't get this the wrong way. I really need a break. It has nothing to do with you, it's all about me and I'm a mess…a-and I don't wanna hurt you Alex. I really care for you.
I didn't know what to say.
Me: I'm so sorry that you're hurt Vic. I understand, but I miss you though…
Vic: I know babe, I miss you too. And again, I'm sorry. Me and Mike are gonna visit some relatives in Los Angeles. I'll call you when I return, I promise.
Me: Okay. Clear your mind and say hi to Mike. I'll talk to you soon?
Vic: Yes. Bye Alex, I-I…I love you.
Me: Love you too.

Then he hung up. I couldn't get over the I love you he said. He sounded so unsure. It broke my heart a little.
I went back to Jack. I took some soda out of the refrigirator and took a seat next to him. »Everything alright?« He asked curious. I couldn't hide my emotions, when it hit me, everyone could see it. »Yeah, I guess…«

»I wanted to ask you something.« He got a little closer to me and it made me calm. I looked at his face. »Would you go out with me sometime?« He brought a smile to my face, again. »I would love to.« He got even closer, put his head on my shoulder and took my hand. He caressed my scars and didn't say a thing. We just sat there, in silence. Then he just whispered Please don't ever do it again.

I haven't done it for years, but I decided to leave this conversation for some other time. Him just saying that, made me warm at heart.

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