IVY

When I woke up in the morning I was in a slight panic, feeling someone lying next to me I turn over and the panic stops it’s just Dylan I remember how it happened.

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**2 hours after Dylan got to Ivy’s house 10:35pm**

Dylan is currently breaking down, he feels bad that he had to leave his mom on her own, he’s scared that she’s going to do something again
“Ivy w-w-what if rehab doesn’t help her and she just comes back the way she was, and tries to kill herself again I don’t think I can have that again Ivy, I need my mom I can’t h-h-have her do it again, I just can’t. I’m so scared that I’m going to get a phone call any minute.”
“Dylan calm down none of that stuff is going to happen you told me that the doctor said she won’t be out of rehab until they think she’s better, just trust your doctor. Please don’t think like that it will just get you down” a yawn escapes my lips
“I’m already down; it’s not easy to just get on with life. It’s not easy to just smile. Ivy am I keeping you awake?”
I want to tell him I know all about pretending to be happy but I don’t want to make him feel even worse.
“You don’t have to keep smiling I’m here for you. Well I am tired, I think I might have to go to bed in a bit, but I don’t want to leave you down here to dwell on things please come and stay in the bed. I don’t like the thought of you down here.”
“Thank you so much, I don’t want to. I would feel weird and rude, it’s your bed not mine.”
“Well you’re staying in it the only answer is yes okay?”
He looks up and smiles
“Thank you”
“Stop thanking me”
“Okay”
With that we walk upstairs and into my room, just as I was getting to sleep Dylan whispers.
“Can we go out tomorrow?”

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Dylan starts to wake up he smiles at me and my phone buzzes, I stretch out to pick it up, it’s from Alex.

To:Ivy
From:Alex
Hey Ivy, I hope I haven’t woke you up just wanted to say good morning and I hope that whatever you’re doing today that it’s good, I also hope you’re keeping to our promise because I’ll be upset if you don’t :( we all miss you, When I get back I expect coffee, and food. Talk to you later, love. Xxxx

I smile, I like waking up to texts like this, it makes me realise I am wanted here by someone. I quickly text him back.

To: Alex
From: Ivy
Well you’re lucky I was just waking up when you texted me, and thanks lex I made a deal with Dylan last night and I think we might be going into town today so that 2days out of the 5 that I’ve been out. I hope you have a good day also. I miss you all too probably more than you lot miss me…Well aren’t you glad you know where the kettle and fridge are! Cheeky bastard. Xxxx

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ALEX

I don’t know why I text Ivy so early I know that she would have been asleep I look at my phone seeing it’s now 9 I haven’t been able to sleep, knowing that there is a stranger living with Ivy she’s only known him for like 2 minutes and he’s already moved in. I reminded myself I only cared because she was like a sister I had known her for years. Of course I’m going to care for her.
I hear my phone go off and notice a text from Ivy.

To:Alex
From: Ivy
Well you’re lucky I was just waking up when you texted me, and thanks lex I made a deal with Dylan last night and I think we might be going into town today so that 2days out of the 5 that I’ve been out. I hope you have a good day also. I miss you all too probably more than you lot miss me…Well aren’t you glad you know where the kettle and fridge is! Cheeky bastard. Xxxx

I take my time to think of an answer and start typing it.

To:Ivy
From: Alex
Well I’m just a lucky guy then I guess. Well I’m glad he’s looking after you and helping you then. I can’t wait to meet him; if he’s helping you then he’s got to be a nice person. It’s even better that you spoke to him. I’m so proud of you Merrick; I wish I could tell you that properly and give you a hug :( blergh when I get home I want a hug haha. Are you really going to start a ‘we miss you more’ war, because you know that I could win. The thing is Ivy, I’ve lost my memory and I can’t remember for shit where your kettle or your food haven is.xxxx

I’m actually really happy that she’s got him there and she’s not keeping herself locked away, I hate the thought that Zack can’t help her. Zack’s been really worried that she’s been lying about going out and she is just staying in her bed room but last night Carol spoke to him and it turns out she has been trying and she has been working on getting out of the house like she said this is the second time she has been out, Zack is going to be so happy when I tell him.

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IVY

I hear my phone again but this time I decide to ignore it because I haven’t spoken to Dylan since he woke up
“Morning Dylan”
“Hey there”
“Do you want some breakfast or coffee?”
“Mhmm coffee sounds great and could I just have some toast”
“Yeah sure, do you still want to go out today then?”
“Only if you want to Ivy I’m not going to force you to do it”
“Strangely I want to”
I lie through my teeth I would like nothing more than to stay in my house all day, I haven’t even thought about my parents lately, I can feel myself forgetting them again. I realise I’m stood still looking at the floor, so I stop thinking and make my way to the kitchen where my auntie and uncle were eating food.
“Morning Uncle Gary, Auntie Carol”
“Morning Darling”
They both say.
“What are you guys doing today?”
“Well I was planning to take Auntie Carol out for the day if that’s okay with you?”
“Yeah, sure I think me a Dylan are going into town later anyway”
“Well that’s settled then”
I carry on doing what I came down here for and carried Dylan toast and coffee upstairs.
“Here you go”
I look up to Dylan seeing he had got dressed.
“Thank you Ivy”
“You’re welcome how come you’re dressed”
“Because we are going out today right?”
“Oh yeah, I know but I was expecting for you still be in your PJS”
“Nah I don’t like being in them that long after I’ve woken up, aren’t you having anything to eat?”
“Okay, and yeah I’m going back down to get it in a bit but I think I’m going to get ready first, feel free to go downstairs and watch TV, my uncle and auntie are off out in a minute”
“Alright I might just take you up on that offer”
He walks out of my room, and I go back to my earlier thought, am I forgetting them? It seems like everyone else already has, everyone else had their own life and I’m just stuck here. I go to my draw and take out my only real friend. Walking into the bathroom I take down my pants and drag it across the skin a few times and then watch as the blood runs down my leg even that wants to leave me quickly.
I jump into the shower and clean everything up and then I put my clothes on for the day and do my hair and makeup and walk back downstairs to see that Carol and Gary were leaving I shout a goodbye and walk into the kitchen to make myself some food, With Dylan watching me.

Notes

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