All My Heart
The Realization (Alex POV)
Alex POV
I opened the window, absolutely not expecting what was outside. Zack. Holding his guitar and an envelope. He threw me the envelope and I caught it. I started fingering it but before I was able to open it, he began to strum his guitar and to sing.
“There's so many things that I could say
But I'm sure it would come out all wrong
You got something that I can't explain
Still try and try and let you know…”
When he was finished, he set on to talk. “Alex, I love you. You still have all my heart. I am sorry. I want nothing more than to have you back.” Then he simply went away, leaving confused. I stood there in the cold air until I realized that I might want to get my only lightly-dressed body out of the cold. I closed the window and sat down at my kitchen table, opening the letter.
“Dear Alex,
There’s so many things that I could say, but I’m sure it would come out all wrong. But you got something that I can’t explain. I’ll still try and let you know…”
There was a stain on the paper, directly on the words “all of my heart”. Probably a tear stain. I just sat there for a long time after reading it, not even thinking, I was in some kind of haze.
Memories of Zack holding me and his scent flooded my brain. How I missed the nights we would stay up until very early, talking about everything and nothing.
It was true that he had hurt me and he had often been not strong enough for us. But still, I believed in him and I hadn’t wanted it to end this way either.
It took me by surprise, but I started crying. All the pain of the last two weeks broke out and soon, I was a sobbing mess.
I realized I wanted to be with Zack.
I called Jack to ask for his advice. He was my best friend and always knew what to do.
“Hello? Jack?”
“S’me. Alex?” he answered the phone, coarse voice.
“Jack, Zack just showed up at my house and he played a song for me,” I said, interrupted by hiccups. “And he gave me a letter, probably the most heartfelt letter I ever received. And there is a tear stain on it,” I added. There was a little silence on the other end of the line but I swear to God, I heard a little “YES!”
“Alex, I’m so happy for you. I know Zack really regrets what he did and him showing his feelings like this must’ve been a huge hurdle he took. You truly mean a lot to him,” he replied, voice sounding considerably less tired now.
I smiled. My decision was made. I was going to tell him that I loved him too.
“Thank you so much Jack, I will now go and get the two of us together,” I replied enthusiastically.
“Bye Alex. Good luck!”
I tried to make myself look as nice as possible but it was a tough goal. I ended up putting on my bluest shirt and skinnies but I didn’t feel like straightening my hair so I just left it this way and stuffed it into a red beanie.
I left, shoving a little muffin I had made for myself into a cardboard box and stabbing it with a toothpick to which I had attached a note.
He was at home. I rang the doorbell and waited for him to open up. I handed him the cardboard box with the sweet surprise. He opened it and took out the note first.
“I will keep your heart safe.” He read it out loud and looked up at me with his biggest smile, the most beautiful smile in this world. He carefully placed the muffin on the cupboard and threw his arms around me. I breathed in his scent and in this moment I felt whole. He broke the hug only to lean in again to place a kiss on my lips. I kissed him back, feeling his lips twist up even more - probably the best feeling in this world, to feel someone smile against your lips. I could feel tears of joy running down my cheeks and as I broke away, I could see that Zack’s face was wet too. I gently wiped away some of the salty tears and kissed his nose.
I opened the window, absolutely not expecting what was outside. Zack. Holding his guitar and an envelope. He threw me the envelope and I caught it. I started fingering it but before I was able to open it, he began to strum his guitar and to sing.
“There's so many things that I could say
But I'm sure it would come out all wrong
You got something that I can't explain
Still try and try and let you know…”
When he was finished, he set on to talk. “Alex, I love you. You still have all my heart. I am sorry. I want nothing more than to have you back.” Then he simply went away, leaving confused. I stood there in the cold air until I realized that I might want to get my only lightly-dressed body out of the cold. I closed the window and sat down at my kitchen table, opening the letter.
“Dear Alex,
There’s so many things that I could say, but I’m sure it would come out all wrong. But you got something that I can’t explain. I’ll still try and let you know…”
There was a stain on the paper, directly on the words “all of my heart”. Probably a tear stain. I just sat there for a long time after reading it, not even thinking, I was in some kind of haze.
Memories of Zack holding me and his scent flooded my brain. How I missed the nights we would stay up until very early, talking about everything and nothing.
It was true that he had hurt me and he had often been not strong enough for us. But still, I believed in him and I hadn’t wanted it to end this way either.
It took me by surprise, but I started crying. All the pain of the last two weeks broke out and soon, I was a sobbing mess.
I realized I wanted to be with Zack.
I called Jack to ask for his advice. He was my best friend and always knew what to do.
“Hello? Jack?”
“S’me. Alex?” he answered the phone, coarse voice.
“Jack, Zack just showed up at my house and he played a song for me,” I said, interrupted by hiccups. “And he gave me a letter, probably the most heartfelt letter I ever received. And there is a tear stain on it,” I added. There was a little silence on the other end of the line but I swear to God, I heard a little “YES!”
“Alex, I’m so happy for you. I know Zack really regrets what he did and him showing his feelings like this must’ve been a huge hurdle he took. You truly mean a lot to him,” he replied, voice sounding considerably less tired now.
I smiled. My decision was made. I was going to tell him that I loved him too.
“Thank you so much Jack, I will now go and get the two of us together,” I replied enthusiastically.
“Bye Alex. Good luck!”
I tried to make myself look as nice as possible but it was a tough goal. I ended up putting on my bluest shirt and skinnies but I didn’t feel like straightening my hair so I just left it this way and stuffed it into a red beanie.
I left, shoving a little muffin I had made for myself into a cardboard box and stabbing it with a toothpick to which I had attached a note.
He was at home. I rang the doorbell and waited for him to open up. I handed him the cardboard box with the sweet surprise. He opened it and took out the note first.
“I will keep your heart safe.” He read it out loud and looked up at me with his biggest smile, the most beautiful smile in this world. He carefully placed the muffin on the cupboard and threw his arms around me. I breathed in his scent and in this moment I felt whole. He broke the hug only to lean in again to place a kiss on my lips. I kissed him back, feeling his lips twist up even more - probably the best feeling in this world, to feel someone smile against your lips. I could feel tears of joy running down my cheeks and as I broke away, I could see that Zack’s face was wet too. I gently wiped away some of the salty tears and kissed his nose.
