Chapter 8

Alex’s POV

Jack and I fell asleep together, our fingers intertwined and my head on his shoulder. We sort of slept through dinner, but Matt woke us up later.

“Guys. Jack, Alex, there’s food out there for you.” He said gently, shaking Jack’s shoulder.

“M’k...” Jack mumbled tiredly. “I’m not hungry, but you can go and help yourself to anything.” He said to me. I nodded and got up, walking with Matt to the kitchen and grabbing a piece of pizza.

“He really likes you, you know.” Matt said suddenly. I turned around to face him.

“What?”

“Jack. He really likes you. He has for a long time.”

“I know. I like him a lot too.”

“He just doesn’t realize when he likes someone until later and then it’s just like, BAM! He sees it. I can always tell beforehand. Something in his eyes changes when he likes someone.”

I smiled. “Jack’s a super sweet guy. I’ve never opened up as much to anyone else, not even my brother.”

Matt smiled back. “Just don’t hurt Jack.”

“I wouldn’t. I don’t think I could- He means too much to me.”

“Sorry for the interrogation, I just worry about him. He’s been fragile with potential relationships ever since Holly. And he’s constantly denying love. She broke him so badly he didn’t come out of his room for a few days, let alone respond to me with more than three or four words at a time. I felt so bad for him, especially when Holly posted a picture of her and her new boyfriend on FaceBook. Jack left and didn’t come back for two days. I still don’t know where he went. I just don’t want it to happen again.” Matt explained.

“Wow. I won’t ever hurt Jack. I can honestly say, he’s my best friend. And my friend with benefits. I sort of hope it becomes a real relationship eventually. I used to be into all the casual fucks, but now I really only get in relationships if I can see myself in a long term thing with them.” I smiled and got up, brushing my teeth quickly and going back to Jack. He was looking at his phone with an upset look on his face.

“Babe? What’s wrong?”

He just gave me his phone. I read the texts between him and Holly.

Jack baby, come on over.

I’m with someone else. Leave me alone, please. Fuck off.

Fine! You know what you asshole, you are so fucking ugly and stupid! Your nose is abnormally large and you’re way too tall and skinny and you choose gay clothes that don’t proportion the right way with your body. You’re not smart and you have a shitty job, you’re the worst at sex. How can anyone love you? You were right, I don’t love you. Because no one can EVER love you, Jack Barakat. It’s impossible.

“Jack.” I said, sitting next to him. “Look at me.”

He turned his head from looking at his lap to looking at me. “You are amazing. You’re sexy and adorable. If you weren’t smart, you wouldn’t be an English teacher. I’m grateful you have the job you do because if you didn’t, we wouldn’t have met and I might be dead. I have no idea about the sex thing, but I’m sure you’re fantastic. Someone will love you, Jay. I might be me, I don’t know. I know for sure I like you, I like you a lot. Maybe more than I should, but I don’t care. Don’t let her get to you.” I said firmly but softly.

He didn’t reply, just sunk into my side and laid his head on my chest. “Words hurt.” He whispered, a tear falling.

“Oh no baby, don’t cry. Holly isn’t worth crying over. She’s a slutty bitch. You don’t need her babe, you’re better than her by a million. Please don’t cry darlin, don’t cry.” I pleaded gently.

He didn’t say anything, just let more tears roll down his cheeks. I picked up my guitar and began to sing.

“Where is the moment we needed the most,
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost...”

Something about this song made me feel better. It seemed to make Jack feel better too, because his crying slowed just a little bit and his arm rested across my stomach, squeezing a little in a small hug. I smiled a little bit and brushed his hair from his wet eyes and kissed his forehead lightly.

“It’s just one day, darlin. It’ll get better soon.” I whispered. He nodded.

“Thank you.” He whispered back, closing his eyes.

“Anytime, baby.” I smiled although he couldn’t see me. He squeezed me again in another thanks.

I closed my eyes, not planning to sleep, although I did.

~~~
Matt’s POV

I went into check on Jack and Alex, hoping they weren’t having sex or something. Although I probably would have heard it. I heard Alex singing earlier, Daniel Powter’s Bad Day, one of Jack’s favorite songs for days like these.

I quietly opened the door and saw them in bed, sleeping and cuddled against each other. Jack’s head was rested on Alex’s chest and there were tear stains down his face. His arm was across Alex’s stomach and Alex’s was around his waist, holding Jack to him.

They looked so sweet and perfect. Like nothing could bring them down, although I knew Jack had been hurt. Alex was just amazing for him. I couldn’t stop thinking about where Jack would be without Alex. He might still be drinking non-stop. He might still be destroying himself like he did when he was younger. That phase had scared the fuck out of me. But Alex, despite his problems, seemed to know just what to say to make Jack feel better.

I almost wanted to take a picture. I didn’t though, that’d be creepy.

However, I saw Jack unconsciously tangle he and Alex’s legs together and I nearly ‘awwwed’ out loud. I couldn’t even describe how sweet their position was.

Jack loves Alex. And Alex loves Jack. They just don’t see it yet. They will, though. Soon enough, they’ll realize they love each other more than anything.

What they were doing was really risky, although legal. I don’t think they could have kept this from happening though. Jack was always there for Alex when no one else was and now it was Alex’s turn to save Jack.

I hoped this became a relationship. I completely supported their relationship- friends with benefits- because I knew how happy Alex made Jack. I couldn’t separate them.

I smiled at them and left, shutting the door silently.

They were like family. Only even closer.

~~~
Alex’s POV

I woke up the next morning cuddled against Jack. I remembered last night and smiled to myself. I pressed my lips against Jack’s forehead and brushed his hair from his eyes. They fluttered open and he tightened his grip on me.

“Morning Jay.” I said quietly, still smiling.

“Morning Lex...” He mumbled. He looked tired still.

“Go back to sleep baby.”

He shook his head. “We have school.”

“Call a sub.”

“It’s a little late for that.”

“It doesn’t matter. You’re having a bad day, I can tell. I’m going to be parently right now and say I don’t want you at school like this.”

Matt walked in just then. “Hey boys.”

“Morning.” I said, twirling a piece of Jack’s hair in between my fingers. He didn’t say anything to Matt, just gave me a gentle squeeze.

“Jack, you need to get ready for work.” Matt said.

“No. He’s calling a sub.” I said firmly.

“Alex, I can’t not go. Having one bad day isn’t a good enough reason to not teach.” Jack said quietly, untangling himself from me and going to the bathroom. I sighed and looked at Matt.

“You need to help him.” Matt said.

“How?”

“Sing. He loves when you sing. Especially slow songs. Sad ones help on these days, just so you know.” He smiled and left, leaving me thinking of every sad song out there.

So many ran through my head. I was thinking of them all the way to school in my car. I met Jack at his class like every morning and immediately got out my guitar.

I sang Jimmy Eat World’s Hear You Me. Jack smiled a little bit while I sang, making me feel a little better. After that I sang The Middle.

After I finished that, I put a finger under Jack’s chin and turned his head to look at me. “Everything will be alright, baby. Don’t worry about it.” I whispered and gently kissed him. I could tell he wasn’t having a good day because of the way he put all that sad emotion into the kiss. It was slow and meaningful, completely innocent. His soft lips moved against mine and my hand traveled to the back of his neck as his rested on my lower back. I broke apart and rested our foreheads together. “Don’t worry, baby. It’s get better soon.” I whispered again.

The bell rang and I gave him a quick kiss before going to my seat. Cassadee came up to me. “Hey babe, how’s your day been?” She asked.

“Alright.”

“Not great?”

“Eh. Could be better. You and I need to catch up.” I smiled at her.

“I know, it feels like it’s been forever! When are you free?”

“I’m not sure. I’ll text you.”

She smiled and nodded and went to her seat as Jack handed out the worksheet. He just looked tired. Like he wanted to go back home and sleep everything off.

We all worked quietly for once. People seemed to pick up on Jack’s mood and didn’t do anything too annoying. He just sat at his desk on his phone drinking a glass of water for the period.

Although, about halfway through the period, he just dropped his phone in his water and sighed. Everyone saw it.

“Why’s your phone in the water?” Someone asked.

“Because I hate it.”

“Why?”

“It doesn’t matter. It just needed to be destroyed.” He sighed again and ran his fingers through his hair. People just sort of stared for a minute and went back to their work. I figured Holly had been texting him and he got really fucking sick of it.

~~~
Jack’s POV

The end of the day came about as soon as when the world will end. But when it finally came, Alex came in and kissed me sweetly without saying anything. My phone was still in the cup of water from this morning and he retrieved it and threw it against the wall. The back came off and the screen shattered.

He seemed pleased, so he sat in his chair with his feet on the desk. “Any better?” He asked.

“Not really.”

“Well, you need a new phone, so you’ll have a new number.”

“Thank god. I was wondering how long it’d be until that happened.” I sighed.

“Come on babe, don’t worry about this. Holly will give up eventually and move on. You’ll never have to worry about her again.” Alex smiled at me.

God, I loved his smile. And his eyes. I just loved everything about it. He was the sweetest boy I’d ever met and I never wanted to see him go. If he did, I’d have an even worse reaction than with Holly. I’m not sure if I’m IN love with Alex, though. I love him, definitely, but as a friend or as something more?

Currently, friend.

I just smiled back a little, but it disappeared quickly. Alex noticed this and frowned. “Jay. Look at me.”

I turned my head to look at him and he leaned forward a little, his hand cupping my cheek, looking deep in my eyes. “Don’t worry about this. I hate seeing you like this. Holly has done nothing good for you. Those things she said for you? That’s what she thinks about herself. She’s just insecure about herself and she takes that out of you, which is pretty crappy of her. It’s just another reason for you to let her go. You are amazing and don’t let anyone tell you differently. We all have flaws, but she just chooses to point them out to make others feel bad and make herself feel better. It’s a bad game she’s playing. There’s nothing about you that isn’t good baby, because you’re just... You. There’s no way to describe how perfect you are, even with your flaws. And you don’t have many. I love any flaws you have because they make you who you are. I don’t want you to be like this anymore. Okay?” He said.

“But the problem is that she’s right. Everything she said was true.”

“Say that one more time and I’ll slap you.” He said seriously. Something about that was funny and I laughed.

“Okay.” I grinned.

He grinned back and kissed me. This one wasn’t as sad as the one this morning. It was a little more lively. Alex laughed a little into it and I smiled against his lips. It was amazing how quickly he could change my mood from sad to happy. His fingers played with the hand on the back of my neck as my hands rested on his lower back, under his shirt. He couldn’t stop laughing, so I just pulled back.

“What the hell is so funny?”

“You! You just totally agreed to let me slap you if you said Holly was right again!” He laughed. I grinned.

“Well...”

“Well what?”

“I don’t know, just kiss me again.”

He grinned and pressed his lips against mine. This kiss wasn’t as long because there was a knock on the door and we broke apart quickly.

“Come on in!” I shouted. The door opened and Jaycee walked in.

~~~
Alex’s POV

“Hi Mr. Barakat, hi Alex.”

“Hey Jayce, what’s up?” I asked.

“Not much. Barakat, I don’t understand tonight’s homework.”

I could tell she thought Jack was hot. Whatever, I trusted Jack not to do anything with anyone but me. I really sort of wanted to have sex with him...

“Um, okay, what don’t you get?” Jack asked.

“What’s a prepositional phrase?”

He raised an eyebrow. “That was a seventh grade standard.”

“I forgot.”

He wrote a sentence on the board. “Find the preposition.”

She pointed at it and he circled it. “Find the noun.”

She pointed to that and he underlined it. “Prepositional phrase. Always starts with a preposition and ends in a noun. Get it?”

She nodded. “Oh yeah!” She smiled flirtatiously. “Bye Jack, I’ll see you tomorrow.” She said with a wink on her way out.

Jack looked at me. “Slut.”

I laughed. “That’s Jaycee for ya.”

“I’ve got someone much better on my mind.” He smiled seductively at me. I winked.

“I think I have an idea of who that might be.”

“Oh do you now, Gaskarth?”

“There’s a name in my mind.” I smirked and walked closer to him.

“How might you have obtained this information?”

“We’ll just have to find out, won’t we?” I smirked again and took his hand, leading him out to his car. “My place.”

He got in the front seat and I got in the passenger seat. I let my hand rest high up on his thigh. “Aleeeex.” He whined as he started the car.

“Yes?”

“You are such a tease!”

I began to move my hand, rubbing up and down his thigh, getting higher up each time. I could tell he was getting a little problem beneath his pants.

“Are you going to do something or not?” He asked impatiently.

“I wouldn’t get too snarky here, Barakat. Remember, I’m the one making you like this.” I said in a controlling tone. He whimpered in need.

“Okay.” He whispered, holding back a moan, I guessed.

I leant in close to his ear and bit his earlobe. “You’ll get your reward soon enough.” I growled sexily.

He gulped and sped up significantly. My hand continued to rub his thigh and as we got to my street, I let it ghost over the area I was sure he was mentally begging me to touch. Just as I was about to touch it a little more, I moved my hand away. He sped up even more and came to an abrupt stop in front of my house.

We got out and I took his hand, pulling him through the door. As soon as it was shut, I pushed him up against it and kissed him desperately. Tom had better not be home. Jack kissed back just as forcefully and our tongues tangled. I broke the kiss and pulled him up to my room.

He clearly wanted this as bad as I did, because I shut the door and this time I was slammed against it and my lips suddenly became occupied. His tongue slipped in my mouth and fought with mine before he pulled away.

“Give me dominance, bitch.” He growled and kissed me again, tongue back in my mouth. The way he called me bitch turned me on even more and I gave him what he wanted. His tongue flicked against mine and he licked my teeth and the roof of my mouth.

I walked forward and his knees hit the bed, sending him to fall on his back. Exactly what I wanted. I crawled on top of him, straddling his legs with my hands up his shirt. I gained dominance over his mouth and did the same thing he did to me, licking all over the hot cavern of his mouth. He moaned into my mouth and I wanted to smirk, but I was a little busy.

I decided to take things even further and began to grind my hips into his. I hadn’t realized his hands were on my ass until he gave it a gentle squeeze. I loved it, it was really sexy. I moved onto his neck and placed little kisses along his jaw up towards his earlobe, which I bit shamelessly. “I don’t know who the fuck wouldn’t want you.” I growled and he whimpered in need.

I basically tore his shirt off, along with mine, and continued to grind our hips together. My hands ran over his chest and I gently pinched his nipple, eliciting a large moan from him.

“Damn you, do someTHing.” His breath hitched on ‘something’ as I bit his collarbone.

I moved back up and bit his earlobe again. “Beg.” I whispered seductively.

I knew whatever control he had over himself flew out the window as he squirmed beneath me. “P-please Alex, please do something...” Jack whined.

I smirked and my hand ran over the growing bump in his jeans and he gasped and whimpered when I pulled my hand away. My fingers began fumbling with the button and zipper on his jeans. Once they were dealt with, I wiggled the tight pants off of Jack, who kicked them off. His hand went directly towards my crotch when I straddled him again and he undid the button and zipper like I had done him. I kicked my jeans off and again straddled his legs. I took him in. He looked even sexier right now, hair messed up, swollen lips, lust blown eyes. Enough admiring.

I attached our lips again roughly and my tongue slid in his mouth again. I was still in control and I planned to keep it that way. My thigh slipped between Jack’s legs and he moaned at the friction as I attacked his collarbone.

“A-Alex please DO something.” He begged. I smirked for the thousandth time and moved down a little bit and licked his nipple. He practically yelled and I softly bit it, making him squirm even more.

He began to palm me through my boxers as long as he could before I traveled down even more, leaving kisses and bites down his chest. It was very enjoyable to see that I had this much affect on him. I stopped at his hipbones and left a dark mark on one of them, then moved down, past his boner, and worked on the inside of his thighs. He moaned and writhed beneath me as I left another hickey. My fingers were toying with the waistband of his boxers and I could see in his eyes that he was dying for me to do something, so I pulled them down and quickly wrapped my hand around his hard dick. He moaned louder than ever as I slowly started to pump him.

“A-Alex, fuck me, I d-don’t care anymore, just please fuck me...” He said through his moans.

“Sure about that baby?”

He nodded. “I don’t have lube...” I said.

“Substitutes.” He breathed.

“Like what?”

“Lotion.”

I laughed to myself, but ran to get it and a condom. I ran back and immediately went back to pumping him. He was a complete mess in a few minutes, begging me to get on with it, so I did.

I put lotion over three fingers and made sure Jack wanted this once more. “This is going to hurt babe, you still want it?”

He nodded. “Go.”

I pushed one finger in and he tensed up some. I waited for his nod before adding another. More waiting and I curled my fingers a little bit.

“OH GOD!” He yelled.

I smirked and rubbed his prostate again, getting more moans and swearing in return. “A-Another.” He breathed out.

I pushed in the final digit and again curled my fingers when the pain had passed. He squirmed and made more of those delicious noises as I continued to massage the bundle of nerves.

“A-Alex, fuck me.”

I nodded and pulled out my fingers, wiping them on the bed and rolled the condom on, rubbing lotion over it. I aligned myself with Jack’s entrance. “Jack, last time. Are you sure? It’ll hurt like hell.”

“I can’t wait any longer Alex, do it.”

I didn’t hesitate and slowly pushed in. Jack whimpered in pain and I kissed him to try and distract him. “It’ll pass baby, just wait.” I whispered. At least he kissed me back.

After another few seconds he nodded and I pulled almost all of the way out, then slammed back in. He moaned and I smirked again, thrusting back in over and over.

I changed my angle every so often, trying to find his prostate. A few more thrusts and he screamed a string of swear words. Got it.

I slammed right there again and he moaned. “Oh god, so good, don’t stop...” He whined.

I didn’t stop. I kept going for a long time, shots of ecstasy running through my veins. He was so tight, it felt so amazing. I wondered if he’d ever been fucked before or if he’d only had sex with a girl. I’d fucked a guy once, when I was in my junior year and seriously drunk. Like, wasted.

I snaked my hand between us and began to pump him in time with my thrusts. He yelled over and over. “Fuck, Alex, I’m close, so close...” He moaned out.

I was close too. A familiar hot feeling deep in my gut was coming on. Jack yelled louder than ever as he came over our chests and stomachs. The feelings of him clenching around my dick was too much to handle and I shouted as I came inside of him. I thrust through my high and then pulled out, throwing out the used condom and lying next to Jack, both of us panting hard.

“That was...” I tried to talk.

“Awesome?”

“Yeah.”

“Did I really just let my student fuck me?”

“Yep.”

“Kinky.”

I laughed and smacked his arm. “Pervert. We have to clean this before Tom gets home, if he isn’t already.”

He nodded. I wiggled into my boxers and threw him his, then went to the bathroom and grabbed a towel, wiping the cum off my chest. I tossed it to Jack after I was done with it.

He cleaned himself off and started laughing. “What’s so funny?” I asked.

“I can’t believe I just let my student fuck me!”

I started laughing too. “Believe it, babe. It happened.”

I lay next to him again. He intertwined our fingers just as there was a knock on our door. “Are you guys dressed?” Tom called. I laughed.

“Sorta.”

“What’s sort of?”

“Just wait for a minute.” I tossed Jack his shirt and skinny jeans and then squirmed back into mine as he put his clothes on. I was just about to open the door when Jack stopped me and fixed my hair, then gave me a quick kiss and we crawled back in bed. “Okay, we’re good now.”

The door opened. “What the fuck were you doing?” Tom asked, bewildered.

Jack and I looked at each other and burst out laughing. Tom’s eyes widened. “Oh god, EW! EW EW EW EW!” He yelled as Jack and I laughed harder. “EWWWW!”

“Why are you in here again?” I asked through my giggles.

“I was going to see what you wanted for dinner.”

“You want to stay over?” I asked Jack.

“Is that okay?”

“Well my mom and da- My mom isn’t home, so yeah. Stay.”

“Alright.” He grinned.

“Answer my question.” Tom said.

“Anything in specific, Jay?” I asked.

“Nah. I’m not picky.”

I looked back at Tom. “Choose something.”

“You are so annoying sometimes. Fucking pick something. Do you want something simple, like pizza rolls, or something more complex like chicken?”

“Whatever. Just make something.”

He groaned. “Fine. You’re getting pizza rolls whether you like it or not.”

“Fuck yea!” I cheered. Jack laughed.

“Sounds good to me.” He said.

“Did you come home in the middle of what we were doing?” I asked Tom.

“No, thank god. I got home about fifteen minutes ago.” He said happily.

“Where were you?”

“With my girlfriend.”

“You’re dating someone? Who?”

“Issy Minite.”

“I have no clue who that is.”

“Well, she’s my age, so...” He shrugged.

“Hey, Jack’s your age and I know him!”

“Any other 21 year olds you know?”

“No.” I accepted defeat.

“Exactly. But yeah, we’re dating. I’m going to make dinner.” He left the room and I leant into Jack, who’s arm curled around my waist.

“What we’re doing is so wrong.” He said.

“Who gives a fuck.”

“Not me.”

“Good, because I don’t either.”

He grinned and kissed my hair. “You’re cute.”

“You’re adorable.”

“You’re hot.”

“You’re sexy.”

“Damn it, I can’t beat that one!” He complained. “Wait, you’re sexier.”

“You’re sexiest.”

“Fuck!”

I laughed. “Aha, can’t beat it.”

He pouted. “Screw you. Either way, you’re still sexier and adorableler.”

“That’s not a word, Mr. English Teacher.” I smirked.

“Oh aren’t you cocky. Fine, you’re still sexier and MORE adorable.”

“Better. But still wrong.”

“HOW?”

“You mixed up who’s sexier and more adorable.” I muttered as I leant in to kiss him.

He smiled into it. It didn’t last nearly as long as I hoped it would, because the door opened and Tom came in, groaning at the sight of us. “Dudes, really?”

“I can’t help it! He’s irresistible!” I argued.

Tom raised an eyebrow. “M’k... Well, if I was gay, he’s hotter than he was in high school.”

Jack laughed. “Thanks?”

“You’re welcome. I never expected you to look like this.”

“I’m pretty damn glad he looks the way he does.” I said, poking him in the side and making him yelp.

“Thanks babe.”

“Anytime, gorgeous.”

“ANNNYYYWAAAYYYY, dinner’s done.” Tom said before leaving.

“I don’t want to get up!” I whined.

“So don’t.” Jack replied.

“But I’m hungry!”

“So I’ll get you food!”

“Aw, you’d get me food?”

“I’d rather you not starve.”

“You’re sweet, thank you.” I smiled and gave him a quick kiss before he got up and left.

We really were like a couple without the label. Sweet words, sex, kissing just because, cuddling... Everything. It was nice. I liked the friends with benefit label though, I didn’t want a real relationship yet. Later.

He came back up with two plates and handed one to me as he climbed back in the bed next to me.

“Thanks babe.” I smiled and kissed his cheek.

“You’re welcome.” He smiled back.

We ate our food, then played our guitars some. Tom came in just as I was about to sing Somewhere in Neverland. He listened intently.

“What was that about?”

“Wanting to run away to somewhere that doesn’t exist to get away from my problems.”

“I liked it.” He smiled.

“Thanks.” I smiled back and played Blink’s Always. Jack joined in on his guitar for that one.

By this time it was pretty late, so Jack and I decided to go to bed. We stripped down to our boxer and pulled the covers around us and I intertwined our fingers, letting them rest on my chest.

“You are going to be so sore tomorrow.” I giggled in the darkness.

“Worth it.”

“Have you ever had sex with another guy before?”

“Nope. You?”

“Once, in my junior year. I was totally wasted and me and this kid got really into it, so we went upstairs and I fucked him.”

“Okay, so you yourself have never been fucked.”

“No. I’ve always done the fucking.”

“That’ll change eventually.”

“Fine by me.” I grinned and turned my head to kiss him. “Night Jay.”

“Night Lex.”

Jack nuzzled his face into the crook of my neck. I could feel him smiling against my skin and I just squeezed his hand before drifting off to sleep.

Notes

They had sex! Comments please! Thank you so much for comments, subscriptions, rating, and whatever else there is to be thankful for.