A week went by since Jack’s dad beat me up, I was out of school for a few days and I had some time to think about things, things about Jack and other shit of that nature. The more time I spend with him the more I start to like him, which isn’t a problem with me because it doesn’t matter if I’m gay, it means I’m being who I am. I just had to tell my mom and Tom, I know Tom would never judge me but I don’t know about my mom. I plan on telling her before Jack comes over today, I just want to get it over with. First thing is first, I have to drag my lazy ass out of bed. I got up and walked into my bathroom and looked in the mirror, I looked like hell.
“What the fuck?” I asked myself as I found random lines on my face.
I rubbed on the lines and they eventually started to fade, I put a beanie over my hair and walked up to the kitchen
“Alex sweetie is Jack coming over today?” She asked
“Yeah.” I said
“Are you okay? You look like you have a lot on your mind.” She asked
“I just need to talk to you mom.” I said
“Anything.” She said
“Sit down mom.” I said
She looked at me furrowing her eyebrows; she sat down on one of the dining room chairs.
“Do you remember what you told me when my first girlfriend and I broke up? You told me that one day I would find my princess, the prefect girl who would become my queen.” I said
“I do remember that.” She smiled
“Well I don’t want to find a princess mom, I’ve found my prince, and I don’t want a queen I want him to become my king.” I said
She smiled at me and got up pulling me into a hug.
“I knew you had a thing for Jack.” She smiled
“How’d you know it was Jack?” I asked
“Who else would it be sweetie?” She laughed
I laughed and she smiled at me
“I think he likes you too Alex.” He said
“I don’t think I could tell him.” I said
“Well if you can’t express something with words express it in a way you can.” She said
“Like what?” I asked
“Song Alex, you’re an amazing song writer and singer.” She said
I smiled and got thinking.
“Oh there might be a lot of music instrument noise coming from the garage later.” I said
“You and Jack playing guitar?” She asked
“Maybe Rian and Zack playing drums and bass.” I said
“Have I met these two?” She asked
“They saved me from Jacks dad.” I said
“Oh, okay. I like them.” She said
I laughed and there was a knock at the door,
“I’m coming.” I smiled knowing it was Jack
I walked over and opened the door, he was standing there with a beanie on, his hair was slightly spiked in the front and he had his guitar slung over his shoulder.
“Hello.” He said
“Come in.” I laughed
“Zack and Rian will be over soon.” He said
I nodded and we walked out way to my room.
“Hi Alex’s mom.” Jack said
“Hello Jack.” My mom laughed
We walked down into my room and Jack looked at me.
“So what song are we doing?” He asked
“Well since it’s almost Christmas I wanted to send something I’ve been working on to my Ex.” I said
“Why?” He asked
“She cheated on me with one of my old friends on Christmas last year and I just perfected the lyrics and I want to send it to her?” I said
“Revenge?” He asked
“A little.” I smiled
“This is why we’re friends.” He laughed
I laughed and he started at me
“Sing it to me.” Jack demanded
I nodded and grabbed my guitar.
“You told me I was lucky, to have my chance with you. Now last year's summer romance is this year's winter blues. I treated you so nicely, to jewelry, and champagne, but you left me empty handed, Yeah, you left me feeling Play-ay-ayed. Now I hope you're happy with yourself, 'Cause I'm not laughing don’t you think it's kind of crappy what you did this holiday? When I gave you my heart, You ripped it apart like wrapping paper trash so I wrote you a song, Hope that you sing along and it goes, “Merry Christmas, kiss my ass!" They say I'm losing my mind, I thought that for a while, I tear down decorations they remind me of your smile. I hate that mistletoe, it makes me think of our first kiss, you bit my lip, you pulled me close, and then you taught me how to quit. Now I hope you're happy with yourself, ‘Cause I'm not laughing don’t you think it's kind of crappy what you did this holiday? When I gave you my heart, you ripped it apart like wrapping paper trash. So I wrote you a song, Hope that you sing along, and it goes, “Merry Christmas, kiss my ass" So sick of calling, you won't telephone me, No, fuck you girl, I'm going out. I gave you my all, but our love hit a wall, now, I’m jingle belling, And everyone's yelling, we’ll drink 'til the bars shut us down. Ain't that just what Christmas is all about? And I hope, hope you're happy with yourself, ‘Cause I'm not laughing, don’t you think it's so damn trashy what you did this holiday? I gave you my heart, you ripped it apart Like the wrapping paper trash So I wrote you a song, Hope that you sing along, Here it goes, “Merry Christmas bitch, kiss my ass”” I sang
I looked over at Jack and he was bobbing his head,
“I love it. It’s very angry in a nice upbeat way.” He said
“That’s what I was thinking. I think it will sound better with two guitars, the bass and drums though.” I said
He nodded and the bedroom door opened.
“Come on guys let’s get playing, I’m excited.” I heard Rian’s voice from the top of my stairs
I laughed and Jack and I grabbed our guitars and I grabbed my song book and we went to the garage.
“Wow, this is so much fun.” Zack said after we got done putting it all together and recorded onto my laptop.
“We should do this more often.” Jack said
“We could start a band.” Rian said
Every one of them turned and stared at me.
“Let’s do it.” I said
“This is going to be so much fun.” Jack said
“We just need a name.” Zack said
“I’ll get on that.” I smiled
Rian’s phone started to ring.
“Hello? Yes, yes, okay, I’ll be there soon. Yes he is, okay, alright. I love you too.” He said
“Who was that?” Zack asked
“My mom, we’ve got to get to my house, your mom is there.” Rian said
Zack nodded and they hugged Jack and me.
“So how’s your face?” Jack asked
“I’m still a little beaten up. No big deal though.” I said
“It is a big deal though. I didn’t mind when it was me but when it’s my best friend. That’s the biggest deal ever.” He said swinging his hands around
“Jack chill out, it’s okay. I’m okay, it didn’t bother me.” I said
He nodded and we walked back into the house and down to my room
“Your room looks so much better with all of your shit in it.” He said
“I know, I was so happy to get off of that mattress.” I said
“I bet. So my mom wants me home in a few hours, she said she has something for me.” He said
“Alright, you don’t sound too happy about that.” I said
“It scares me. Going home always scares me, being here is where I feel safe.” He said
“It’s just your mom; I don’t think that she would have you come home if you were going to get hurt.” I said
“I guess you’re right, I will be over tomorrow though. You said we have plans.” He said
“We do.” I said
He laughed.
“What about New Year’s Eve. What are you doing then?” I asked
“Nothing. Want me to come over?” He asked
I nodded and he smiled
“What now?” I asked
“I’m kind of hungry.” He said
“Let’s eat shall we?” I asked
He nodded and we headed to the kitchen and my mom had just pulled food out of the oven.
“Stomachs calling you to the food?” She asked
We nodded and we laughed
My mom dished out food and we all sat in the living room and ate together watching Forrest Gump on TV. Jack kept looking around and his eyes found the wall clock eventually and he hopped up and looked at me.
“I’m late.” He said
“Get going. I’ll bring your stuff to you in a few.” I said
He nodded and ran out the front door.
“Is he okay?” My mom asked
I nodded and took his and my plate into the kitchen, setting them into the sink. I walked down to my room and my phone started ringing, I dove onto my bed for it. It was an unknown number, I grabbed my phone and Jack’s shit and answered it as I walked up the stairs.
“Alexander Gaskarth here how may I be of service?” I answered, my mom heard and smiled at me
“Alex.” I heard a rough deep voice say
“Who is this?” I asked
“You don’t recognize your own fathers’ voice?” He asked
My breath hitched.
“How did you get my number, we changed it.” I said
“I’m at the house, now where the fuck are you and your mother?” HE asked
“Somewhere where you will not get us, leave us alone.” I said
“Alex you’re my son.” He said
I looked up and my mom with a tear running down my face.
“Who is it?” She asked
“Dad.” I whispered
She jutted her hand out and I gave her my phone.
“You listen here, and you listen good. You have done enough to this family, you leave us the fuck alone, and I’m serious Les. You do not come near my son ever.” She said hanging up my phone.
I looked at her and she pulled me into a hug.
“He’s not going to find us baby, he’s not going to hurt you.” She said
“Tom.” I said
“I know Sweetie.” She said
I tried to control my breathing and I looked down at my mom.
“I have to go take Jack his things.” I said
“Does he know?” She asked
“No.” I said
“Tell him, he’ll be here for you. He’ll understand.” She said
I nodded and I took off running towards Jack’s house, when I got there I just walked into the house like it was my own.
“Hi Alex.” His mom said
“Hello.” I said
“Jack is upstairs. Are you okay?” She asked
I stared at her.
“You look like you’ve been crying.” She said
“I’m okay.” I said
She nodded and I walked up to Jack’s room, he was sitting there reading a book.
“Jack.” I said
“Hey Alex, oh shit are you okay?” He asked
“No.” I said
“What’s wrong?” He asked
“I want to tell you something.” I said
He nodded and I pulled his guitar out its case and started to play.
“Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye - it could be for the last time and it's not right. “Don't let yourself get in over your head," he said. Alone and far from home we'll find you...Dead - Like a candle you burned out; spill the wax over the spaces left in place of angry words. Scream - To be heard, like you needed any more attention; throw the bottle, break the door, and disappear. Sing me to sleep; I'll see you in my dreams, waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry.” Forever’s never seemed so long as when you're not around it's like a piece of me is missing. I could have learned so much from you but what's left now? Don’t you realize you shot this family a world of pain? Can't you see there should have been a happy ending we let go? Sing me to sleep; I'll see you in my dreams, waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry.” Sing me to sleep. Sing me to sleep. Sing me to sleep. Sing me to s...Sing me to sleep (You've taken so much with you...) I'll see you in my dreams, (But left the worst with me...), waiting to say, "I miss you. I'm so sorry.” I’m sorry, I'm sorry.” I sang, I could feel the tears running down my cheeks
“Alex, oh my god. I’ve never seen you like this.” He said taking the guitar from me and hugging me.
I took a minute to calm down and I looked at him.
“Who’s that about?” He asked
“My older brother Tom.” I said
“What happened? Alex you can talk to me.” He said
“It happened two months before we moved here. He drank himself to death.” I said
“Was it an accident?” He asked
“No, he wrote me a note. Tom committed suicide.” I said
“Why?” He asked
“My dad, he was really abusive towards Tom, like he would never give it a rest. Whenever Tom was home he was getting abused, whenever Tom was out dad would text him awful things. Tom could never escape.” I said
“Did you get abused?” He asked
“More than my mom will ever know. That’s why I said it was fine when your dad beat me because it wasn’t anywhere near as bad as what my dad would dish out to me.” I said
I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks.
“Alex.” Jack said
I just looked up at him
“I’m glad you told me this, and sang this amazing song for me.” He said
I smiled through my sadness and took a deep breath.
“Can I stay here tonight?” I asked
“Of course.” He said
“I’m going to call my mom.” I said
He nodded and I pulled my phone out and called her.
“Hey Alex are you okay?” She asked
“Yeah. Um. Is it okay if I stay here for the night?” I asked
“Is his dad going to be home?” She asked
“Jack is your dad going to be here tonight?” I asked
Jack nodded,
“Yes.” I said
“I would feel safer if Jack came here and stayed.” She said
“Okay.” I said
I hung up and looked at him
“The verdict is?” He asked
“She wants you to stay at my house; it makes her feel like we’re safer.” I said
“Okay, let’s go.” He said
As we were walking down the street I had a song going through my head, I bobbed my head to the silent beat.
“What are you listening to in there?” Jack asked tapping my head
“A song.” I laughed
He laughed and we got into my driveway and my mom was at the door, we walked in and she smiled. I walked down to my room with Jack on my tail.
“I have to listen to this song. Give me a minute.” I said
He nodded and I grabbed my headphones and plugged them into my phone, I pulled up my music and started playing Head on Collision by New Found Glory. As I listened to the lyrics I found the title for our band
“I got it!” I yelled stopping the music, I looked over at Jack and he looked scared
“You got what?” He asked
“Our band title.” I said
“From a song?” He asked
I nodded
“Tell me.” He said
“All Time Low.” I said smiling
“Perfect.” He said
“New Found Glory.” I said
“Head on Collision?” He asked
I nodded and sent out a text to Rian and Zack,
“To: Hit it and quit it Dawson and Mr. Muscle Merrick,
I got the title of our band! I hope you two like it. How about All Time Low?”
“Hit it and quit it Dawson?” Jack asked
“Zack changed it from Rian.” I said
“I like Zack’s name.” He said
“I thought you would.” I laughed
My phone buzzed.
“From: Mr. Muscle Merrick,
Dude! I fucking love that, hit it and quit it is in the shower so you’ll get his reaction later. I think he’ll like it. We should start practices and shit. Are you going to write the songs?”
“To: Mr. Muscle Merrick,
If you want me to. I can sing some songs for you guys at a later date.”
“From: Mr. Muscle Merrick,
Can’t wait, the two that I’ve heard are pretty awesome. I’ll chat at you later. Is Jack at your place?”
“To: Mr. Muscle Merrick,
Okay and yeah he’s here, where else would he be.”
“From: Mr. Muscle Merrick,
Good Point.”
I set my phone down and looked at jack.
“Does Zack like it?” He asked
I nodded and he smiled.
“Rian will love it.” He said
I smiled and did a happy dance and my phone buzzed.
“From: Hit it and quit it Dawson,
Rad name dude! Night time, bedtime. Ttyl.”
I laughed and Jack looked at me.
“You okay?” He asked
“Yeah.” I said
“When was the last time you heard from your dad?” He asked
“Well the last time I saw him was two days after Tom died, he went into some sort of hiding. The last time I heard from him was about three hours ago right before I went to your house.” I said
“He called you today?” He asked
I nodded, Jack leaned over the bed and hugged me.
“It’s bedtime.” He said pulling me into a laying position.
We laid there and he fell asleep first with his head on my chest.

Notes

Sorry for my absence guys please don't hate me