On a Tuesday afternoon

Me: Jacky, shut up for a minute. What are you doing again?
Jack: Ugh... I'm going to a party would YOU like to come with ME?
Me: I mean sure, who else is gonna be there?
Jack: I don't know but Cass and Rian and people are coming-
Me: Is Zack gonna come?!
Jack: I don't know, why?
Me: No reason, I just enjoy his company.
Jack: Ok, will you come though?
Me: Sure, Jacky.
Jack: Awesome! I'll pick you up in like an hour.

Jack hung up and I rolled off the end of my bed. "What was that about?" Alex asked. I laid facing towards the ceiling. "Jack, he invited me to a party tonight." Alex leaned his head over the edge of the bed. "Oh yeah, what if I was gonna ask you to come to this party?" I laughed and sat up on my elbows looking up at the almost naked teenage bot in my bed. "I'd say sucks for you, should have asked me first." I stood up.

I walked past my bed and Alex grabbed my arm pulling me to the edge of the bed. "What?" I asked as his fingers traced over where my bruises were earlier this week. "They look good." "Well it has been a few days." I giggled pulling away from him and going in the direction of my closet. "What should I wear to this party, Lex?" I asked looking through things on the hangers. I didn't hear anything till the floor board going into my closet creaked.

Alex's arms came around my mid section and pulled me to his chest. "You look good in everything so..." "So my underwear-" "Woah, that's a lucky sight only some of us get to see." I laughed at him. "If only you knew the things that people said at my old school. You would never be my friend." He kissed the right side of my neck. "Were they true?" "Well, not all of it-" "Well then I'm happy with what I have here."

I pulled away pulling something off the rack. "And what do you have here, Gaskarth?" I asked leaving my closet. I threw the clothes that I picked out onto my bed. "A really good thing. You're awesome, I mean you play all sorts of instruments." He flopped landing backwards onto my bed throwing his arms behind his head so he could still see me.

"And like you like to cuddle but not too much, you like awesome movies, you cook but not like weird foods the good kind. You're just really cool and I like hanging out with you. And I can kiss you and we can make out one minute and then walk away and nothing hold us back..." He trailed off. I pulled my bra and panties off cause that was all that I was wearing. "Uh huh, so what's making you hold me back, Gaskarth?"

I asked picking my dirty clothes up and throwing them into the dirty hamper. Taking my clothes with me I went into the bathroom. I didn't bother shutting the door, I didn't feel like I needed to. I turned on the shower, while grabbing a towel from underneath the sink. I looked at my face in the mirror. I took my tooth brush and brushed my teeth making funny faces at myself in the mirror in the process.

I've been much happier since Jack and Alex found me monday, they haven't left my side during school hours. Walking me to class and what not was fine and actually sort of fun, I had never been escorted to class before. Brandy and Lisa gave me death glares constantly but I didn't care, not because I had Alex and Jack but because I just didn't give a fuck. Can't be bothered with bitches at the moment, I just busy trying to pass high school so I can do something with my sisters dream, like planned.

I stopped staring at myself in the mirror for long enough to remember I needed to remove the gauze off my arm. I undid the tape and bandage covering up the cuts that would surely be the worst scars I've had yet. I sighed and ran my hand over the healing cuts, it's so hard to stop. An unitchable itch that fucking scratches- no claws at the back of my brain begging for the release. I close my eyes and push my arm into my side.

I open my eyes again. "It will get easier, I promise." My head turned to look at Alex. "I know, it's just not yet." I smiled and slipped through the curtain and into my shower. "Getting dolled up to go hang out with, Barakat." He said. I laughed cause it almost sounded like he was jealous. "Well aren't you gonna go?" I asked putting shampoo on my hands to wash my hair. "I don't know. Are you asking me to come, Izzy?" He said. "Izzy?" I questioned. "Yeah, noticed an award on your desk, middle names Elizabeth, so ergo I will call you Izzy from now on.

"Ok, and yeah. I expect a dance from you, even though it's a bad idea, I'm a terrible dancer. But you need to get ready then." I said finishing washing the conditioner out of my hair. I closed my eyes and let the water roll over my head. I heard the curtain move. "So" He started I moved the hair from my face and pushed it back on my head. "I guess I'll just get ready here then." He said smirking at me.

I gave a smirk back. "I guess that's ok, you're just lucky no one in my house cares that there's a naked boy in my shower-" "Man, naked Man." He corrected me while emphasizing the word man. I reached over and squeezed his upper arm. "Right, a man with these." "Hey, those are my guns." "Right, BB-Guns." His jaw dropped and I started to giggle. "That was just uncalled for." I rolled my eyes. "Cause everything I do is called for, Lexi." He laughed.

I shuffled past him, or tried. He stepped forward pushing me against the wall. "Lex, the objective when in the shower is to get wet, like under the water." "Opps, I don't think I get it. Show me?" He suggested. I blushed and stared back at him. "See I would normally but I have a gathering to attend." I said and tried yet again to slide past him. But this time instead of just pushing me against the wall with his hands he used his whole body.

I could feel all of Alex against me, his chest against mine and he legs against mine. "Or." Was all he said before attaching his lips to mine. They moved in sync. I parted my mouth after he licked my bottom lip. Our tongues fought against one anothers. I pushed forward slightly moving his head back enough for me to pull away not with out biting his lip first. "I have to dry my hair now." I said and crawled out from his body.

No one gets me that easy, if they get me at all. I stepped out of the shower and grabbed my towel wrapping it around my body. I pulled out my clothes and slid them on my body, under garments first followed by my shirt and jeans. I pulled on some bracelets, like a lot to cover up my arms. I ruffled my hair and bent over to blow dry it. I turned on the dry and it's so loud I never heard the shower turn off.

I felt a tingling sensation on my ass, which can only be described as being smacked. "Hey can I have a towel?" Alex asked. I opened the cabinet, still bent over and handed him the towel. "That hurt you know." I said throwing my head up now that I was all done with that part. "Well you didn't scream like I thought you would." He retaliated back with. "Maybe I like it rough?" I suggested while turning on my straightener.

I moved my hair out of my face and looked in the mirror, only to see Alex staring at me. Towel wrapped around his waist and his mouth wide open. "What?" I asked innocently. He threw his hands up and turned around, walking into my room. "You can borrow some clothes, bottom drawer of my dresser." I said pulling my straightener threw my hair. "I don't think your skinny jeans are gonna fit me." He laughed at his joke. I turned and looked at him.

"No, guys clothes you idgit." I said turning back to the mirror. He nodded and left the bathroom. I put on my make up once I was finished with my hair. I looked at myself and half smiled in the mirror I didn't look half bad. I put up my straightener and walked back into my bedroom. "So what's with the guy clothes?" He asked pulling a shirt over his head. "Austin, it's his clothes for when he comes down- nope it would be up now we live up north." I said pulling on some socks and shoes.

I stood up and fixed my shirt and pulled up my pants a little. "You look really good, liking the boobage." Alex said biting onto his bottom lip. "Oh my gosh, keep it in your pants Gaskarth." Then the door bell rang. "That would be my ride." I said and passed Alex. I went down my steps and went to the door. "Come in my dearest, Jacko!" I shouted as I whipped the door open. "Wow... you look amazing." I blushed. "Thanks, Jacky." "Are you ready to go?" He asked. "Yeah, sure." I grabbed my house key off the bar and turned to look up the bottom of the steps.

"Lock up when you leave!" I shouted. I heard a laugh. "Yes, mam!" He shouted back. I snickered and pulled Jack out the door with me. "Who was that?" "Alex." "When did he get here?" "He came over last night and hung out with me." I said pulling the door open to his car and sliding in. "Oh ok." He said and got in. "So where is this party at?" I asked turning to face him. "At this one guys house, his names Kevin, he throws killer parties." "Sounds fun." I said and sat back in my seat.

"So what did you and Alex do last night?" He asked. I raised my eye brow and turned my head to look at him. "We just watched a movie or two, ate junk food. The normal stuff." "Ok." We pulled up outside of a huge house, with people pouring out of every corner. "This guy lives so close." I said stepping out of the car. "Yeah, come on." Jack took my hand and pulled me towards the front door. "So stay by me, I don't want anyone getting my hot date out from under me." He said as we entered the incredibly loud house.

Date? Is that what this was? I don't date people, how clearer can I make it. "Jack I-" "Don't worry, let's go get something to drink." He said still holding my hand. We went to the kitchen and Jack turned to me. "Liquor or beer?" "Let's just go with beer, tonight." I said as he let go of my hand, it left my hand feeling tingly, I missed the contact but brushed it off. "Here you are, my lady." He handed me the beer. "Thank you." I said and took a sip.

We walked around and went to talk to various people. Mostly it consisted of me walking behind Jack with our right and left hand locked in one anothers, while I sipped my beer in the other hand. "Paige!" I heard from behind me. I turned a little to see Zack heading towards me. I let go of Jack hand and held my arms open. Zack ran over and pulled me into a hug lifting me above the ground. "You're gonna spill my beer, boy." I playfully scolded Zack.

"Oh boo hoo, I'll get you another one." He said grabbing my cup out of my hand after placing my body on the ground. "Thanks, I'll-" I stopped my sentence when Jack grabbed my hand again, waffling our fingers and giving Zack a look with his eyes. Zack rolled his own eyes back and left with my cup. I decided not to question it. "Hey do you wanna dance?" Jack asked. "That depends, can you dance?" I asked back.

"No but it's still fun." I blushed. "I can't dance, Jacky." Jack opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted by my hips being grabbed and pulled into another body. My back was pushed up against someone's chest, then they spoke. "Hey, so that dance." Alex said. Before I could retaliate and tell Alex that I was completely kidding earlier today, he pulled me onto the makeshift dance floor. "Alex, please no don't make me dance." I begged.

"Come on, Izzy. We'll have fun." He said wiggling his eye brows at me. We made it to the middle of the dance floor, my face was pushed into Alex's chest. "Izzy, you'll be fine. Let me show you-" "Alex, I know how to dance I just don't anymore." I said over the roar of the loud music. "Why?" "Cause of stuff with my sister and-" He took a hold of my face, forcing me to focus. "Paige, yes she died but she doesn't want you living your life like this. Have fun with me."

He said. One dance couldn't kill me right, I mean not physically but I knew that I would regret it. But the first thought going through my mind was, Alex's hands would feel so good against my hips as I grinded against him. "Ok." I said over the music. He smiled. I turned around taking his hands placing them on either sides of my waist. I started moving my hips to the music and Alex caught on. I leaned my head back against his chest and wrapped my hands around his neck.

We danced for a few minutes, me getting lost in the music much like parties back in Woodstock that I attended. My left hand was pulled from Alex's neck and wrapped around anothers. I opened my eyes to see Jack. "I thought you said you couldn't dance." He said pulling me further down into the crowd of people. "I said I can't, doesn't mean I can't." Jack looked at me and I wrapped my hands around his neck and danced next to him.

I kept getting lost loving this feeling reminding me of when I actually had friends and was the coolest kid to know, before my sister died. This time I was dragged off by someone wrapping their arms around my waist. "Gosh, I can't even dance with you. How rude." Alex said. I laughed. These boys are ridiculous and hilarious. I danced with Alex more and just I felt like my old self before all this bullshit, it was like I found a missing piece of me again.

Then another hand took mine at first I expected Jack but these finger felt weirdly familiar. I turned to see who it was. My smiled faded and my stomach dropped out of my rib cage, my heart beat out of my chest. He leaned in close to my ear so only I could hear him. "Surprise, surprise. Guess who lives with their Aunt now, lucky me. I'll see you around school, around your life, around everything. I will always control you, Paige Elizabeth Colegrove." My hand flung to my mouth and I pushed away from him tears begging to escape.

I ran off the dance floor. I ran through the house past everything, I mean what can you do. I made it to the back yard. I ran back to the woods and threw up the content of my stomach. How could he even? Like why was he here? I questioned everything. "Paige?" I heard my name being called. Only a few tears found their way out though. "Y-yeah." I half yelled. Jack came over to me. "Are you alright, I saw you run, are you sick?"

"Yeah but not cause of alcohol-" "Izzy?" I heard Alex yell. "What?" I asked standing up completely. Alex ran over. "Who was that I've never seen him before in my life." I shuddered thinking about him. "He's a menace and needs to go to fucking hell!" I spat, my words soaked in venom. "Awwe, Love. That's no way to talk about me." He said. Alex and Jack turned to look at him. I stepped past them and straight up to him, crossing my arms over my chest.

I was scared and he can be intimidating. "Why are you here, Eric?" I asked with no emotion. "No nickname anymore, surely we can still use those-" "You don't deserve one you traitor!" I yelled clenching my fists at my side, he didn't flinch, he's seen me mad before. "Why don't we go talk about this at your house." He reached over to grab my arm but I pulled away stepping back to where Alex and Jack were.

"Don't touch me! I'm not interested in anything you have to say." I said back. "Oh but I bet everyone else will, maybe I should go talk to the two gilrs who invited me to this party. They said they knew you, Brandy and Lisa right? They were nice girls." I had tears streaming down my face. "I-I fucking hate you!" I said taking in gasps of air. "Oh but babe if it was only that easy-" "Alright, you're starting to freak me the fuck out. Leave her alone." Alex said in a bitter tone.

I reached up holding his arm rubbing my thumb in circles over the skin. "It's fine-" "Oh so this is your new boyfriend then?" He asked pointing to Alex. "No." I said not wanting to elaborate on anything for him. "No? Well then maybe him?" He said gesturing towards Jack. "No." I spoke again, I always felt compelled to answer his questions. "Wait so both of them, wow look at you! Back on the old saddle, you always were the official whore of the group-" "Shut up!" I yelled and lunged at him.

With all my might I threw my fist into his jaw. He moved and his hand came up, I thought to cup his chin but I knew him too well. It came swinging at me and I dodged it. I ducked down and stop back up pushing him. I turned grabbing Jack and Alex's hands. I ran from the back of the house to the front, them following in toe. We made it to the front and Jack unlocked his car. We all slid in and he started in whipping off the street and into the road, rather quickly.

"Hey swung at a fucking girl!" Alex yelled. "I know-" "And you dodged it, which meant you knew it was coming." I sighed, as the steam billowed from his and Jack's ears. "I know-" "Who is he? Where the fuck did he come from and why did he say those things and why did he call you love?" Jack asked gripping the steering wheel. I lightly touched his hand. "Jack calm down, I don't wanna die." I said.

"Who was he?" Jack asked again making eye contact. "He's my... he's a fucking jerk from my old school. Forget about it I can handle it." I said cutting this conversation short. "But
Paige-" "Drop it." I warned through gritted teeth. "Paige seriously, though-" "I said fucking drop it!" I snapped turning to look at both of them. They've never seen me made before. "God" I placed my hand over my hair gripping at it. "I almost felt normal again." I continued.

We pulled up to my house and I got out. Alex and Jack opened the doors and got out. "Please, don't." I whispered. They stopped. "But-" I turned to look at them. "I won't do anything, I just can't be with people right now." I said and went to my front door. Pulling my key out I unlocked it and stepped into the dark, empty house. Alone with my thoughts. Mainly this one: Fuck...Eric is here.

Notes

Alright... so this started really bad but it kept going hopefully you can bare through it. Thanks for reading, please comment IT WOULD MAKE ME SO HAPPY!!!!! Also I bet y'all can't firgure out her past with Eric. LOVES :P

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