"Chris, stop crying. You're gonna m-make me cry." I said as Chris was giving me like the best hug of my life. "I-I'm just gonna miss you, ok? I'm gonna miss that bean growing inside of you, too." "I may be back some day, just not for a while. So to be fair this isn't good bye forever, it's good bye for now." He pulled away and looked at me. His eyes all puffy from crying. "You remind me of a Disney movie sometimes." "Sad in the beginning, sad in the middle but never in the end." I said.

He pulled away and grabbed my bag. "Come on. Let's got your stuff checked." He said. I was definitely starting to show now and was rather large. We made it to where we checked bags and we checked my bag. "You're gonna call me and tell me when you land and and and w-when you pick a name for the little guy, right?" He looked like he was gonna cry again. "Yes, I promise. Go home, take tomorrow off. You look terrible." I said and laughed. He hit my shoulder lightly.

"I'm gonna miss you." He said. I pulled him into another hug. "Me, too." I said. He let go of me and I grabbed my carry on and and walked towards my gate, they were now loading. I walked away from Chris and boarded the plane. I've lived in Baltimore most of my life. I never thought I would leave but here I am leaving everything I've ever known in attempt to better a situation that would have been fine, probably, if I stayed. Who could know that for sure though.

I sat down with my bag and laid my hands across my stomach. I was trying not to cry when a little girl and her mother sat next to me. The little girl next to me. "Hi." She said. "Hi." I said back. "I'm Sophia, my mommy calls me Soph though. You could call me Soph." She was so cute. "I'm Paige, but my best friend calls me Paigie, you could call me that if you want." She smiled. "I'm five, almost six." "I'm 22 I'll be 23 in September." "Wow, that's a big number." "Yeah." "Is your baby a boy or girl?" She asked staring at my stomach.

"A boy, I'm trying to come up with names." "OOOOHHH, what about...Jeremy?" "Nah, not my style." I said. "How about... Jayden?" I nodded. "Kyle." I nodded again. "Dalton?" I almost shook my head. "I like that, it's cute." I looked down at my stomach. "Do you feel like a like Dalton?" I asked. Soph took her hand and placed it on my tummy. "He does, he feels like a Dalton." I laughed. "Hey, Soph. You should take a nap, it's a very long plane ride and it will make it go a lot faster. She yawned. "But I'm not tired."

Her mother laughed and pushed Sophia's head to her lap. It took a few but she fell asleep. I looked down at me tummy. Dalton, I really like it. I pulled my double head phone jack out of my bag and plugged it to my phone. I slipped my buds into my ears and took out my large head phones for my tummy. If I wasn't gonna see Jack at least he was gonna get to hear him play. I put them on and turned on their latest album. "That's daddy and your uncles, little baby." I said softly. A tear rolled down my cheek, this better be the right decision.

I'm a little over 5 months now and it's around December 16th. The guys aren't due to be home in Baltimore until the 21st, I waited so long to move so I could pack properly and that way I could continue to talk to the guys until ultimately the last minute. I wrote a note and left it on the counter for Jack, I cleaned out my room. I gave Jack my signed Blink poster, and the Green Day pick I grabbed at our first Green Day concert. I didn't know what else to give him that would symbolize our friendship.

I woke up by being shaken lightly. "Paigie..." "Yeah, yeah." I said and sat up. She giggled. "We landed, are you gonna get off?" She asked. "Of course." I said standing up throwing all my stuff into my bag. "It was nice meeting you Sophia." I said. "You, too. I hope Dalton likes his name." "Me, too." We got off and parted ways. I picked up my bag and rolled it outside. The company had a car coming to get me. I got in and the girl turned around. "Hello Ms.Colegrove, I'm Ali." "Nice to meet you, call me Paige though." I smiled at her. "Alright, were going to your new home."

"Good, I need a bed." I said leaning back. She laughed. We drove and drove just learning little bits about each other. I was so tired and my back hurt. So when we pulled up to what was to be my new house I was so happy. I got out and went to grab my bag. "No I got it." Ali said. "Are you sure?" I asked. "Of course." She said. She handed me the keys to my new home and I unlocked the door. I stepped foot inside and looked around. Fully furnished home with a fire place and everything. It was perfect. I had my left hand on my stomach and went up stairs.

Alissa followed me. "They told me you were pregnant and I said that you needed one bedroom upstairs empty so you could pick out baby things." I turned to her and pulled her into a hug. "Thank you." I said as she hugged back. "You're welcome." "Would you go with me to pick stuff out?" I asked. "If you would like me to." She said. "Yeah, I like you." I said and she smiled. "Do you wanna paint it?" She asked. "Yeah, I wanna do blue so I do a Jack the pumpkin king theme, cause my kids gonna be awesome." I said excitedly.

We left my new house and drove to the nearest hardware store. We picked out the colors I needed, a dark blue but not too dark, and off white, yellow and a black. We drove back to my house. "Alright, Ali. Ready to start painting?" I asked. "Yeah." We painted the blue across the walls and I let her do stars across the top and snow across the walls. I started the hill that Jack and Sally stand on. I did that and made silhouettes of the two of them. with the moon behind them. I stood back and looked at it.

"What?" Ali asked. "It needs... something... like." I took a very fine brush and dipped it in the black and wrote Blink lyrics across the moon in a script style. "We can live like Jack and Sally if we want." Ali read it out loud. "That's exactly what it needed." She said. "Yeah..." I turned to her. "Come on, let's go order pizza." "Ok." she said and we took the brushes down with us cleaning them out. Ali ordered pizza and it arrived. I paid much to Ali's dismay. "No, you helped me today. You are not paying me back." I said taking a bite. I finished the first slice and went to get another when I sat back down, and reached my hands around my stomach.

"Calm down, give me a minute and I'll get more! God, you're impatient just like Jack!" I said as he kicked again. "Who's Jack, is he the father?" Ali asked. "Yeah, he doesn't know. That's part of the reason I took this job." I said grabbing another slice. "I'm sorry." She said. "Don't be, as selfish as it's gonna sound I couldn't have all of him and this happened to be a non-removable piece of him I can have, other wise I'm sure we would have been best friends forever. He never liked me like I liked him." "That sucks." "Yeah."

We finished and Ali left. I walked up stairs and got a call, I hadn't even realized how late it was here. It's like 2am here. So it's like 10am...yesterday there...

Me: Hello.
Jack: Hey, Paigie! So what are you doing on this fine Friday morning?
Me: Nothing really, I'm actually gonna go take a nap.
Jack: Boring, anyways. I got you a surprise.
Me: No you didn't, Jack I don't need anything I promise.
Jack: Sure you do, you've been my best friend for a long time, you deserve a thank you for putting up with me present.
Me: Jack I can't take it.
Jack: Why?
Me: Cause... I don't know. Hey, I gotta go but please don't be mad at me if I don't answer, okay. I love you and you're my best friend. I'm trying not to make this difficult.
Jack: What are you talking about?
Me: Nothing, never mind. Bye Jack...
Jack: Bye Paige.

I hung up and sat at the top of the stairs. I was crying, I missed everything. I've only been gone a couple hours and I miss it so much. I miss Jack. I really hated this. I felt Dalton kick. "Alright." I said and started to hum Jack's part in Love like war, that always made him stop kicking. I finished and got up and found my bed room. I looked around, a big bed with bare walls, dressers, night stands, and a tv filled the spaces. I missed my room, I missed Jack's room.

I slipped off my pants and took off my bra. I climbed into bed and I plugged up my phone to my doc. I pressed play. "Oh Memories! Where'd you go? You were all I've ever known! How I miss yesterday! How'd I let it fade away? Where'd you go?" I rolled over and scoffed at my phone with tears in my eyes. "Thank you Panic! At the disco!" I yelled. I continued to listen and sing along. I couldn't fall asleep. I laid there and laid there until I finally dozed off at like 6am.

~Five days later~

Jack's Pov

It's been a couple days since I called Paige but I figured she was really busy with work or something. I walked out of the back lounge after getting dressed and sat next to Rian. "So, today's the day. You gonna hold up to the agreement, Barakat?" Alex asked laying across the couch across from us. "Yes, I'm actually really excited to tell her." "Well, were glad. It's about time." Rian said. "You know we'll be there in like 30 minutes after we drop off Alex and Rian." Matt said walking out of the back lounge. It hit me, I'm gonna tell my best friend I love her.

"Can we drive faster?" I asked. Alex and Rian laughed. "Shut up! I'm just nervous ok?" I said fiddling with my hands. We stopped and I grabbed Rian's bag and handed it to him. "Nice to see you, it's been really fun. Tell Cass hi." I pushed him off the bus. "I'l call you later." I yelled and shut the door. Alex and Matt were dieing. "Shut the fuck up or I wont be as nice and stop to push you out." I said pointing to Alex. He raised his hands. We made it to his house.

"You better call m,e later." He warned. "I will. No leave." I said. He got off and I closed the door. Alex and I live like barely ten minutes away. We got closer and closer and I grabbed my suit case form the back. He stopped. "Bye Matt!" I yelled and ran off the bus. I ran to my front door but it was locked. I shrugged and pulled out my keys. I unlocked the door and ran in. "Paige!" I yelled. All the lights were out and it was dark. "Paige?" I asked. I flipped on some lights and walked through the house.

It felt different. Something was wrong. I walked up stairs with my suit case and opened the door to my room. I set my bag down and walked over to my bed. It was made with an envelope on it along with a pick and Paige's signed Blink poster. I sat down on the bed and took the envelope in my hand. I opened it and slid the letter out. My name was on the front.

Dear Jacky,

If your reading this it's the 21st of December and I'm obviously not there. Well let me tell you that I've left, now I can't tell you where but I did. I'll be fine and you'll always be my best friend. I took down my posters and cleaned my room, the first time it's ever been clean. I left you the pick you caught for me at the Green Day concert and the Blink poster I got signed. They meant something to me and to you so I thought you should have them. I'm dealing with some "things" right now and I don't wanna bother you with my problems, so I left. I know you, and you're gonna wanna call me and Skype me, even face time me but don't, or at least try not to. It's gonna be just as hard not to answer as it is for you not to call. I left you some presents under the tree, I think you'll enjoy them. I wish I could see you open them but it would be harder if I stayed. I want you to know this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Tell the guys that I love them and that it wasn't cause of touring or anything like that. I will be back one day but I don't know when. I wanted to stay but I couldn't. I love you my goofy best friend. I left the necklace you bought me from Prom Junior year because I didn't stay with you forever and it would feel weird keeping it. I miss you already.

Love, your bitch of a best friend, Paigie.

I read the note like 12 times before anything registered. I took the envelope and sure enough the necklace was in there. I ran my hand through my hair. It felt like my heart stopped but it was beating so fast. I didn't know what else to do. I jumped up and held the letter in my hand and the necklace. I ran across the hall to her room and fell to my knees seeing the bare walls and empty bedroom. "This isn't fair!" I yelled. Tears were clawing their way out of my eyes. I stood back up and ran down stairs.

I ran out my front door and down the street. I was full on crying at the is point. I was running full speed towards Alex's house. I ran and ran, I didn't wanna stop. I made it to his door and turned the handle and ran in. "Ahhh!" He yelled. "Jack?! What's wrong?!" He asked coming closer to me. I took his hand and handed him the necklace and the letter. Alex opened the letter and read through it. He looked up at me. "I-I was too late, she left cause I was too late." Alex pulled me into a hug. "I fucked up Alex. I fucked up." I said.

"Jack... I have no idea what to say, or what to do. I'm just so sorry." I pulled away from him. "Alex, please don't think this is your fault. It's mine. I should have told her sooner, I should have done something." I said. "Come on, let me take you home." He said grabbing his keys. I nodded. It felt like my heart was in my throat. It wasn't fair. I got in and he drove me home. "Jack, she said she'd come back..." Alex said. "How long do I have to wait though, I waited my whole life already." I said. "Waiting that long, I don't think any amount will ever be too much for you to wait."

I shook me head and got out of his car. I walked up to my now extremely empty house and shut the door behind me. I slid down the back of the door and put my head in my hands. I started to cry, I didn't feel like doing anything else. It's really hard to think of any amount of time with out her.

Notes

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