"Jack it's happening again!" Zack yelled.

"What is?" I questioned as I walked up to him at the side of the stage.

"Alex, he's having a panic attack, it's really bad Jack, he won't talk to anyone or let them in the room" Zack replied.

I started to walk to our dressing room but stopped abruptly, turning to face Zack.

"Hold on, what do you mean it's happening again?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Jack, I-Alex has been having panic attacks for the past few days, he didn't want you to worry. But I couldn't hold it off any longer and this one is worse than the others" Zack explained.

I shook my head at him as I turned around and ran for the dressing room. I can't believe this was getting hidden from me! I'm Alex's best friend for crying out loud and I'm not getting told jack shit about what's going on. Pardon the pun.

"Jack!" Zack yelled.

I ignored him as I ran around the corner and saw Rian standing by the door trying to pry it open. I rolled my eyes as I walked up to the door and knocked softly.

"Dude he won't let anyone in" Rian mused.

I scowled at him as I grabbed the handle on the door and it opened for me. Alex must have heard my voice. I turned to Rian and smirked slightly.

"Jackass" I muttered, walking into the room and slamming the door behind me.

I walked around and tried to find Alex. Why the hell was he hiding?

"Alex?" I whispered.

I heard someone whimper and I spun around to see Alex sitting in the corner by the guitar cases. He was rocking back and forth and his breathing was shallow and sharp. I ran up to him and crouched down in front of him.

"Alex, hey its me" I soothed.

Alex looked up at me, tears streaming down his face as he swallowed the lump in his throat.

"Jesus Alex, you're a wreck, c'mere" I whispered, holding my arms out to him.

He looked at me as he dropped his arms and shuffled into my lap. I wrapped my arms around him tightly, rocking us back and forth. I ran my free hand through his hair and he hummed into the crook of my neck. I hate seeing my best friend suffering, I wanted to see him smile.

"Alex, why didn't you tell me? You scared me, I thought you'd been hurt to something" I questioned with worry.

"I-I didn't want you to worry about me, I don't deserve it" he whispered.

"Hey, you listen to me Alex Gaskarth, you deserve everything good that comes your way. You're a beautiful person and you're my best friend for a reason" I replied.

Alex hummed against my neck again wrapped his arms tightly around my waist. I swallowed the lump in my throat and rested my cheek on his hair. My heart was going a mile a minute. This closeness with Alex has sort of...ignited feelings that I'm not sure I should be having. I'm not sure if it's some stupid crush or if I'm actually in love with Alex. I'm positive it could be love.

"Jack" Alex whispered, sitting up as he looked at me.

"Yeah?" I answered.

"You're crying" he replied with concern.

I touched my hand to my cheek and sure enough there was a single tear falling down my face. I gasped as I wiped it away quickly and bit my lip nervously.

"Sorry, I just, hate seeing you like this" I mumbled, looking down.

I felt Alex's hands slip under my jaw as he pulled my face back up to face him. I was now staring deep into his eyes and I found it hard to look away.

"Jack, you know how much you mean to me right?" he questioned.

"Should I?" I replied.

Alex's hands dropped from my face, a blank expression crossing his features.

"Dammit Jack you're such an idiot!" he yelled, getting up off the floor.

I stumbled to my feet as Alex broke out into a run and dashed out the door.

"Alex!" I yelled.

He ignored me as I continued to run after him. Shit, I always say the wrong thing. I can't lose Alex, not like this. Fuck, stop thinking so negative Jack and just catch him.

"Alex stop!" I roared.

My legs started to ache as he tumbled up some stairs and I followed him. I noticed the floor had changed material and I raised an eyebrow as I looked to my left. There was a whole crowd of our fans standing just out from the stage. Alex and I had ran onto the stage! I saw Alex up ahead and he was facing me, a blush spread across his face. I looked out at the fans again who looked as dumbfounded as anything. Nows my chance.

"Alex, I need to tell you something" I spoke.

"What?" he questioned, tilting his head.

I bit my lip as I walked up to him and stood close to him. His gaze met mine and we were locked in a powerful stare. Just kiss him Jack! Kiss him!

"Ja-" I stopped him.

I pulled him into my arms, smacking my lips against his as he clutched to the fabric of my shirt. The fans let out cheers and hollers as I deepened the kiss even more. It felt so right. Well, so right to me anyways. The thing is, Alex was kissing back and that's the best reaction I could ever have gotten. I finally pulled away from him, holding him back from me a little as he looked at me, panting as he tried to catch his breath.

"Wow" he gasped.

"Alex" I purred.

"Yes Jack?" he asked.

"I-I think I'm um, in love with you" I stammered.

A smile spread across Alex's face as he threw his arms around my neck and connected his lips with mine again. I rested my hands on his hips as we shared another passionate kiss together in front of our fans who were cheering again.

"Jalex! Jalex! Jalex! Jalex! Jalex!" they chanted.

Alex and I pulled away again as he rested his forehead against mine and smiled.

"Jack" he cooed.

"Hmm?" I hummed.

"I love you" he confessed.

I smiled as I trailed my hands around to his lower back.

"I love you too" I hissed against his lips.

Alex smiled as we kissed for the third time before we had Zack and Rian yelling at us to get our butts ready for the show. And for the rest of they night Alex and I were closer than we ever have been before. Stealing kisses throughout the show, sending each other love hearts, flirting onstage. It was the greatest night I've had in a while. And it ended with Alex and I taking a walk in a park, holding hands and sharing kisses under the stars. I'll never forget the day I fell in love with my best friend.

Notes

Title is from Backseat Serenade by ATL :3