This was, quiet possibly, the biggest party that had been thrown all year. And to think, there wasn't even a special occasion! Ember didn't seem too excited about it, but the simple fact that she was willing to come made me nearly burst with joy. I'd tried, really hard, to contain my hyper-ness when I was around her, but I was just too excited to do that tonight. Not only that, but Ember would be here with me. It was a chance to see what people thought of us being together.


We'd already gotten the pizza and snacks for tonight. Ember was strangely quiet on the ride, but I let it go. At least we weren't fighting. By the time we got back and got everything set up, I realized I hadn't even given myself enough time to get dressed. Looking like shit was not one of my favorite things to do. So, I left Ember with my friends and went up to my room to change clothes and freshen up. Plus.. I knew things would get heated tonight, not only from everyone drinking and grinding, but literally heated from so many people being pushed into one room. I didn't want Ember to get grossed out from my sweat or anything. Guess I'm lame.


I was happily skipping out of my room when Zack met me by my door. I nearly fell backwards from shock, but laughed it off. Zack, however, had a more serious look on his face. My first instinct was assuming that something got ruined downstairs, but then my mind flashed to Ember. Was someone fucking with her?!


"It's Ember," Zack nervously spoke, shoving a cold beer in my hand. "She's out there grinding. With Alex. Apparently this is their first date."


My entire world stopped spinning. What the fucking fuck?! I staggered back into my room and popped the tab on my beer, chugging every bit of it until I burped loudly to relieve the pressure on my lungs. Zack was frowning as he pulled me down on the bed.


"Neither of them know how you feel, do they?"


"No.. But Alex shouldn't be on a date with her anyway. She's my sister! What if something goes wrong? Did they even think of me?"


"Jack.. It's Alex. He never thinks."


Huffing to myself, I shook my head and motioned for Zack to follow me from my room. Sure enough, when we made it to the living room, Alex and Ember were in the middle of the dancefloor. I clenched my fists, and my jaw, but kept going. Two can play this game. We went into the kitchen and I instantly proposed a game of beer pong to everyone in the room. I needed to get drunk. Now.


Zack was on my team and we played a few games, enough to make my weight feel off balance. Then, I decided to take a few shots. Just so I could deal with seeing Alex and Ember together when I went back in the living room. It was just so fucked. How could they do that? Given, Ember doesn't know how I feel and I damn sure didn't tell Alex, but that didn't make it any better. At the very least, one of them could have told me. It's bullshit to find out from someone else. Complete bullshit.


With Zack by my side, I staggered into the living room just in time to see Alex kiss Ember. Fury shot through my blood like a bat out of Hell. Who the fuck does he think he is? Zack noticed the look in my eyes and gripped my shoulder.


"Don't do it, man. It's not worth it. Just talk to them tomorrow when you're sober."


"Fuck," I growled. "I guess you're-"


That's when it happened. Even in my drunken state, I watched her shove him away. But Alex didn't stop. Of course, Alex never stops until he gets what he wants. I'll be damned if he's going to use Ember for a night of sex and toss her to side. Anyone but Ember. Thankfully, Zack noticed her struggle as well. He released his grip on my shoulder and I pushed through the crowd with ease. She was going to hate me for this, but I didn't give a fuck. Grabbing Ember by the arm, probably harder than I should have, I tore her body off of Alex's and shot a glare to my best friend.


"Dude, what the-"
"My sister, man?! You could have any girl here begging at your feet and you go for the one girl that should bee off limits to you?! Fuck off, Gaskarth!"


"Whoa, Jack, chill the fuck out dude! You know I wouldn't do that to her!"


"Like Hell you wouldn't! Fucking really, Alex. You just crossed a line."


Ember was drunk and confused as she stood behind me. I couldn't tell if she was more thankful or pissed that I pulled her away from him, but something was going on in that mind of her. Regardless, I wasn't comfortable leaving her alone and the party had started again around us, so I grabbed her arm and dragged her to the stairs. We'd made it to the first step when Alex tapped me on my shoulder, pissing me off even more.


"Seriously, Jack. What the fuck?! She can make her own decisions, you know."


Whatever came over me, I didn't like. Shoving Ember up the stairs, I turned around long enough to deck Alex square in the face. A few people around us let out gasps as he fell to the ground. Guilt washed over me instantly. I just punched my best friend over a girl. FUCK. But it was too late to turn back now. Ignorning the pain in my hand, I continued shoving Ember until we made it to my bedroom. She started in on me instantly.


"Who do you think you are, Jack? I agreed to go on a date with Alex and he was just goofing, anyway!"


"Alex doesn't 'goof.' Alex sleeps with any and every drunk girl that will let him."


"Excuse me? Are you calling me a whore?"


"No, I'm trying to stop you from being one!"


"Jack, what is your fucking probl-"


It happened. I don't know how it happened, but it did and I couldn't stop myself. She was so pissed off at me and I didn't know how else to explain myself. My fingers were gripping her cheeks, my knees were bent so I was on her level and my lips were swiftly moving across her own. My body heat was rising and my head was spinning at an alarming pace. Fuck, she tasted so sweet. My heart was beating the shit out of my ribs. She kissed me back, but only for a moment. It took her two seconds to realize what I was doing, and once those two seconds were up, she jumped away from me. We stood there, awkwardly staring at each other as our breath had trouble getting through.


"Ember.."


She shook her dark head and ran. Why does she keep doing that to me? Not like it fucking matters. I kissed her. I just kissed my fucking sister. At least she probaby won't remember it tomorrow. Fuck, I probably won't remember it tomorrow. But the fact remains, in one night, I'd ruined my own life. Alex and Ember would probably become an item tomorrow, mocking their hate for me.


Why do I ruin everything I touch?

Notes

What the fuck just happened?