Long Distance Calls
Fourteen
"York, you avoiding me isn't going to help you feel better," I told her once she walked into the apartment after work.
"I don't want to talk about it right now, Abs. Aren't you spending the evening with Alex," she asked.
"Not until I talk to you York," I replied.
"Abbey, you don't need to worry about me. I know how your anxiety can be," she protested, "Go and spend time with Alex. He'll only be in town for another week or so."
"God damn it York stop pushing me away," I yelled at her.
"Abbey go away," York screamed as she slammed the door in my face.
"York, come on this is extreme. We seriously need to talk about everything that happened to you," I yelled through her door. York never replied.
I went to my room and grabbed my phone to call Alex. He needed to tell Rian I needed help to get York to open up. Her going out of her way to avoid me was getting out of hand. This was unhealthy for her. Ever since she got me and Alex together, I think Rian and I knew she was building her walls and hiding behind them like a turtle shell.
"Hey Abs," Alex answered.
"Alex, it's about York," I started, "She locked herself into her room and won't talk to me when she knows she needs to."
"Hey it'll be alright. I'll get with Rian and we'll rush over to help," Alex could tell I was trying not to fall apart at the seams.
My anxiety was getting really bad due to school. But it was also getting worse because I knew Alex was going on tour soon, leaving for a three months to play Warped Tour. Now with York avoiding me, I felt like I was being abandoned, like what happened when I six was happening all over again. That soon I'll only have my mom to count on anymore. And that scared the shit out of me.
Alex and Rian finally got to the apartment and since Rian had a spare key thanks to York needing his help from time to time to fix things while we were gone, he had a way in. Alex saw me on the couch crying with my arms wrapped around my knees and came to comfort me.
"Hey it's going to be alright," Alex whispered in my ear, "Just breathe, Abs. Breathe like me."
"I feel like I'm going to be left alone again," I sobbed as I leaned into him, "York's been avoiding me, you'll be going out on tour soon, and school is really hard for me."
"Hey, I might be going on tour, but I am not abandoning you, Abbey," Alex pulled me into his lap and held me to him, "I am going to come back from tour and we'll still be together and I will keep you happy. York is just going through a hard time and doesn't want to dump it on you. I'm sure that she's trying to keep you happy now that we're together."
"You don't know that, Alex," I cried into his shoulder.
"I might not know why she's doing this, but I know that I care a lot about and I think about you everyday. I know you are stronger than your anxiety and your fears," Alex kissed my hair, "Just ignore the feeling of dread when it starts to surface and fight it back."
"I love you Alex," I whispered into his ear.
"I love you too, Abbey," he replied. I pulled away from his shoulder and he kissed me quickly.
"I don't want to talk about it right now, Abs. Aren't you spending the evening with Alex," she asked.
"Not until I talk to you York," I replied.
"Abbey, you don't need to worry about me. I know how your anxiety can be," she protested, "Go and spend time with Alex. He'll only be in town for another week or so."
"God damn it York stop pushing me away," I yelled at her.
"Abbey go away," York screamed as she slammed the door in my face.
"York, come on this is extreme. We seriously need to talk about everything that happened to you," I yelled through her door. York never replied.
I went to my room and grabbed my phone to call Alex. He needed to tell Rian I needed help to get York to open up. Her going out of her way to avoid me was getting out of hand. This was unhealthy for her. Ever since she got me and Alex together, I think Rian and I knew she was building her walls and hiding behind them like a turtle shell.
"Hey Abs," Alex answered.
"Alex, it's about York," I started, "She locked herself into her room and won't talk to me when she knows she needs to."
"Hey it'll be alright. I'll get with Rian and we'll rush over to help," Alex could tell I was trying not to fall apart at the seams.
My anxiety was getting really bad due to school. But it was also getting worse because I knew Alex was going on tour soon, leaving for a three months to play Warped Tour. Now with York avoiding me, I felt like I was being abandoned, like what happened when I six was happening all over again. That soon I'll only have my mom to count on anymore. And that scared the shit out of me.
Alex and Rian finally got to the apartment and since Rian had a spare key thanks to York needing his help from time to time to fix things while we were gone, he had a way in. Alex saw me on the couch crying with my arms wrapped around my knees and came to comfort me.
"Hey it's going to be alright," Alex whispered in my ear, "Just breathe, Abs. Breathe like me."
"I feel like I'm going to be left alone again," I sobbed as I leaned into him, "York's been avoiding me, you'll be going out on tour soon, and school is really hard for me."
"Hey, I might be going on tour, but I am not abandoning you, Abbey," Alex pulled me into his lap and held me to him, "I am going to come back from tour and we'll still be together and I will keep you happy. York is just going through a hard time and doesn't want to dump it on you. I'm sure that she's trying to keep you happy now that we're together."
"You don't know that, Alex," I cried into his shoulder.
"I might not know why she's doing this, but I know that I care a lot about and I think about you everyday. I know you are stronger than your anxiety and your fears," Alex kissed my hair, "Just ignore the feeling of dread when it starts to surface and fight it back."
"I love you Alex," I whispered into his ear.
"I love you too, Abbey," he replied. I pulled away from his shoulder and he kissed me quickly.
