I wanna feel weightless
Chapter 7
*Zack's POV*
I did it, I had finally asked Lizzy out and she said yes, now we were making out, her lips didn't feel the same as at the pool but maybe its because she's awake now. Suddenly I was yanked away and Jack was yelling at me.
"Zack, what are you doing?" He yelled at me
"Making out with Liz, what does it look like!"
"That's not Lizzy, that's Miranda."
"He's right dork, I'm Miranda, not that ugly bitch you hang with."
As I looked closer I could tell she didn't look like Lizzy but how could I ever make that mistake, how could I ever think she was Lizzy? All of the sudden Alex is next to me while Jack is running out the front door. Next thing I know Rian is on one side of me with Alex on the other, leading me up the stairs.
"What's going on?" I managed to moan out
"We are taking you to bed, did somebody give you drugs or something?" I heard Alex ask
"Um, yeah, kind of, that kid in our physics class gave me some Advil for my headache."
"Zack, I don't think that was Advil." Rian chimed in.
Maybe he was right, how stupid was I to accept pills from someone I don't even really know. They got me upstairs and laid me down on the bed but I quickly got up and stumbled to the restroom. Great now I have puke all over my shirt.
"Where is Lizzy?" I questioned, I hadn't seen her since we got here, apparently.
"She ran out after she saw you and Miranda tonguing each other." Alex supplied
"Shit, does anyone know where she went?"
Alex was about to answer me when his phone rang.
"Yeah, okay, I'll let him know, thanks, see you when you get here, bye."
After he got off the phone he turned back to us and looked at me, "That was Jack, he said, not to worry Lizzy's at home, he says she's fine but that he needs to talk to you, Zack, when he gets here."
Shit! what could Jack need to talk about? He probably just wants to yell at me about Miranda. God, how could I be so stupid, I didn't actually ask Liz out and now I've ruined any chance I could've had with her.
*Jack's POV*
I pulled up to Alex's, it was 1:50 am and the party was still going. I looked around and found Rian talking to some girl.
"Sorry to interrupt but where is Zack?"
"He's upstairs in Alex's bedroom."
What was I going to do now? Do I confront him about Miranda or do I start off with what he did to Lizzy?
*Zack's POV*
Jack walked into the room and started asking Alex to leave, shit, how mad was he? I didn't want to get in a fight with Jack, I know I'll win and I don't want to do that to him, he's one of my best friends.
"Zack, What was that down there?" He wasn't quite shouting but he was pissed.
"I don't know, I just, I saw Lizzy, I mean I thought I saw Lizzy, I just walked back to where I left her and assumed she was still there and apparently it wasn't her."
"What the fuck dude, did you not realize her hair wasn't brownish red or that she was about 4 inches taller or that she was suddenly model skinny?"
"Hey!" I yelled, "Liz is beautiful just the way she is."
"I fucking know that Zack, but you know it doesn't help convince her that when you start making out with someone lie Miranda!"
"I know and I feel like shit because of it." Well that and all the alcohol I had just thrown up.
"Do you know what she did when she went home, Zack? Do you?"
"No, what did she-," and then it registered, "Oh my God, she didn't, how could I do this to her?" And there it goes, I'm crying again.
"Yeah Zack, she did, why didn't you tell any of us that she was doing that, you know, cutting herself."
"She, uh, I guess she didn't want y'all to know so I didn't tell anyone. I don't even think her mom knows, she doesn't trust that many people Jack. I think the only reason I know is because I saw the cuts the first day of freshman year. That's when I vowed to help her and not let her hurt herself or leave this earth. Oh God, Jack! what if she kills herself?"
"I took her blade from her and put her to bed but now she doesn't trust you either Zack, I feel really bad but dude, you fucked up big time." Jack muttered the last bit as he walked out of the room. Shit, he was right, how could I do this to her? How could I do this to her? I just kept repeating it over and over. I screwed up and now she'll never forgive me. I screwed up so bad she ran back home, she hates her home more than anything and as long as she can stay away she does, that's how I knew, I may never get her back, she hates me now.
I did it, I had finally asked Lizzy out and she said yes, now we were making out, her lips didn't feel the same as at the pool but maybe its because she's awake now. Suddenly I was yanked away and Jack was yelling at me.
"Zack, what are you doing?" He yelled at me
"Making out with Liz, what does it look like!"
"That's not Lizzy, that's Miranda."
"He's right dork, I'm Miranda, not that ugly bitch you hang with."
As I looked closer I could tell she didn't look like Lizzy but how could I ever make that mistake, how could I ever think she was Lizzy? All of the sudden Alex is next to me while Jack is running out the front door. Next thing I know Rian is on one side of me with Alex on the other, leading me up the stairs.
"What's going on?" I managed to moan out
"We are taking you to bed, did somebody give you drugs or something?" I heard Alex ask
"Um, yeah, kind of, that kid in our physics class gave me some Advil for my headache."
"Zack, I don't think that was Advil." Rian chimed in.
Maybe he was right, how stupid was I to accept pills from someone I don't even really know. They got me upstairs and laid me down on the bed but I quickly got up and stumbled to the restroom. Great now I have puke all over my shirt.
"Where is Lizzy?" I questioned, I hadn't seen her since we got here, apparently.
"She ran out after she saw you and Miranda tonguing each other." Alex supplied
"Shit, does anyone know where she went?"
Alex was about to answer me when his phone rang.
"Yeah, okay, I'll let him know, thanks, see you when you get here, bye."
After he got off the phone he turned back to us and looked at me, "That was Jack, he said, not to worry Lizzy's at home, he says she's fine but that he needs to talk to you, Zack, when he gets here."
Shit! what could Jack need to talk about? He probably just wants to yell at me about Miranda. God, how could I be so stupid, I didn't actually ask Liz out and now I've ruined any chance I could've had with her.
*Jack's POV*
I pulled up to Alex's, it was 1:50 am and the party was still going. I looked around and found Rian talking to some girl.
"Sorry to interrupt but where is Zack?"
"He's upstairs in Alex's bedroom."
What was I going to do now? Do I confront him about Miranda or do I start off with what he did to Lizzy?
*Zack's POV*
Jack walked into the room and started asking Alex to leave, shit, how mad was he? I didn't want to get in a fight with Jack, I know I'll win and I don't want to do that to him, he's one of my best friends.
"Zack, What was that down there?" He wasn't quite shouting but he was pissed.
"I don't know, I just, I saw Lizzy, I mean I thought I saw Lizzy, I just walked back to where I left her and assumed she was still there and apparently it wasn't her."
"What the fuck dude, did you not realize her hair wasn't brownish red or that she was about 4 inches taller or that she was suddenly model skinny?"
"Hey!" I yelled, "Liz is beautiful just the way she is."
"I fucking know that Zack, but you know it doesn't help convince her that when you start making out with someone lie Miranda!"
"I know and I feel like shit because of it." Well that and all the alcohol I had just thrown up.
"Do you know what she did when she went home, Zack? Do you?"
"No, what did she-," and then it registered, "Oh my God, she didn't, how could I do this to her?" And there it goes, I'm crying again.
"Yeah Zack, she did, why didn't you tell any of us that she was doing that, you know, cutting herself."
"She, uh, I guess she didn't want y'all to know so I didn't tell anyone. I don't even think her mom knows, she doesn't trust that many people Jack. I think the only reason I know is because I saw the cuts the first day of freshman year. That's when I vowed to help her and not let her hurt herself or leave this earth. Oh God, Jack! what if she kills herself?"
"I took her blade from her and put her to bed but now she doesn't trust you either Zack, I feel really bad but dude, you fucked up big time." Jack muttered the last bit as he walked out of the room. Shit, he was right, how could I do this to her? How could I do this to her? I just kept repeating it over and over. I screwed up and now she'll never forgive me. I screwed up so bad she ran back home, she hates her home more than anything and as long as she can stay away she does, that's how I knew, I may never get her back, she hates me now.
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