I'll See You In My Dreams
Chapter 4
Rian, Zack, and I have grown closer in the past week. I found out they all live down my street aswell as Rians girlfriend, Cassadee.
We all had a movie night after explaining to them I simply listen and they just laughed. They were also curious on my morning routien so I decided to have them over the morning before school to show them how I got ready.
I sighed when my electronic watch told me in the annoying voice that it's 6:30 and that was when the doorbell rang. I walked up and answered it, allowing them to enter and walk up the stairs.
"Have you ever fallen down the stairs?" Zack asks as we reached the top.
My heart sped up but I laughed. "Actually, yeah. But only when we first moved here." I lied through my teeth easily.
I felt along the walls and waltzed into my bedroom, allowing them in beside me.
"Well, I normally take a shower first but for you guys' sake, I took one last night." I said, running my fingers through my hair.
"As for clothes, my mom usually sets them out for me the night before." I explained while motioning to the corner of the room.
"Dude, that's a sick Green Day shirt." Rian exclaimed.
I laughed and grabbed my clothes to go change.
I walked out and they were surprised I didn't have anything on backwards.
"Jack! Can I do your hair?" Cassadee asks and I nodded.
I heard her feet slam on the ground like she were to jump in the air and ran into my bathroom
"Sit." She ordered and imedietely began roaming her fingers through my hair.
"What are you doing?" I ask after a billion tugs.
"I almost said you''ll see but that's kind of a problem." She said and I burst out laughing.
"Dude breath." Zack said as he picked me up off the ground. I also learned he was very strong.
"C'mere." She said and I sat back on the stool and she continued to run her fingers through my hair and oh boy here came the tugging.
"Done." She said after a long spray of liquid fire. Aka: Hairspray.
"Damn bro, if I was gay, I'd be all up on you." Zack said laughing and I blushed, like hardcore.
"You are aren't you, Jack." Rian giggled and I blushed even harder than I thought was possible.
"Yeah." I said shyly as I felt my hair and smiled.
"Mowhawk? Really, Cass?" I giggled and stood up.
She giggled and patted my back. "You just got a straight dude saying he'd fuck you. You look good. Oh, and we should get to school." She said and I nodded and felt around for a bottle of Axe.
I sprayed on some and when Cassadee squealed I turned around and sprayed some on her.
"I smell like a dude now!" She whined and Rian laughed.
"You're such a girl." Rian said and I guess kissed her I decided after hearing Zack 'Awwwwwwwwwww'.
"You riding with us?" Rian asked as we walked down the stairs.
"I guess."
They all hummed like I told them to when they nod and I smiled cause they remembered.
"Let me just tell my mom bye." I said and walked into the living room, successfully running into a wall I could have sworn was not there.
"Hey mom, I'm riding to school with Cassadee, Rian, and Zack. I love you."
"Love you too, sweetheart. Have fun and be safe." I smiled and walked to the door after I grabbed my backpack and cane where it always was.
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We walked through the school doors, cold air from the aircondioning hitting my body, I shakily held out my cane in front of me, seeing this is the first time i've used it during school.
I stopped by Rians locker so he could get our books, just minding my own business before I felt arms wrap around my shoulders and slam me up against the locker with a loud crack of bones against metal. My cane flew out of my arms and I heard it roll down the hall.
"Who the fuck?!" I asked, very confused, cause hello! I can't see!
"Well look what we have here. We've never had a blind dude in this school before." A guy said, changing directions on almost each word to make me confused on where he was.
"Jordan, leave him alone." Rian said pulling me into him. Jordan just scoffed.
"I'm not even kidding, Jordan. You're all talk. Just cause you're like 6"5, doesn't mean shit." I now heard Zack from behind me and then another scoff before footsteps that gradually got quieter.
"Um, who was that?" I asked very confused.
"Jordan Eckes. Don't worry about him, though." Rian explained as he picked up my cane and placed it in my hand for me as we headed to Mr. Gaskarths class.
I followed Rian and sat next to him, waiting for instructions on what to do.
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When class ended, I stayed behind to talk to Mr. Gaskarth. He noticed how shaken up I was and wanted to talk to me. I also may have needed help with algebra.
(Alex's POV)
After everybody left, I heard paper rustling and I looked up to see Jack running his hands over his notebooks, frowning when he couldn't find what he was searching for.
"What're you looking for?" I asked as I plugged in my iPod to the docking station and let Blink-182 flow through the speakers.
Jack smiled, "That's Blink!" He said excitedly. "Oh, and my algebra folder."
I laughed and opened my desk drawer and pulled out a purple folder with his name and algebra written on it also in braille. I handed it to him with a smile.
"Thank you." he said shyly.
"Not a problem." I smiled and pulled up a chair next to him.
"So what exactly do you need help with?" I asked when he opened up his folder and pointed.
"Ah, trig. Were you not paying attention to the lesson the first time?" I joked and he just gave me this pretty scary look.
"Sorry. Well let's get started." I said, clapping my hands together.
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Jack sighed in relief when I finally explained it in a way he could understand, and I printed out some notes in braille for him. When he packed up to leave I stopped him.
"Woah, hold up. You haven't told me what was wrong." I said and he sighed sitting back down.
"You'll judge me.."
"Jack, I'm your mentor also. I'm here to help you when you need it. I'm sure we have some stuff in common." I smiled even though he couldn't see me.
Jack just stared blankly and shifted nervously in his seat.
"I don't know why i'm doing this, Mr. G-.... Alex. I don't open up to anybody."
"Start from the begining I guess." I said, turning down my iPod which was playing The Cab.
"It's not much, really. I was of course, blind at 3. It was hard because I knew what it was like to see, but having it taken from you kinda sucks."
I hummed letting him know I nodded.
"Well after awhile it got hard. Anxiety took over me from walking down the street fearing somebody is going to sneak up on me or hurt me." He explained and I continued to hum after each break.
"Anxiety led to depression and that led to other things."
"You don't...?" I said slowly.
"No! I don't do that. Well kinda. I scratched my arms a lot, punched myself, and I used to actually throw myself down the stairs using the perfect excuse that I didn't see the steps."
A small tear ran down his cheek and I, being glad he couldn't see, softly kissed my hand and brought it to his cheek to wipe away his tears.
"I've tried to drown myself but could never bring myself to stay under. I'd shoot out of the water and puke myself into a 'coma' basically. It was about 2 years ago when I got pulled out of school... for several reasons. Teachers gave up on me, and I was bullied cause I came out...as..."
"As gay." I finished for him and he nodded.
"My mommy was really accepting but my dad wasn't. He wound up leaving cause he got tired of paying my medical bills, along with having a gay son. It didn't fly by him well. He was so upset he wouldn't have a son to throw the football with, or take fishing either. It just broke him."
I placed my hand on his and rubbed it gently with my thumb.
"Go on, Jack. It's okay. I'm here." I encoraged, fighting back tears of my own.
"I miss my dad, Alex. He was a great person, but this shows me how he really is. It hurts, Alex. So much. So my mom homeschooled me, taught me more braille, and she even learned more herself. But she got a really good job and we couldn't afford a stay at home tutor. So I decided to give public school another shot. So, that's why i'm here today." He finished, another tear falling down his cheek.
"Well, I can tell you right now that i've been through a good amount of what you have." I said, crossing my legs.
"Really?" Jack sniffled.
"Really. I struggled with my sexuality in high school until I came out my senior year, and really bad self harm for the majority of my high school experience. I know what you're going through." I said with a smile.
Jack smiled at me and bit his lip.
"Alex?" he calls out and I look up at him and hummed.
"Thanks." He said and got up to hug me. I felt his lips tickle my neck and I touched the spot when he pulled away.
"I'll see you later, Alex." He said, heading out to the door.
"Jack, watch out!" I shouted, but it was too late. Jacks face met with the door and cause him to fall back and break into a fit of laughter.
"There's a door there?" He asks jokingly and I laughed.
"Let me walk you to your car. I need to speak to your mother anyway." I smiled and held the door open for him and led him outside. Well by talking that is. He still won't let me lead him. That stubborn little shit.
We all had a movie night after explaining to them I simply listen and they just laughed. They were also curious on my morning routien so I decided to have them over the morning before school to show them how I got ready.
I sighed when my electronic watch told me in the annoying voice that it's 6:30 and that was when the doorbell rang. I walked up and answered it, allowing them to enter and walk up the stairs.
"Have you ever fallen down the stairs?" Zack asks as we reached the top.
My heart sped up but I laughed. "Actually, yeah. But only when we first moved here." I lied through my teeth easily.
I felt along the walls and waltzed into my bedroom, allowing them in beside me.
"Well, I normally take a shower first but for you guys' sake, I took one last night." I said, running my fingers through my hair.
"As for clothes, my mom usually sets them out for me the night before." I explained while motioning to the corner of the room.
"Dude, that's a sick Green Day shirt." Rian exclaimed.
I laughed and grabbed my clothes to go change.
I walked out and they were surprised I didn't have anything on backwards.
"Jack! Can I do your hair?" Cassadee asks and I nodded.
I heard her feet slam on the ground like she were to jump in the air and ran into my bathroom
"Sit." She ordered and imedietely began roaming her fingers through my hair.
"What are you doing?" I ask after a billion tugs.
"I almost said you''ll see but that's kind of a problem." She said and I burst out laughing.
"Dude breath." Zack said as he picked me up off the ground. I also learned he was very strong.
"C'mere." She said and I sat back on the stool and she continued to run her fingers through my hair and oh boy here came the tugging.
"Done." She said after a long spray of liquid fire. Aka: Hairspray.
"Damn bro, if I was gay, I'd be all up on you." Zack said laughing and I blushed, like hardcore.
"You are aren't you, Jack." Rian giggled and I blushed even harder than I thought was possible.
"Yeah." I said shyly as I felt my hair and smiled.
"Mowhawk? Really, Cass?" I giggled and stood up.
She giggled and patted my back. "You just got a straight dude saying he'd fuck you. You look good. Oh, and we should get to school." She said and I nodded and felt around for a bottle of Axe.
I sprayed on some and when Cassadee squealed I turned around and sprayed some on her.
"I smell like a dude now!" She whined and Rian laughed.
"You're such a girl." Rian said and I guess kissed her I decided after hearing Zack 'Awwwwwwwwwww'.
"You riding with us?" Rian asked as we walked down the stairs.
"I guess."
They all hummed like I told them to when they nod and I smiled cause they remembered.
"Let me just tell my mom bye." I said and walked into the living room, successfully running into a wall I could have sworn was not there.
"Hey mom, I'm riding to school with Cassadee, Rian, and Zack. I love you."
"Love you too, sweetheart. Have fun and be safe." I smiled and walked to the door after I grabbed my backpack and cane where it always was.
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We walked through the school doors, cold air from the aircondioning hitting my body, I shakily held out my cane in front of me, seeing this is the first time i've used it during school.
I stopped by Rians locker so he could get our books, just minding my own business before I felt arms wrap around my shoulders and slam me up against the locker with a loud crack of bones against metal. My cane flew out of my arms and I heard it roll down the hall.
"Who the fuck?!" I asked, very confused, cause hello! I can't see!
"Well look what we have here. We've never had a blind dude in this school before." A guy said, changing directions on almost each word to make me confused on where he was.
"Jordan, leave him alone." Rian said pulling me into him. Jordan just scoffed.
"I'm not even kidding, Jordan. You're all talk. Just cause you're like 6"5, doesn't mean shit." I now heard Zack from behind me and then another scoff before footsteps that gradually got quieter.
"Um, who was that?" I asked very confused.
"Jordan Eckes. Don't worry about him, though." Rian explained as he picked up my cane and placed it in my hand for me as we headed to Mr. Gaskarths class.
I followed Rian and sat next to him, waiting for instructions on what to do.
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When class ended, I stayed behind to talk to Mr. Gaskarth. He noticed how shaken up I was and wanted to talk to me. I also may have needed help with algebra.
(Alex's POV)
After everybody left, I heard paper rustling and I looked up to see Jack running his hands over his notebooks, frowning when he couldn't find what he was searching for.
"What're you looking for?" I asked as I plugged in my iPod to the docking station and let Blink-182 flow through the speakers.
Jack smiled, "That's Blink!" He said excitedly. "Oh, and my algebra folder."
I laughed and opened my desk drawer and pulled out a purple folder with his name and algebra written on it also in braille. I handed it to him with a smile.
"Thank you." he said shyly.
"Not a problem." I smiled and pulled up a chair next to him.
"So what exactly do you need help with?" I asked when he opened up his folder and pointed.
"Ah, trig. Were you not paying attention to the lesson the first time?" I joked and he just gave me this pretty scary look.
"Sorry. Well let's get started." I said, clapping my hands together.
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Jack sighed in relief when I finally explained it in a way he could understand, and I printed out some notes in braille for him. When he packed up to leave I stopped him.
"Woah, hold up. You haven't told me what was wrong." I said and he sighed sitting back down.
"You'll judge me.."
"Jack, I'm your mentor also. I'm here to help you when you need it. I'm sure we have some stuff in common." I smiled even though he couldn't see me.
Jack just stared blankly and shifted nervously in his seat.
"I don't know why i'm doing this, Mr. G-.... Alex. I don't open up to anybody."
"Start from the begining I guess." I said, turning down my iPod which was playing The Cab.
"It's not much, really. I was of course, blind at 3. It was hard because I knew what it was like to see, but having it taken from you kinda sucks."
I hummed letting him know I nodded.
"Well after awhile it got hard. Anxiety took over me from walking down the street fearing somebody is going to sneak up on me or hurt me." He explained and I continued to hum after each break.
"Anxiety led to depression and that led to other things."
"You don't...?" I said slowly.
"No! I don't do that. Well kinda. I scratched my arms a lot, punched myself, and I used to actually throw myself down the stairs using the perfect excuse that I didn't see the steps."
A small tear ran down his cheek and I, being glad he couldn't see, softly kissed my hand and brought it to his cheek to wipe away his tears.
"I've tried to drown myself but could never bring myself to stay under. I'd shoot out of the water and puke myself into a 'coma' basically. It was about 2 years ago when I got pulled out of school... for several reasons. Teachers gave up on me, and I was bullied cause I came out...as..."
"As gay." I finished for him and he nodded.
"My mommy was really accepting but my dad wasn't. He wound up leaving cause he got tired of paying my medical bills, along with having a gay son. It didn't fly by him well. He was so upset he wouldn't have a son to throw the football with, or take fishing either. It just broke him."
I placed my hand on his and rubbed it gently with my thumb.
"Go on, Jack. It's okay. I'm here." I encoraged, fighting back tears of my own.
"I miss my dad, Alex. He was a great person, but this shows me how he really is. It hurts, Alex. So much. So my mom homeschooled me, taught me more braille, and she even learned more herself. But she got a really good job and we couldn't afford a stay at home tutor. So I decided to give public school another shot. So, that's why i'm here today." He finished, another tear falling down his cheek.
"Well, I can tell you right now that i've been through a good amount of what you have." I said, crossing my legs.
"Really?" Jack sniffled.
"Really. I struggled with my sexuality in high school until I came out my senior year, and really bad self harm for the majority of my high school experience. I know what you're going through." I said with a smile.
Jack smiled at me and bit his lip.
"Alex?" he calls out and I look up at him and hummed.
"Thanks." He said and got up to hug me. I felt his lips tickle my neck and I touched the spot when he pulled away.
"I'll see you later, Alex." He said, heading out to the door.
"Jack, watch out!" I shouted, but it was too late. Jacks face met with the door and cause him to fall back and break into a fit of laughter.
"There's a door there?" He asks jokingly and I laughed.
"Let me walk you to your car. I need to speak to your mother anyway." I smiled and held the door open for him and led him outside. Well by talking that is. He still won't let me lead him. That stubborn little shit.
Notes
OKAY SO I KNOW I SAID I WAS TYPING IT UP RIGHT AWAY BUT I LIED. RIGHT WHEN I STARTED TYPING IT, MY FRIENDS CAME OVER AND KIDNAPPED ME AND I STAYED OVER AT THEIR HOUSE. I AM SO SORRY.LEAVE COMMENTS PLEASE AND THANK YOU.
I really enjoy this story! And I really enjoyed the chapter you did where it was from Rian's point of view! Can't wait for the next update!
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