I didn't have to open my eyes to know where I was and where I wasn't. I wasn't in heaven... I was in hell. I opened one eye allowing it time to get used to the light. The other followed. I looked around the room, I was alone. I tried to sit up but my stomach hurt so I stayed put. I took my left hand and went to wipe my eyes when I noticed the bandage on my arm. "Oh right..." I said poking at the bandage.

I winced. These cuts hurt so much worse than any of my others. I laid my left arm over my eyes. I noticed a beeping noise and I looked over to see that I'm hooked up to a heart monitor. "Oh good I still have a heart." I said. I rolled my eyes and turned my body to the right side and looked out the window of my room, to the hallway of the hospital.

I saw a face in the window, that's when the reality of what I did set in. It was my Aunt. "Fuck." I whispered. She looked in and noticed me looking, Her facial expression changed and I decided the smooth Paige thing to do would be to wave...so I waved. She ran in and I sat up even though it hurt. "What were you thinking child?! You gave me a heart attack Paige Elizabeth!" She said hands on her hips.

I held out my arms for a hug, figuring that would shut her up. She walked over and pulled me into a hug. Then Ali walked in. "I should kill you! You know that?!" She said walking over to me. My sunt pulled away from me. "I know." Was all I said. She nodded and left the room with my aunt. I laid there for a few until Parker walked in.

"Hey, What are you doing here?" I asked. "Seriously?! My best friend almost dies and I'm not gonna show up, Paige... You scared the shit out of me." He walked over to the side of the bed. I leaned up on my knees and wrapped my arms around his neck. "I didn't mean to hurt anyone but myself... I'm sorry." I said into his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around my waist.

"I know." I kissed his cheek and he kissed mine. I pulled away sitting criss cross apple sauce on the bed. I patted the spot across from me. "Sit. I'm bored, let's play the hand slapping game you know." I said, he laughed. "Not with your arm like that, I'll play chop sticks with you." He said sitting across from me. "I guess that's ok."

We played that for a while then My aunt and cousin came in saying they would come back tomorrow. I had to stay over night tonight. "Are you sure you don't want me to stay?" Parker asked. "No, not only do you have school, you have practice. Now go. I'll see you sometime alright?" I said pushing him. He gave me a hug and left.

I sat on the bed and looked outside. Finally alone to deal with myself. I pulled my knees up to my chest and crossed my arms over my knees laying my head on my arms. I heard a knock at the door. "Hey..." I turned my head and there stood Alex. I shuffled on the bed and threw my legs over the side. "Hi..." I said back looking at the ground. He walked in.

"Alright you have to tell me what the fuck happened." He begged, I noticed in his voice he had tears threatening to spill. I looked up at him already letting tears fall from my face. "I-I can't...I mean It's not mine to tell Alex. I'm sorry I called you I should have-" He ran over, sitting down next to me, pulling my hands into his. "No Paige. I'm glad you called... I wish you did sooner but I got there in time and that's all that matters."

He cupped the side of my face and wiped away a tear with his thumb. I smiled. "Why are you smiling?" He asked a little confused. "I'm just happy with who I surround myself with..." I said and wiped away my own tears with my right hand. I scooted back up against the head of the bed and patted the spot next to me. He laughed and did as I asked. I laid into his side and he ran his hand through my hair while my right hand was tangled with his left.

I was content just sitting here until Alex stirred. "What?" I asked. "I'm a little hungry... aren't you?" He asked. "Yeah I guess." I said. He kissed the top of my head and pulled away from me. "what do you want, I'll buy it." "I don't care. Whatever's fine." I said. "Alright I'll be back in a minute." He said kissing my head again before leaving. I smiled and watched him leave.

I suddenly remembered the bag Ali brought me earlier. I stood up my leg a little wobbly. I tried to take a step and I fell, or almost fell. Someone caught me. I looked up to see who caught me. You know just my luck it was Jack. We just stared at each others eyes. I loved him dark brown eyes. He broke my trance. "Hey..." He said. I shook my head, and tried to stand up again. He helped me stand correctly and I grabbed the bag and walked over to the chair in the corner of the room.

He sat on the edge of the bed. I looked through the bag pulling out some shorts and a shirt. I untied the gown and slipped it off not caring if Jack saw. I clipped my bra and pulled on my shirt. I stood up and pulled on some underwear and the shorts. I pulled my hair into a messy bun. I pulled out my glasses. I put them on and grabbed my phone.I looked over at Jack and he had a smile on his face. I walked back over to the bed. I sat down next to Jack.

"I'm so sorry. I mean this is all my fault. If I wasn't such a dick and made you feel bad last night at Donovan's. I just want you to know how sorry I am. I wish I had introduce you to the guys as my girlfriend. I wish I had taken you out to dinner and the movies or anywhere you wanted to go. I miss you. I miss kissing you. I miss the way your skin feels next to mine and I miss everything about you. I'm just so sorry..." I pulled my legs up to my chest.

"Please say something Paige. I'm going crazy over here."He ran his hand through his hair and his hands were trembling. "I mean last night... I just after you left, I did to. I tried to find you but I couldn't I wanted to tell you, but I couldn't find you. I started to panic so I went to your house I went to Alex's but then he got a call and just left." He looked at me tears in his eyes.

"That call was from you. I hurt you and it kills me to know I did. Your all I think about. I want you to be mine not in the I want you all to myself kind of way but I just want everyone to know how much I love you and don't want anyone to ever question my love for you. I love you Paige, like with all my heart. When I wake up your the first thing that pops into my brain and when I fall asleep your the last thing I think about, until I start dreams cause even then your all I dream about..."

I was crying. "Jack I don't know what you want me to say..." He wiped him face and nose with his hand. "I know you have no idea what to say now...you've only been telling me what you wanted...I just didn't listen." I turned my body and faced him. I pulled his face into my hands. "Jack..." I bit my lip.

"I wanna pull you into a kiss so bad but I wanna push you away at the same time... If you would have said that before. There's nothing in the present for us but the future it may be possible-" He was crying. "Paige. I can't see you with my best friend...I don't wanna loose both of you. I love you. Why doesn't that mean anything?" He cried.

I pulled him into a hug. I whispered into his ear. "I love you Jack... I just can't right now... I just don't know anymore." "I'll wait then..." Was all he said before he stood up and walked over to the door way. He bumped in to Alex. "Hey man." Alex said with a smile on his face holding a McDonalds bag. Jack didn't say anything he just left.

"Well that was weird." Alex said walking over to me. "Are you ok?" He asked. I turned my head and wiped my face. "Yeah I'm fine." I said giving Alex a smile. He smiled back. "you look a lot better in normal clothes." "Oh thanks." I said rolling my eyes. "Here." He said handing me a burger and fries. I took it.

"Thank you... not just for this but everything..." He bumped me with his shoulder. "Your welcome. Also nice shirt." I looked down to see I was wearing a Blink shirt... Jack's Blink shirt... I just ate some fries.

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