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Flash back: Lake April 21st
I started my car. I had on the dress I bought specifically for this. I had my hair just natural, I put car into drive and backed out of my drive way. I lived in this one house on the boarder of what makes kids go to Delaney High school. I'm so glad I'm on this side. I get to keep going to school with my best friend. I was heading over to his house. I spent most of my night over here lately. My foster parents didn't like me very much. I was just trying to be dependent on me. I got a job and earned enough for a car. So Thats when they decided they weren't gonna treat me like a kid anymore...Whatever that means.
My foster father beat me. Only where people couldn't see it. My stomach, My legs, My head. It hurt but I accept it as punishment for my mom. She died a little over two years ago. I missed her so much but the old mom, before my dad left. She was happy. The anxiety of my dad leaving made her loose what was supposed to be the newest addition to our little family. His name was gonna be Braden. We didn't know if it was a boy but I had a feeling. When he left because his mistress got pregnant, my mother went crazy. Then she lost the baby and that sent her to drinking. She only ever hit me once. Two years after that, A few days after my 15 birthday, she committed suicide. I was devastated. My father didn't want me, He said all I ever was was a mistake. They got pregnant with me when they were kids.
Tenn pregnancy baby...Yay! That's when I started to drink to forget about the pain I felt of being a reject. I also started dating this guy Beau. He told me he loved me and I believed him. He hit me and used to carve words into my skin. He got me addicted to drugs. I had always known Beau. He was the mysterious boy next door. He used to come over and hang out with me. We would watch movies and play video games. Then one day we we're just hanging out when he looked at me and walked over and turned off the T.V.
He turned on my radio. I was around 15. He was 3 years older. He walked across the room and pushed me on the bed. He started to kiss me. I didn't refuse. It got heated when he removed my Shirt followed by my bra, shorts and panties. We ended up doing it in my room. The next morning I woke up and he was gone and my mother was dead. I didn't know what to do so I went over to his house and he used my weakness as an advantage and used me. He did whatever he wanted to me because I didn't feel like I was worth anything, anyways. He trained my brain to make me believe with out his love I would never feel love.
I shook my head wiping the tears out of my eyes. I was shaking the memories of my parents, foster parents and Beau out of my brain. I pulled up to Zack's house. I got out and checked my dress. I looked in the back seat through the window and checked on our food. Zack likes chinese so for his 16th birthday I was going to take him to eat chinese at the lake. It all looked good. I closed my door and walked up to his front door. I knocked and his mom answered. "Oh Paige what a nice surprise. And don't you look fancy." "Thank you. Is Zack here?" I asked. She turned around letting me walk in. She closed the door. "Zack! Paige is here...And put on a shirt boy!" "Alright mom!" He yelled. It made me laugh. He walked out of his room wearing some boxers and a tank top.
"Hey Paige- Wow...you look amazing!" I blushed. "Thanks...did you remember I was taking you out today?" He smacked his head. "Right give me a minute!" He said and ran into his room. I laughed and shook my head. I leaned against the wall and waited. "Ready." He said walking down the steps wearing a black button up and some jeans. "cool." I said and walked over and opened the door for him."Why thank you mam." "Your welcome." I said and closed the door behind me. I ran ahead of him and opened the door for him too. "Alright don't turn around." "Why?" He went to turn around. "No! It's a surprise..." I said and he stayed facing forward. "Alright..." I walked over to my side and climbed in.
I turned on the radio. Green Day filled my car, Basket Case. "Sometimes I give myself the creeps. Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. It all keeps adding up. I think I'm cracking up. Am I just paranoid? Uh, yuh, yuh, ya!" We both sang to each other. We were laughing and cutting up. "so what have you gotten for your birthday?" I asked. "Oh you know..." He said all awkwardly. "No I don't...enlighten me." I said while nudging him with my arm. "Paige...no one remembered..." He was looking at his hands. "Zack are you kidding me?" "No...I wish I was but no one ever remembers so I'm used to it..." He stared out the window.
Zachary Steven Merrick!" I said. I pulled the car over and turned in my seat. He was shocked. "My full name?" He asked. "Yes! You know very well that every birthday I have been able to talk I told you Happy birthday...I also made them the best birthdays..." I told him. "I know but I thought you weren't talking about you...Your my best friend and has always made my birthday the best day ever." I said. I smiled. "Good! April 21st is a very important day. And this one will be the best!" I started to go in my car again. "Even better then last year?" He asked. "How do you even remember last year?" I asked him. "I don't know...I guess I just remember pieces..." "yeah cause you were insanely drunk-" "So were you!" We both started to laugh.
I finally pulled up to the lake. "Why are we here?" Zack asked as we got out of the car. "Cause you said you always wished your birthday would be done at the beach...so I got the next best thing..." I opened the back door and pulled out the togo box along with a blanket. I took Zack's hand and we ran down towards the Water. We got a spot about 12 feet away. I laid the blanket out and pulled out our food. "Here you are sir." I said placing some stuff in front of him."Thanks Paige..." He said. He still sounded a little disappointed. I took my hand and lifted his chin. "Hey...I promise I will always be here to wish you a happy birthday..." I smiled. He smiled back. I took out my food and ate. We talked about finishing school. I was a year ahead of Zack age and grade wise.
"Are you gonna go off to college?" He asked stuffing his face with shrimp. "I don't think so...I wanna be able to see you graduate." I said and pushed hi shoulder. "So your gonna stay here?!" He asked. "As long as your here I'm here." He smiled. "Your my favorite person in the world you know that?" "And your mine Zachary Steven Merrick..." I looked at him he rolled his eyes. "Alright...Paige Elizabeth Peralta..." "Wow calm down...I like your name not mine." "I love your name." "I love yours."
We finished talking and I laid down. Zack laid next to me and I put my head on his shoulder.I was looking at the stars above when one looked like a pic and that reminded me. I suddenly sat up. Zack looked at me funny. I got up and started to run towards my car. "I'll be right back!" I yelled. I popped my trunk and grabbed the beautiful Dark blue Gibson Bass guitar. Electric. I held it behind my back. "why'd you run off?" "I had a surprise..." I said staring down at him. "You didn't have to-" "Zack. Shut yur mouth! Your my best friend and I will buy you things on your birthday if I want to!" I said. He looked at me. "Close your eyes." He did as I asked and I sat in front of him and Gently laid the bass in his lap. I leaned close to his ear and whispered. "Open your eyes..." I pulled away and he opened them.
He stared at it for a minute before looking up at me. "Paige...This is the best present I've ever gotten." He pulled me into a hug. "Your welcome...You deserve it." He pulled away to look at me. "For what?" "Putting up with me and all my shit...It kinda got thrown at you..." I said while scratching the back of my neck. He took my hand. "Paige...I wouldn't have it any other way..." He and I were so close. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I closed my eyes. He lifted his other hand and cupped my right cheek. I opened them back up and he looked into my eyes and I looked into his. "Zack-" "Shh" Was all he said before our lips met. He was starting to pull away when I pulled him closer. I was kissing him. His tongue traced my bottom lip and I opened my mouth.
We sat like that for a few. I pulled away and stood up. I kicked off my shoes followed by my socks. "what are you-" I put my finger to my lips and looked at him. "shh." I said and unzipped my dress. Zack just looked at me while I slipped out of it standing in my underwear and bra. I turned around and unclipped my bra. I covered them and turned back around. I wiggled my eye brows at him and pulled down my underwear. I then took off towards the water. I got in and walked till it was about chest level. "Are you coming?" I asked. "What if-" "Zaaaack...I'm naked come protect meeee..." I yelled. I heard him sigh and stand up. He took off his shirt and follwed by his pants then his boxers. He walked down and got in. He made it out to me and I swam up to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I pushed my lips against his and he kissed back.
I had my hands tangled into his hair and my legs wrapped around his body. I pulled away and bit his lip. I kissed down his jaw and onto his neck. "P-Paige?" "Hmm?" I said against his neck. "I've never..umm..." I looked back up at him. "Do you want to?" I asked. He looked at me. He nodded. I kissed his lips again. I got off and took his hand and we walked out of the water. I ran to my car and opened the back door. I climbed in first. I reached over the seats and into my glove box. I pulled out a condom. I sat back. Zack was standing out side of the car. I leaned out and pulled him in. I clicked the light off. I laid back against the seats. He started to kiss my lips again. He trailed kisses down my jaw line to my neck. I pulled his head away. "Are you sure...If I take this I can't give it back?" I asked him. "I'm sure."
I pulled him back down to my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He pushed me back down and one hand in between my breasts held me down he kissed my neck and found my weak spot. My breathing started to hitch and it was getting harder to breathe. I let out a moan as he stopped sucking on what I knew was now a hicky. I took my hands and ran them down his chest. I swung my arm over and grabbed the condom. I waved it in front of Zack's face. He took my hint and took it from me. He kissed me while he put it on. I moved my hips to help him and told him. "Last chance." "No way." This made me laugh. He started to push and I took initiative and wrapped my legs around his body giving him easier access. He was so focused. I pulled his face and made him look at me for a second then I crashed our lips together.
He was starting to get the hang of things when I decided to change it up. I pushed him over and made him sit. I crawled on top of him and lined myself up. I did all the work while I kissed his Beautiful lips. I was pulling his hair and biting his lip. I knew this felling. I leaned my head on his chest. I let out a loud moan. It happened to be his name. "Zaack..." I was done. "He was right after me. We sat like that for a few catching our breath. I laid my back on the seats with my legs across his lap. I sat up and kissed his lips. I crawled over him and grabbed my dress and slid it on. "Paige Peralta...Well well well..." I jumped and turned around. "Shit you scared me." "Is this where you take all your clients? Or are you off the clock messing around?" My heart dropped. "Keith...It's not like that and I'm not some sort of prostitute!" I yelled at him. "Sure you aren't. Your just a little freak with Mommy and Daddy issues...did I mention I know what you foster father does to you?" He laughed a little and turned around.
I suddenly didn't feel good. I grabbed our trash and the blanket along with Zack's clothes and his bass. I put them in the back seat and closed the door. Zack walked over pulling the clothes out of my hand and kissing my head. "This was the best birthday ever..." "As promised..." I said. I turned and got in my car. I started it and Zack got in fully clothed. "Are you alright?" He asked. "Yeah...just tired..." I lied. "Alright..." He didn't seem convinced. I smiled. The rst of the car ride was silent. We pulled up to his house. "Thanks again Paige...this really has been the best birthday." He leaned over and kissed my cheek. I smiled. He grabbed his bass and went to get out. "Will I see you tomorrow?" "No I gotta pack...remember new foster family tomorrow?" He nodded. "I'll see you later then?" I nodded. "Your amazing Paige..." Was the last thing I heard before he walked up to his front door.
I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. Then the water works started. I began to cry on my way to the hell I called home. Keith thinks I'm a slut. What if he tells the school? What if he makes fun of me? At least he didn't know it was Zack... I wouldn't wanna bring him down too.
My foster father beat me. Only where people couldn't see it. My stomach, My legs, My head. It hurt but I accept it as punishment for my mom. She died a little over two years ago. I missed her so much but the old mom, before my dad left. She was happy. The anxiety of my dad leaving made her loose what was supposed to be the newest addition to our little family. His name was gonna be Braden. We didn't know if it was a boy but I had a feeling. When he left because his mistress got pregnant, my mother went crazy. Then she lost the baby and that sent her to drinking. She only ever hit me once. Two years after that, A few days after my 15 birthday, she committed suicide. I was devastated. My father didn't want me, He said all I ever was was a mistake. They got pregnant with me when they were kids.
Tenn pregnancy baby...Yay! That's when I started to drink to forget about the pain I felt of being a reject. I also started dating this guy Beau. He told me he loved me and I believed him. He hit me and used to carve words into my skin. He got me addicted to drugs. I had always known Beau. He was the mysterious boy next door. He used to come over and hang out with me. We would watch movies and play video games. Then one day we we're just hanging out when he looked at me and walked over and turned off the T.V.
He turned on my radio. I was around 15. He was 3 years older. He walked across the room and pushed me on the bed. He started to kiss me. I didn't refuse. It got heated when he removed my Shirt followed by my bra, shorts and panties. We ended up doing it in my room. The next morning I woke up and he was gone and my mother was dead. I didn't know what to do so I went over to his house and he used my weakness as an advantage and used me. He did whatever he wanted to me because I didn't feel like I was worth anything, anyways. He trained my brain to make me believe with out his love I would never feel love.
I shook my head wiping the tears out of my eyes. I was shaking the memories of my parents, foster parents and Beau out of my brain. I pulled up to Zack's house. I got out and checked my dress. I looked in the back seat through the window and checked on our food. Zack likes chinese so for his 16th birthday I was going to take him to eat chinese at the lake. It all looked good. I closed my door and walked up to his front door. I knocked and his mom answered. "Oh Paige what a nice surprise. And don't you look fancy." "Thank you. Is Zack here?" I asked. She turned around letting me walk in. She closed the door. "Zack! Paige is here...And put on a shirt boy!" "Alright mom!" He yelled. It made me laugh. He walked out of his room wearing some boxers and a tank top.
"Hey Paige- Wow...you look amazing!" I blushed. "Thanks...did you remember I was taking you out today?" He smacked his head. "Right give me a minute!" He said and ran into his room. I laughed and shook my head. I leaned against the wall and waited. "Ready." He said walking down the steps wearing a black button up and some jeans. "cool." I said and walked over and opened the door for him."Why thank you mam." "Your welcome." I said and closed the door behind me. I ran ahead of him and opened the door for him too. "Alright don't turn around." "Why?" He went to turn around. "No! It's a surprise..." I said and he stayed facing forward. "Alright..." I walked over to my side and climbed in.
I turned on the radio. Green Day filled my car, Basket Case. "Sometimes I give myself the creeps. Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. It all keeps adding up. I think I'm cracking up. Am I just paranoid? Uh, yuh, yuh, ya!" We both sang to each other. We were laughing and cutting up. "so what have you gotten for your birthday?" I asked. "Oh you know..." He said all awkwardly. "No I don't...enlighten me." I said while nudging him with my arm. "Paige...no one remembered..." He was looking at his hands. "Zack are you kidding me?" "No...I wish I was but no one ever remembers so I'm used to it..." He stared out the window.
Zachary Steven Merrick!" I said. I pulled the car over and turned in my seat. He was shocked. "My full name?" He asked. "Yes! You know very well that every birthday I have been able to talk I told you Happy birthday...I also made them the best birthdays..." I told him. "I know but I thought you weren't talking about you...Your my best friend and has always made my birthday the best day ever." I said. I smiled. "Good! April 21st is a very important day. And this one will be the best!" I started to go in my car again. "Even better then last year?" He asked. "How do you even remember last year?" I asked him. "I don't know...I guess I just remember pieces..." "yeah cause you were insanely drunk-" "So were you!" We both started to laugh.
I finally pulled up to the lake. "Why are we here?" Zack asked as we got out of the car. "Cause you said you always wished your birthday would be done at the beach...so I got the next best thing..." I opened the back door and pulled out the togo box along with a blanket. I took Zack's hand and we ran down towards the Water. We got a spot about 12 feet away. I laid the blanket out and pulled out our food. "Here you are sir." I said placing some stuff in front of him."Thanks Paige..." He said. He still sounded a little disappointed. I took my hand and lifted his chin. "Hey...I promise I will always be here to wish you a happy birthday..." I smiled. He smiled back. I took out my food and ate. We talked about finishing school. I was a year ahead of Zack age and grade wise.
"Are you gonna go off to college?" He asked stuffing his face with shrimp. "I don't think so...I wanna be able to see you graduate." I said and pushed hi shoulder. "So your gonna stay here?!" He asked. "As long as your here I'm here." He smiled. "Your my favorite person in the world you know that?" "And your mine Zachary Steven Merrick..." I looked at him he rolled his eyes. "Alright...Paige Elizabeth Peralta..." "Wow calm down...I like your name not mine." "I love your name." "I love yours."
We finished talking and I laid down. Zack laid next to me and I put my head on his shoulder.I was looking at the stars above when one looked like a pic and that reminded me. I suddenly sat up. Zack looked at me funny. I got up and started to run towards my car. "I'll be right back!" I yelled. I popped my trunk and grabbed the beautiful Dark blue Gibson Bass guitar. Electric. I held it behind my back. "why'd you run off?" "I had a surprise..." I said staring down at him. "You didn't have to-" "Zack. Shut yur mouth! Your my best friend and I will buy you things on your birthday if I want to!" I said. He looked at me. "Close your eyes." He did as I asked and I sat in front of him and Gently laid the bass in his lap. I leaned close to his ear and whispered. "Open your eyes..." I pulled away and he opened them.
He stared at it for a minute before looking up at me. "Paige...This is the best present I've ever gotten." He pulled me into a hug. "Your welcome...You deserve it." He pulled away to look at me. "For what?" "Putting up with me and all my shit...It kinda got thrown at you..." I said while scratching the back of my neck. He took my hand. "Paige...I wouldn't have it any other way..." He and I were so close. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I closed my eyes. He lifted his other hand and cupped my right cheek. I opened them back up and he looked into my eyes and I looked into his. "Zack-" "Shh" Was all he said before our lips met. He was starting to pull away when I pulled him closer. I was kissing him. His tongue traced my bottom lip and I opened my mouth.
We sat like that for a few. I pulled away and stood up. I kicked off my shoes followed by my socks. "what are you-" I put my finger to my lips and looked at him. "shh." I said and unzipped my dress. Zack just looked at me while I slipped out of it standing in my underwear and bra. I turned around and unclipped my bra. I covered them and turned back around. I wiggled my eye brows at him and pulled down my underwear. I then took off towards the water. I got in and walked till it was about chest level. "Are you coming?" I asked. "What if-" "Zaaaack...I'm naked come protect meeee..." I yelled. I heard him sigh and stand up. He took off his shirt and follwed by his pants then his boxers. He walked down and got in. He made it out to me and I swam up to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck. I pushed my lips against his and he kissed back.
I had my hands tangled into his hair and my legs wrapped around his body. I pulled away and bit his lip. I kissed down his jaw and onto his neck. "P-Paige?" "Hmm?" I said against his neck. "I've never..umm..." I looked back up at him. "Do you want to?" I asked. He looked at me. He nodded. I kissed his lips again. I got off and took his hand and we walked out of the water. I ran to my car and opened the back door. I climbed in first. I reached over the seats and into my glove box. I pulled out a condom. I sat back. Zack was standing out side of the car. I leaned out and pulled him in. I clicked the light off. I laid back against the seats. He started to kiss my lips again. He trailed kisses down my jaw line to my neck. I pulled his head away. "Are you sure...If I take this I can't give it back?" I asked him. "I'm sure."
I pulled him back down to my lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He pushed me back down and one hand in between my breasts held me down he kissed my neck and found my weak spot. My breathing started to hitch and it was getting harder to breathe. I let out a moan as he stopped sucking on what I knew was now a hicky. I took my hands and ran them down his chest. I swung my arm over and grabbed the condom. I waved it in front of Zack's face. He took my hint and took it from me. He kissed me while he put it on. I moved my hips to help him and told him. "Last chance." "No way." This made me laugh. He started to push and I took initiative and wrapped my legs around his body giving him easier access. He was so focused. I pulled his face and made him look at me for a second then I crashed our lips together.
He was starting to get the hang of things when I decided to change it up. I pushed him over and made him sit. I crawled on top of him and lined myself up. I did all the work while I kissed his Beautiful lips. I was pulling his hair and biting his lip. I knew this felling. I leaned my head on his chest. I let out a loud moan. It happened to be his name. "Zaack..." I was done. "He was right after me. We sat like that for a few catching our breath. I laid my back on the seats with my legs across his lap. I sat up and kissed his lips. I crawled over him and grabbed my dress and slid it on. "Paige Peralta...Well well well..." I jumped and turned around. "Shit you scared me." "Is this where you take all your clients? Or are you off the clock messing around?" My heart dropped. "Keith...It's not like that and I'm not some sort of prostitute!" I yelled at him. "Sure you aren't. Your just a little freak with Mommy and Daddy issues...did I mention I know what you foster father does to you?" He laughed a little and turned around.
I suddenly didn't feel good. I grabbed our trash and the blanket along with Zack's clothes and his bass. I put them in the back seat and closed the door. Zack walked over pulling the clothes out of my hand and kissing my head. "This was the best birthday ever..." "As promised..." I said. I turned and got in my car. I started it and Zack got in fully clothed. "Are you alright?" He asked. "Yeah...just tired..." I lied. "Alright..." He didn't seem convinced. I smiled. The rst of the car ride was silent. We pulled up to his house. "Thanks again Paige...this really has been the best birthday." He leaned over and kissed my cheek. I smiled. He grabbed his bass and went to get out. "Will I see you tomorrow?" "No I gotta pack...remember new foster family tomorrow?" He nodded. "I'll see you later then?" I nodded. "Your amazing Paige..." Was the last thing I heard before he walked up to his front door.
I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding. Then the water works started. I began to cry on my way to the hell I called home. Keith thinks I'm a slut. What if he tells the school? What if he makes fun of me? At least he didn't know it was Zack... I wouldn't wanna bring him down too.
Notes
Comment please! I wanna know more of what you think! Thanks for reading. Will be a Zack POV coming up...don't know when but soon. Loves! :POutfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=93596958
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