Dear Veronica Count Me In

I was by the windowsill, waiting anxiously for Abby and the guys to come pick me up any time now.
It was past 6, and the magnificent night sky was entirely black, like a blanket of darkness with numerous stars that scattered out. That I eventually traced my favourite constellations

Oh no
Stars.

“Do you like to see the stars outside, Veronica?”
Mark’s voice came creeping in my head.

No!
Stop thinking about it Veronica

The way his eyes were pleading, how he begged on his knees just for his little sister to allow. The way we ran the streets in pure exhilaration, we were out of our breath, and still somehow ended up in the playground. The way it was so undeniably perfect and I could remember it exactly.

Where no one told us what to do and we had the night all to ourselves.
It seemed like a dream too real, and I wished it would never end. That it would last forever and ever.

In the end you’ll just get hurt agai-
How could I push away this very memory?
When it’s all I have!
What’s all left of him

“You promised me you’ll always be there! You swore, Mark, that you’ll never leave me alone. Saying we’ll escape our miserable lives and be free finally. YOU PROMISED” screaming at the top of my lungs.

Maybe the only promise a promise has is for it to be broken

That’s why I tried to best avoid looking at the stars.
Even if they are too beautiful, they carry the most painful memories.
Memories of what used to be good, and now so distant and far away.
That I wanted to have it again so badly but can’t and never will
The thing about them is that they are not forgotten
They just get replaced or distracted in time.

Tears were about to well up in my eyes…not this time
I had to be brave
I have to find the courage and the will to move on and live happy.
Especially right now, with my messed-up and confused feelings for Alex.
Also, for the possibility of a bright future, even though I know I won’t ever have one. I cannot kill the only hope I have left within me.
This was my promise to Mark, and it was my promise to keep, and keep I would.

Just realizing that Kellin and the rest have already arrived (also honking so loudly that it possibly woke up the whole neighbourhood). Abby was waving and smiling so warmly, as always. And Austin was motioning for me to get my ass in the car right now.

“I’ll be brave, Mark”
”I really will, no matter what”
I last glanced and silently swore before I headed down to the street and “the might be best night of my life yet”.

Well,
There’s only one way to find out.

Notes

OMFG I UPDATE TOO LATE
PLS FORGIVE ME :(
WE HAVE SUMMER SCHOOL (i know it sucks)
BUT I SWEAR THE NEXT ONES ARE GOING TO BE SO HELLA RAD