Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
Will you be there to carry me home?
Three days later.
"Have you heard anything from Alex?", Taylor asked me when we walked to out locker after math class. I noticed that every kid stared at me, and giggled, what the fuck was up?
"Yeah, we have talked everyday.", I answered and opened my locker. A bunch on notes fell out and I pulled my eyebrows together. What is this?
"What's that?", Taylor looked over my shoulder.
"I don't know.", I answered and opened one of them. "Bitch." "Slut." "Don't think you are someone just because you're dating Alex." "How long will it take for Alex to realize you're just using him for popularity?" "Emo whore.", most of them said.
"They're just jealous. Don't take it personal.", Taylor said and shook her head.
"I don't.", I said and threw them all in the trash bin. I looked behind me, and a bunch of people sneered at me. I raised my eyebrows at them.
"Do you wanna say something?", I said rude to them, but they were still quiet. "Then stop staring, and get the fuck out."
"You don't own this school, we can stand wherever we want.", a big guy said and walked closer up to me.
"No, but I can still bed you to back the fuck off, and stop staring at me, thank you.", I said, took my books, closed my locker and went to the next class. Where did all of this come from now? Did I get some 'haters', right after Alex left? Weren't they brave enough to express their opinion while he was still here? But fuck it, I'm stronger than them.
03/18/11
Dear diary.
Why am I even writing in this still? I'm 18 years old, and this is so immature. Well, I have to get out my feelings somehow.
Alex has been away for 3 days, and I miss him like hell, and the bed feels so lonely without him. He calls and text me everyday, and when he does, the distance feels bigger than ever. He his in Washington today, and probably preparing for the show right now, or messing around with Jack.
Today, I have received a lot of notes by others in school. Mostly saying emo, bitch, slut, and that I don't deserve Alex, which maybe is true, and that I'm just using him. People has been laughing, and staring at me all day, and screamed stuff to me in the hallways.
It's scary how they don't know what affects things like that can have, I mean, bullying is a big reason people kill themselves. But I'm not weak anymore, so I'm gonna show them they can't bring me down.
Well, well, I don't care about them, I will stand up for myself no matter what.
Bye.
My phone started calling, and I saw that it was my mom.
"Hello?", I said a bit annoyed.
"You sound angry, anything wrong?", she asked a bit surprised.
"No, it's nothing."
"How are you? When are you coming home?"
"I'm fine, and I think I'm staying here for a while. Alex need someone who can look after the apartment, and I need to learn how it is to live on my own.", I said, mostly lied.
"I don't think he wanted you to be alone.", she had gotten to close to Alex, and knew him really good.
"It's okey, I need some time for myself.", I said. "I gotta go, I'll see you. Bye.", I hung up. Talking to my mom now wasn't the thing I wanted most. I sighed and went to the hall and took on my shoes. Right when I was about to turn on music take on my headphones I got a text from Unknown Number. "Alex is only with you bc he doesn't want anyone to know he's gay. I mean, have you seen the way he look at Jack?", I sighed at the motherfucker who wrote it to me, and shook my head.The person sent me one more just a couple of seconds after, "I think you should let Alex see someone better, someone who is worth him, and more beautiful than you fat fuck.". Fat? I've always heard I'm underweight, never normal, or overweight. But sure, they'll regret who they called fat.
I put in my headphones, and Airplanes by B.o.B and Hayley Williams started playing and I opened the door. Not long after I got out from the building, Alex called.
"Hi.", I answered short.
"Hey sweetie, what's up?", I heard his smile.
"I'm outside for a walk, and you?"
"Chiling before the show. How's school?", of course he would ask that... But he seemed so happy, and I didn't want to bring him down, so I chose not to tell him.
"As usual, everything is boring. How's the touring?"
"It's good to be back on the road, the fans are crazy.", he giggled a little.
"It's empty without you, it's so quiet at home.", I said, but regretted it directly.
"Wendy, please go home. I don't want you to be alone, thinking about me. I'm coming back soon.", he said and I sighed.
"I can take care of myself.", I stood up for myself.
"Babe, you've been fragile since the first day I met you. Even after you got out of your depression, and if you break down again, I don't want you to be alone."
"I was alone for four years before I met you, and that went fine.", he got me upset, and I got him worried. What a surprise.
"You tried to commit suicide twice."
"I know, but I was alone for three years before the first time, I think I can handle 8 weeks.", I pointed out.
"I just don't wanna lose you. And if I ever have to, I wanna be there. I love you Wendy, that's why I begging you to go home, and get some company.", he breathed out.
"I love you too. And I'll be okey, when you get back, I will still be alive, and breathing normal.", I said. "I'm a eighteen, and can handle to live on my own. So please stop treating me like I'm 13."
"I'll stop parent you, sorry. But you have no idea how much I care about you.", he said and I sighed.
"Nothing will happen, I swear. I miss you, and I love you.", I said, trying to end the call.
"I miss, and love you too. I gotta go now, bye. I'll call you tomorrow, okey?", he made sure.
"Okey, bye.", I said and we hung up. Airplanes came back in my ears and Hayley Williams voice filled my head, in high volume.
"Have you heard anything from Alex?", Taylor asked me when we walked to out locker after math class. I noticed that every kid stared at me, and giggled, what the fuck was up?
"Yeah, we have talked everyday.", I answered and opened my locker. A bunch on notes fell out and I pulled my eyebrows together. What is this?
"What's that?", Taylor looked over my shoulder.
"I don't know.", I answered and opened one of them. "Bitch." "Slut." "Don't think you are someone just because you're dating Alex." "How long will it take for Alex to realize you're just using him for popularity?" "Emo whore.", most of them said.
"They're just jealous. Don't take it personal.", Taylor said and shook her head.
"I don't.", I said and threw them all in the trash bin. I looked behind me, and a bunch of people sneered at me. I raised my eyebrows at them.
"Do you wanna say something?", I said rude to them, but they were still quiet. "Then stop staring, and get the fuck out."
"You don't own this school, we can stand wherever we want.", a big guy said and walked closer up to me.
"No, but I can still bed you to back the fuck off, and stop staring at me, thank you.", I said, took my books, closed my locker and went to the next class. Where did all of this come from now? Did I get some 'haters', right after Alex left? Weren't they brave enough to express their opinion while he was still here? But fuck it, I'm stronger than them.
03/18/11
Dear diary.
Why am I even writing in this still? I'm 18 years old, and this is so immature. Well, I have to get out my feelings somehow.
Alex has been away for 3 days, and I miss him like hell, and the bed feels so lonely without him. He calls and text me everyday, and when he does, the distance feels bigger than ever. He his in Washington today, and probably preparing for the show right now, or messing around with Jack.
Today, I have received a lot of notes by others in school. Mostly saying emo, bitch, slut, and that I don't deserve Alex, which maybe is true, and that I'm just using him. People has been laughing, and staring at me all day, and screamed stuff to me in the hallways.
It's scary how they don't know what affects things like that can have, I mean, bullying is a big reason people kill themselves. But I'm not weak anymore, so I'm gonna show them they can't bring me down.
Well, well, I don't care about them, I will stand up for myself no matter what.
Bye.
My phone started calling, and I saw that it was my mom.
"Hello?", I said a bit annoyed.
"You sound angry, anything wrong?", she asked a bit surprised.
"No, it's nothing."
"How are you? When are you coming home?"
"I'm fine, and I think I'm staying here for a while. Alex need someone who can look after the apartment, and I need to learn how it is to live on my own.", I said, mostly lied.
"I don't think he wanted you to be alone.", she had gotten to close to Alex, and knew him really good.
"It's okey, I need some time for myself.", I said. "I gotta go, I'll see you. Bye.", I hung up. Talking to my mom now wasn't the thing I wanted most. I sighed and went to the hall and took on my shoes. Right when I was about to turn on music take on my headphones I got a text from Unknown Number. "Alex is only with you bc he doesn't want anyone to know he's gay. I mean, have you seen the way he look at Jack?", I sighed at the motherfucker who wrote it to me, and shook my head.The person sent me one more just a couple of seconds after, "I think you should let Alex see someone better, someone who is worth him, and more beautiful than you fat fuck.". Fat? I've always heard I'm underweight, never normal, or overweight. But sure, they'll regret who they called fat.
I put in my headphones, and Airplanes by B.o.B and Hayley Williams started playing and I opened the door. Not long after I got out from the building, Alex called.
"Hi.", I answered short.
"Hey sweetie, what's up?", I heard his smile.
"I'm outside for a walk, and you?"
"Chiling before the show. How's school?", of course he would ask that... But he seemed so happy, and I didn't want to bring him down, so I chose not to tell him.
"As usual, everything is boring. How's the touring?"
"It's good to be back on the road, the fans are crazy.", he giggled a little.
"It's empty without you, it's so quiet at home.", I said, but regretted it directly.
"Wendy, please go home. I don't want you to be alone, thinking about me. I'm coming back soon.", he said and I sighed.
"I can take care of myself.", I stood up for myself.
"Babe, you've been fragile since the first day I met you. Even after you got out of your depression, and if you break down again, I don't want you to be alone."
"I was alone for four years before I met you, and that went fine.", he got me upset, and I got him worried. What a surprise.
"You tried to commit suicide twice."
"I know, but I was alone for three years before the first time, I think I can handle 8 weeks.", I pointed out.
"I just don't wanna lose you. And if I ever have to, I wanna be there. I love you Wendy, that's why I begging you to go home, and get some company.", he breathed out.
"I love you too. And I'll be okey, when you get back, I will still be alive, and breathing normal.", I said. "I'm a eighteen, and can handle to live on my own. So please stop treating me like I'm 13."
"I'll stop parent you, sorry. But you have no idea how much I care about you.", he said and I sighed.
"Nothing will happen, I swear. I miss you, and I love you.", I said, trying to end the call.
"I miss, and love you too. I gotta go now, bye. I'll call you tomorrow, okey?", he made sure.
"Okey, bye.", I said and we hung up. Airplanes came back in my ears and Hayley Williams voice filled my head, in high volume.
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
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