Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
Gonna lose it
It felt like it was years ago since I fell asleep in Alex's arms. It was really cozy to have somebody near all night long. He had his arm around my shoulders, and his hand on my belly even when he slept. He wanted this, he really wanted this. Two becoming three. I didn't, I wasn't ready.
He was freaked out when he realized we had unprotected sex, and now he wasn't the same way, I did. Not that he didn't take it in cool, but he did it better than me. This was fucking hopeless. Being selfish because I was scared, or letting Alex down. I was recovering, and I had to, I just had to get pregnant.
Alex looked so peaceful when he slept. Heavy breathing, closed eyes, a flawless face, and a tight grip around me. I wrapped my right arm around his waist, and rested my head on his chest. His right hand moved to my back while he kissed my head. He was awake.
"Morning.", he mumbled in his sleepy voice. "Been awake long?"
"A couple of minutes.", I whispered back. I moved my head to the pillow again. He began to twirl my hair, as he kissed my lips.
"Is anyone else awake?", he murmured onto my lips as they still were touching his.
"I don't think so.", I answered. "I haven't heard anything.", he grinned and laid on top of me. He started kissing me again, while his hands walked up under my t-shirt. First on my stomach, then to my breast where they stayed. I twisted my fingers into his messy morning hair. He slid his tongue on my under lip, and I opened for him. Our tongues fought about the dominance, when I finally won, he slowly took off my shirt.
He broke the kiss, and went down to my jaw, and then my neck. I moaned when he sucked, and then but me gently a couple of times.
He went longer down to my collarbone, and was on his way to pull down the bra strap when I stopped him.
"Not now.", I teased him. I pulled up the strap in a quick move. Alex looked up on me.
"Oh come on, that was mean.", he sighed, a little annoyed because I let him go that far. I smirked, and he laid next to me again. "Have you thought anything about the baby?", his voice went lower.
"Yeah, and ma-"
"Did you just say the B-word?!", the curtain pulled away, and a Barakat with morning hair stared at us. Perfect, just perfect. A cold feeling settled in my stomach. "Don't give me those fucking eyes, Wends. I'm the only one awake, calm the heck down. Now tell me, am I going to be uncle Jack?", he sat down on his knees, leaned his elbows on the bed with his chin on his hands. He smiled geeky at us.
"You didn't hear a fucking shit, okey?", I hissed at him, angry for listening. His smile turned into a smirk.
"Are you sure about this? It sounds like your girlfriend has PMS.", he said to Alex, who shook his head.
"Don't joke about this, Jack. Please. We're not sure about keeping it, so shut the fuck up about it, promise?", Alex went really serious. He stopped smirking, and got a serious face too.
"Okay, okay. I'll leave you alone, and I'll plug in my headphones. Sorry.", he apologized, closed the curtain, and went back to his bunk. We waited one minute before we continued the conversation just to be sure.
"You want this, right? And I'm not sure, but mostly I don't, and we're two in this. We have to decide together.", I whispered quiet, and Alex turned his head down. "Please don't put all this on me."
"Yes, a part of me want this, I can see our little family being happy, and it looks so perfect, and happily. The other sees the consequences, and thinks that we maybe will be better off alone until we're ready for real.
You decide first, then we'll do the choice together.", he said, and looked at me again.
"Cool.", I nodded. I reached for my phone, to check the time. It was only 9 am. I yawned at the thought how early it was.
"Are you a little tired, love?", Alex said in his English accent. I stack out my tongue for him, and smiled.
"Maybe.", I answered, and he pulled me closer.
"Get some more sleep then.", he whispered in my hair. I closed my eyes, and tried to relax. I was exhausted, but after being awake for a while made it harder to fall asleep.
After 15 minutes I heard Alex begin to snore quietly. I opened my eyes careful, and he had his eyes closed.
"I love you.", no sound came out of my mouth, but my lips moved along to the words. His grip around me wasn't as hard as it was when he was awake, so I could easily tangle myself out without waking him. I climbed up to my bunk to get some space. I tucked myself in under the sheet, and grabbed my phone from the charger. The headphones was already plugged in, so all I had to do was to put them in my ears. I pressed 'shuffle' on my playlist, and blink-182's Dammit intro filled my head. My two weeks had just started, and I already felt broken.
He was freaked out when he realized we had unprotected sex, and now he wasn't the same way, I did. Not that he didn't take it in cool, but he did it better than me. This was fucking hopeless. Being selfish because I was scared, or letting Alex down. I was recovering, and I had to, I just had to get pregnant.
Alex looked so peaceful when he slept. Heavy breathing, closed eyes, a flawless face, and a tight grip around me. I wrapped my right arm around his waist, and rested my head on his chest. His right hand moved to my back while he kissed my head. He was awake.
"Morning.", he mumbled in his sleepy voice. "Been awake long?"
"A couple of minutes.", I whispered back. I moved my head to the pillow again. He began to twirl my hair, as he kissed my lips.
"Is anyone else awake?", he murmured onto my lips as they still were touching his.
"I don't think so.", I answered. "I haven't heard anything.", he grinned and laid on top of me. He started kissing me again, while his hands walked up under my t-shirt. First on my stomach, then to my breast where they stayed. I twisted my fingers into his messy morning hair. He slid his tongue on my under lip, and I opened for him. Our tongues fought about the dominance, when I finally won, he slowly took off my shirt.
He broke the kiss, and went down to my jaw, and then my neck. I moaned when he sucked, and then but me gently a couple of times.
He went longer down to my collarbone, and was on his way to pull down the bra strap when I stopped him.
"Not now.", I teased him. I pulled up the strap in a quick move. Alex looked up on me.
"Oh come on, that was mean.", he sighed, a little annoyed because I let him go that far. I smirked, and he laid next to me again. "Have you thought anything about the baby?", his voice went lower.
"Yeah, and ma-"
"Did you just say the B-word?!", the curtain pulled away, and a Barakat with morning hair stared at us. Perfect, just perfect. A cold feeling settled in my stomach. "Don't give me those fucking eyes, Wends. I'm the only one awake, calm the heck down. Now tell me, am I going to be uncle Jack?", he sat down on his knees, leaned his elbows on the bed with his chin on his hands. He smiled geeky at us.
"You didn't hear a fucking shit, okey?", I hissed at him, angry for listening. His smile turned into a smirk.
"Are you sure about this? It sounds like your girlfriend has PMS.", he said to Alex, who shook his head.
"Don't joke about this, Jack. Please. We're not sure about keeping it, so shut the fuck up about it, promise?", Alex went really serious. He stopped smirking, and got a serious face too.
"Okay, okay. I'll leave you alone, and I'll plug in my headphones. Sorry.", he apologized, closed the curtain, and went back to his bunk. We waited one minute before we continued the conversation just to be sure.
"You want this, right? And I'm not sure, but mostly I don't, and we're two in this. We have to decide together.", I whispered quiet, and Alex turned his head down. "Please don't put all this on me."
"Yes, a part of me want this, I can see our little family being happy, and it looks so perfect, and happily. The other sees the consequences, and thinks that we maybe will be better off alone until we're ready for real.
You decide first, then we'll do the choice together.", he said, and looked at me again.
"Cool.", I nodded. I reached for my phone, to check the time. It was only 9 am. I yawned at the thought how early it was.
"Are you a little tired, love?", Alex said in his English accent. I stack out my tongue for him, and smiled.
"Maybe.", I answered, and he pulled me closer.
"Get some more sleep then.", he whispered in my hair. I closed my eyes, and tried to relax. I was exhausted, but after being awake for a while made it harder to fall asleep.
After 15 minutes I heard Alex begin to snore quietly. I opened my eyes careful, and he had his eyes closed.
"I love you.", no sound came out of my mouth, but my lips moved along to the words. His grip around me wasn't as hard as it was when he was awake, so I could easily tangle myself out without waking him. I climbed up to my bunk to get some space. I tucked myself in under the sheet, and grabbed my phone from the charger. The headphones was already plugged in, so all I had to do was to put them in my ears. I pressed 'shuffle' on my playlist, and blink-182's Dammit intro filled my head. My two weeks had just started, and I already felt broken.
Notes
Ehm, hi...?I've been away for some time, and I can't really say I'm 100% back. I've written on this like in one week and it wasn't even 1000 words. I'm not any better, but I have more people around me who helps.
well, this sucked, anyway, enjoy. Have a nice day.
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
7/5/16