Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
Now's all we got, and time can't be bought
I forced myself to turn my head up, and face the facts. It looked like Alex died or something, he was pale, and didn't move. When he stared at the sticks, it looked like he stared at nothing. He barley breathed. He held the two sticks in his hands, and I quickly looked at them. Enough to see the answer.
Positive.
I froze. I couldn't breathe, and for the first time in two weeks, I longed for the razors. Maybe not to cut, but to just have them in my hand, knowing I'll have them there. I climbed down from the bunk, and went to the couch. I laid down, and just let the thoughts flash through my mind. We're having a baby? Oh perfect. We're gonna be parents, having a family. We're not even living together, or get along about what kind of pet we want.
I so wanted to cry right now, just let everything flow out. I pressed my hands to my closed eyes, and felt a cold hand on my shoulder. I rubbed it away.
"Alex, stop.", I sobbed shaky, and removed my hands and looked him. He looked really shocked. His face was now red instead of white, his breaths was shaky too. I sat up and hugged him. He had more problems dealing with situations like this than I. "Sorry", I mumbled, and he leaned his forehead to my shoulder.
"Remember, we're two in this. You won't be alone.", he said, and hugged me back. "But it wasn't expected.", he was really nervous, and I heard his anxiety.
"I don't want a kid. Not now. I really don't want a little baby.", I slipped out. I didn't need to keep it, but abortion? Matte that option was thinkable when you didn't have anything to believe in. We had things to believe in, but I didn't want to become an adult now, and I had just started my life. How the fuck was I supposed to feel a little thing that was fragile loved, if I couldn't love myself enough? One hour on the bus, and I already had a breakdown. Perfect.
"It's all your choice what you want to do. It's not my body, so my opinion doesn't matter, but I'm gonna support you. Always.", Alex catchphrases was the same, but still good. But how the fuck were I supposed to pick if I wanted one more life on earth or not. We let go, and I kissed Alex nose. His breath was going faster, and I held his hands.
"Baby breathe. Just breathe. Everything's okey, remember that.", I looked in his eyes, trying to stay strong. "Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out.", I demonstrated to him, and he did as I said. He started to get his natural face color slowly.
When his redness was faded away, he tried to smile. We pressed our foreheads to each other.
"I love you.", I said, and I think I saw a real smile.
"I love you too.", he replied, and kissed me. I felt that he put some more passion in the kiss, not wanting it to end. I put my hands on his neck, and tried to stretch my back, so I could be a little longer. He laid a hand on my leg, confessing he just wanted to cuddle. I tried to climb up in his lap without breaking the kiss.
"Maybe we should go to the bunk, and watch a movie or something?", Alex broke the kiss.
"Sounds good.", I said, and we went to Alex's bunk. He put the blanket over us, and took out his laptop.
"I have James Bond, some romantic comedy, The Notebook, don't ask why please, some other movies I've never heard of, and some horror. It's up to you.", he smiled at me, putting his arm around my shoulders.
"Let's try The Green Hornet.", I said, and he put in on.
Halfway through the movie, we both had laughed so much our stomachs had hurt, and forgot a minute about the pregnancy. That was when the others came back, if they only knew what they had missed.
"Before anything else," Jack pulled the curtain to the bunk aside. "I'm not I interested how much sex you had."
"Did you bring food?", Alex ignored his question, and paused the movie.
"Yeah, it's in the kitchen.", Mickey passed us. Alex gave me questioning eyes, and we went up. I put on hot pants and Alex a shirt. Two paper boxes stood on the counter, and I grabbed one with a fork and knife. Alex did the same, and we sat down at the table. Sienna came back with Rian besides her, they were laughing at something.
"Hi Wends, did you have a good time?", she winked at me. I stack out my tongue for her.
"Yeah. How was the dinner?", I answered, not going into details, and opened the box. Italian. It was pasta carbonara. Alex opened his too, and it was the same.
"It was really fun. These guys have some great humor, and I'm sure these coming weeks will be great.", she smirked at me, and went to the living room. I was really hungry, so I almost threw the food in my mouth.
"God Wendy, were you hungry?", Alex asked me, and looked shocked at me.
"Starving.", I answered, and chewed.
"Why didn't you tell me? You can't go hungry, and not so long that you're starving.", he said, and gave me worrying eyes. "I mean, think about the ch-"
"Don't you even dare Alexander.", I didn't use his full name at all, just a few times. He wanted to keep the kid. The half sentence said it all. He knew I didn't want to, or that I wasn't sure, and he also said it was my choice. This was so overreacting of me, but the thought of that he also almost said it in front of the other made me angry. "One word about that when they can hear, and I fucking swear to god I'm killing you.", I leaned over the table and whispered to him.
"Wow, calm down baby. It just slipped out, I didn't mean to.", he backed off. "Forget it. I just don't want you to starve, for your own safety.", I twirled my fork around in the pasta again, and put it my mouth, glaring at him.
We ate in silence the rest of our dinner, and surprisingly I ate up everything. But of course it felt like I could throw it all up in a second. I was more full up than I ever been, and I really hoped that the bus ride wouldn't make me sick. Me and Alex went to the everyone else in the living room, or it was only Sienna, Rian, and Jack there, the others were in their bunk. We settled down on each outer corner of the couch, and Jack would of course comment.
"Cold bitches!", he grinned at us. "You were pretty quiet though, amazingly.", he chewed his gum.
"Oh, shut the fuck up Jack.", I glared at him, and Sienna looked confused.
"What's going on? What are you talking about?", she looked at us three. Rian didn't care so much about it, I bet he was used by now.
"It's fucking easy to notice when they have been fighting, or almost. Because it always gets like this, they don't talk, and sometimes pissed off.", Jack giggled at us two, and I just couldn't stand him in moments like this.
"Jack, just fucking drop it!", he made me more furious, than Alex did, so I had to shout at him. I just found out that I was pregnant, so they wouldn't find me cool until I melted it. I went to my bunk, and climbed up with my computer.
"Do they fight a lot?", Sienna asked, when Alex's curtain pulled over under me. I did the same.
"I don't know, but maybe once in two weeks maybe. But they solve it pretty fast.", why the fuck did he think he knew us so fucking good? Our fights was none if his business, at all. Before they could say anything else, I pulled in my headphones, and blasted Sleeping With Sirens. A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son. It was so fucking perfect.
In the middle of the song, I received a text from Alex.
"Baby reach out your hand. I love you", I shook my head at his text. I put my computer on the pillow, and laid on my belly. I reached down my arm for Alex, and he grabbed my hand tight. My phone vibrated again.
"Please come down. I want to cuddle."
"Yeah, it looked like you really got into that movie.", I texted back, smacked my laptop together, and went down to my boyfriend. I crawled down under the sheets with him, and he kissed my cheek.
"After-fighting-cuddle is just so much better than ordinary.", he whispered, and put a hand on my belly.
"Alex, texting is not romantic.", I whispered back, with a little giggle.
"I'm always romantic.", he winked, and I turned my head to him, so I could kiss him. "And it wasn't just the movie, I promise, but I really wanna watch it until the end.", he picked up his laptop, and started the movie again.
Positive.
I froze. I couldn't breathe, and for the first time in two weeks, I longed for the razors. Maybe not to cut, but to just have them in my hand, knowing I'll have them there. I climbed down from the bunk, and went to the couch. I laid down, and just let the thoughts flash through my mind. We're having a baby? Oh perfect. We're gonna be parents, having a family. We're not even living together, or get along about what kind of pet we want.
I so wanted to cry right now, just let everything flow out. I pressed my hands to my closed eyes, and felt a cold hand on my shoulder. I rubbed it away.
"Alex, stop.", I sobbed shaky, and removed my hands and looked him. He looked really shocked. His face was now red instead of white, his breaths was shaky too. I sat up and hugged him. He had more problems dealing with situations like this than I. "Sorry", I mumbled, and he leaned his forehead to my shoulder.
"Remember, we're two in this. You won't be alone.", he said, and hugged me back. "But it wasn't expected.", he was really nervous, and I heard his anxiety.
"I don't want a kid. Not now. I really don't want a little baby.", I slipped out. I didn't need to keep it, but abortion? Matte that option was thinkable when you didn't have anything to believe in. We had things to believe in, but I didn't want to become an adult now, and I had just started my life. How the fuck was I supposed to feel a little thing that was fragile loved, if I couldn't love myself enough? One hour on the bus, and I already had a breakdown. Perfect.
"It's all your choice what you want to do. It's not my body, so my opinion doesn't matter, but I'm gonna support you. Always.", Alex catchphrases was the same, but still good. But how the fuck were I supposed to pick if I wanted one more life on earth or not. We let go, and I kissed Alex nose. His breath was going faster, and I held his hands.
"Baby breathe. Just breathe. Everything's okey, remember that.", I looked in his eyes, trying to stay strong. "Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out.", I demonstrated to him, and he did as I said. He started to get his natural face color slowly.
When his redness was faded away, he tried to smile. We pressed our foreheads to each other.
"I love you.", I said, and I think I saw a real smile.
"I love you too.", he replied, and kissed me. I felt that he put some more passion in the kiss, not wanting it to end. I put my hands on his neck, and tried to stretch my back, so I could be a little longer. He laid a hand on my leg, confessing he just wanted to cuddle. I tried to climb up in his lap without breaking the kiss.
"Maybe we should go to the bunk, and watch a movie or something?", Alex broke the kiss.
"Sounds good.", I said, and we went to Alex's bunk. He put the blanket over us, and took out his laptop.
"I have James Bond, some romantic comedy, The Notebook, don't ask why please, some other movies I've never heard of, and some horror. It's up to you.", he smiled at me, putting his arm around my shoulders.
"Let's try The Green Hornet.", I said, and he put in on.
Halfway through the movie, we both had laughed so much our stomachs had hurt, and forgot a minute about the pregnancy. That was when the others came back, if they only knew what they had missed.
"Before anything else," Jack pulled the curtain to the bunk aside. "I'm not I interested how much sex you had."
"Did you bring food?", Alex ignored his question, and paused the movie.
"Yeah, it's in the kitchen.", Mickey passed us. Alex gave me questioning eyes, and we went up. I put on hot pants and Alex a shirt. Two paper boxes stood on the counter, and I grabbed one with a fork and knife. Alex did the same, and we sat down at the table. Sienna came back with Rian besides her, they were laughing at something.
"Hi Wends, did you have a good time?", she winked at me. I stack out my tongue for her.
"Yeah. How was the dinner?", I answered, not going into details, and opened the box. Italian. It was pasta carbonara. Alex opened his too, and it was the same.
"It was really fun. These guys have some great humor, and I'm sure these coming weeks will be great.", she smirked at me, and went to the living room. I was really hungry, so I almost threw the food in my mouth.
"God Wendy, were you hungry?", Alex asked me, and looked shocked at me.
"Starving.", I answered, and chewed.
"Why didn't you tell me? You can't go hungry, and not so long that you're starving.", he said, and gave me worrying eyes. "I mean, think about the ch-"
"Don't you even dare Alexander.", I didn't use his full name at all, just a few times. He wanted to keep the kid. The half sentence said it all. He knew I didn't want to, or that I wasn't sure, and he also said it was my choice. This was so overreacting of me, but the thought of that he also almost said it in front of the other made me angry. "One word about that when they can hear, and I fucking swear to god I'm killing you.", I leaned over the table and whispered to him.
"Wow, calm down baby. It just slipped out, I didn't mean to.", he backed off. "Forget it. I just don't want you to starve, for your own safety.", I twirled my fork around in the pasta again, and put it my mouth, glaring at him.
We ate in silence the rest of our dinner, and surprisingly I ate up everything. But of course it felt like I could throw it all up in a second. I was more full up than I ever been, and I really hoped that the bus ride wouldn't make me sick. Me and Alex went to the everyone else in the living room, or it was only Sienna, Rian, and Jack there, the others were in their bunk. We settled down on each outer corner of the couch, and Jack would of course comment.
"Cold bitches!", he grinned at us. "You were pretty quiet though, amazingly.", he chewed his gum.
"Oh, shut the fuck up Jack.", I glared at him, and Sienna looked confused.
"What's going on? What are you talking about?", she looked at us three. Rian didn't care so much about it, I bet he was used by now.
"It's fucking easy to notice when they have been fighting, or almost. Because it always gets like this, they don't talk, and sometimes pissed off.", Jack giggled at us two, and I just couldn't stand him in moments like this.
"Jack, just fucking drop it!", he made me more furious, than Alex did, so I had to shout at him. I just found out that I was pregnant, so they wouldn't find me cool until I melted it. I went to my bunk, and climbed up with my computer.
"Do they fight a lot?", Sienna asked, when Alex's curtain pulled over under me. I did the same.
"I don't know, but maybe once in two weeks maybe. But they solve it pretty fast.", why the fuck did he think he knew us so fucking good? Our fights was none if his business, at all. Before they could say anything else, I pulled in my headphones, and blasted Sleeping With Sirens. A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son. It was so fucking perfect.
In the middle of the song, I received a text from Alex.
"Baby reach out your hand. I love you", I shook my head at his text. I put my computer on the pillow, and laid on my belly. I reached down my arm for Alex, and he grabbed my hand tight. My phone vibrated again.
"Please come down. I want to cuddle."
"Yeah, it looked like you really got into that movie.", I texted back, smacked my laptop together, and went down to my boyfriend. I crawled down under the sheets with him, and he kissed my cheek.
"After-fighting-cuddle is just so much better than ordinary.", he whispered, and put a hand on my belly.
"Alex, texting is not romantic.", I whispered back, with a little giggle.
"I'm always romantic.", he winked, and I turned my head to him, so I could kiss him. "And it wasn't just the movie, I promise, but I really wanna watch it until the end.", he picked up his laptop, and started the movie again.
Notes
SCHOOL'S BACK! And I started in a music class, and I love my class! Seriously the best shit that have ever happened to me, so ily guys.Hope you like this, sorry for waiting.
And also, my English teacher are forcing my class to write a long story, with chapters and so. And we get to pick the storyline. THAT'S WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING MY WHOLE SUMMER!!! So either I'm gonna write Jalex or Kellic...
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
7/5/16