The Remains of my Wasted Youth
016
Rebecca’s POV
Continues on from 015
“It wasn’t your fault.” I hear a voice from behind me. I turn round shocked to see who’s standing there.
“Y-you remember?” I stutter. The boy walks over and sits down facing me.
“Of course I remember Rebecca, I’ve never forgotten.” He says picking up my hand. I allow him to take my hand and hold it.
“Really?” I question staring at him as the tears silent flow down my face.
“Really.” He confirms. “After you left, I went to his grave a lot, left flowers on anniversaries, birthdays and Christmases for you and took care of it, no weeds or anything.” He says leaning over and wiping the tears.
“You didn’t have to do that.” I reply in shock.
“Of course I did. I wasn’t able to take care of his little girl for him, the next best thing was to take care of the grave for you.” He says looking down at our hands.
“Max…”
“Besides, I owed it to you and him, especially after cutting off contact.” He sighs pulling his hand away from mine and running it through his hair.
“Hey, none of that now, I understand why you done that so let’s just forget it yeah.” I say grabbing his hand again. He nods before looking up at me.
“Now, tell me what you are doing out here alone, especially on days like today.” He asks gently stroking my hand with his thumb. Suddenly the tears well up in my eye again as I remember.
“Alex forgot and when I tried to talk to him he was too busy on the phone and snapped at me so I got up and left.” I explain. Suddenly I feel Max squeeze my hand and start to get up.
“Okay first he forgets and then he snaps at you, maybe I should go have a word.” Max explains before I pull him back down next to me.
“No don’t. It don’t matter that he forgot, it’s nothing to do with him anyway, it’s my past and he doesn’t have to remember and be there for me 24/7.” I mumble, biting my lip to stop tears. Max’s face softens as he pulls me into a hug.
“Rebecca, he’s your boyfriend. He’s meant to be there for you 24/7, especially on days like today, when you love someone that much nothing else should matter and you should remember everything.” He explains hugging me. I’m pretty sure I heard something along the lines of ‘I would’, but I was probably hearing things. I noticed that people were starting to walk by now and were soon gonna ask what was going on.
“Max can we please go somewhere private to talk.” I say looking around. He nods before standing up and grabbing my hand, dragging me over to his bus. We stop on and he walks through the entire bus before coming back to me.
“Just us, now tell me, how are you?” he questions sitting on the sofa and patting next to him.
“To be honest Max, I’m just, I feel so empty.” I reply sitting next to him.
“All the memories?” he asks frowning.
I nod. “I just miss him so much, I want him to be here with me and I feel like it is all my fault.” I explain.
“Oh Rebecca.” He says pulling me into his arms and hugging me tight running a hand through my hair. I start crying in his arms, tears pouring from my face.
“Shhh, let it out.” Comforts Max.
“I just miss him so much Max, I want him back, I just want him back!” I cry, sobs racking my body, my head buried into Max’s chest as he rocks me back and forth. Slowly my mind starts to drift as my eyes droop from all the tears. I don’t know when but I drift off then and there in Max’s arms.
Max’s POV
It had been three hours. Three hours since Rebecca had passed out into my arms after crying. What had I done? I had let her stay in my arms, not wanting to disturb her and wake her up just to feel more pain. I had sat still for a while, casually running my hand through her hair and thinking.
How could Alex forget about what today was? Today was the day Rebecca needed him the most and he was a douchebag. I sigh getting my phone out and begin scrolling through twitter when the front door opens causing me to look up.
“You Max I- Woah…whats going on here?” questions Josh looking at me and Rebecca,
“I guess you know what today is.” I say staring at him. Suddenly his face drops and his eyes flicker to Rebecca before flickering back to me.
“How’s she doing?” he questions sitting down on the couch opposite us.
“Considering everything? Shes holding up.” I reply staring down at the sleeping girl.
“Quick question, why is she here though?” he questions raising an eyebrow.
“Alex forgot.” His eyes widen in shock at my remark.
“Shit, really?” I nod and run a hand through her hair when there’s a banging at the door.
Me and Josh look up confused before Josh stands up and opens the door.
“Where is she?” comes the angry voice from the door. Suddenly Josh is pushed out the way and an angry Alex comes storming onto the bus.
“WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?” Shouts Alex staring down at the sleepy Rebecca in my eyes.
Slowly her eyes snap open and she sits up, obviously startled by Alex shouting.
“Whats going?” she questions rubbing her eyes and looking between me, Josh and Alex.
“Oh nothing, just me being told that my girlfriend was apparently snuggling up with someone out on the green and then seen walking off to his bus with him on their own!” Shouts Alex.
“What?” Shouts Rebecca standing up.
“You heard me, now tell me what’s going on here?!” Yells Alex. Rebecca stares at him for a second.
“What’s the date today?” Rebecca asks Alex calmly.
Alex stares at her for a second before questioning “What does that have to do with anything?”
“Just look at the date.” She says calmly staring at him. Alex huffs before getting his phone out
and clicking to see the date. Suddenly his face drops and his eyes widen as he looks up at Rebecca.
“Rebecca, I didn’t realise…I” he steps forward and Rebecca takes a step back. “Baby.”
“Don’t.” she says staring at him. “First you forget what today is that I need you, then when I’m trying to tell you you just dismiss me like a child and now you accuse me of something? Really Alex? I think you should go for now.” She says staring at him.
“Rebecca I am sorry sorry.” He says tears welling up in his eyes.
“I’m gonna stay here tonight and will be back in the morning.” She says before turning to a silent Josh and myself. “That’s if you two are okay with that?” she questions.
Josh steps forward and speaks “of course you can Becz.” He smiles weakly and she nods before turning back to Alex.
“We will talk tomorrow.” She tells him. He nods before walking to the door, he turns round to look at Rebecca.
“I love you.” He mumbles before leaving the bus. She turns back to me and collapses in my arms crying.
“I hate this day.” She mumbles before walking towards the back of the bus.
Continues on from 015
“It wasn’t your fault.” I hear a voice from behind me. I turn round shocked to see who’s standing there.
“Y-you remember?” I stutter. The boy walks over and sits down facing me.
“Of course I remember Rebecca, I’ve never forgotten.” He says picking up my hand. I allow him to take my hand and hold it.
“Really?” I question staring at him as the tears silent flow down my face.
“Really.” He confirms. “After you left, I went to his grave a lot, left flowers on anniversaries, birthdays and Christmases for you and took care of it, no weeds or anything.” He says leaning over and wiping the tears.
“You didn’t have to do that.” I reply in shock.
“Of course I did. I wasn’t able to take care of his little girl for him, the next best thing was to take care of the grave for you.” He says looking down at our hands.
“Max…”
“Besides, I owed it to you and him, especially after cutting off contact.” He sighs pulling his hand away from mine and running it through his hair.
“Hey, none of that now, I understand why you done that so let’s just forget it yeah.” I say grabbing his hand again. He nods before looking up at me.
“Now, tell me what you are doing out here alone, especially on days like today.” He asks gently stroking my hand with his thumb. Suddenly the tears well up in my eye again as I remember.
“Alex forgot and when I tried to talk to him he was too busy on the phone and snapped at me so I got up and left.” I explain. Suddenly I feel Max squeeze my hand and start to get up.
“Okay first he forgets and then he snaps at you, maybe I should go have a word.” Max explains before I pull him back down next to me.
“No don’t. It don’t matter that he forgot, it’s nothing to do with him anyway, it’s my past and he doesn’t have to remember and be there for me 24/7.” I mumble, biting my lip to stop tears. Max’s face softens as he pulls me into a hug.
“Rebecca, he’s your boyfriend. He’s meant to be there for you 24/7, especially on days like today, when you love someone that much nothing else should matter and you should remember everything.” He explains hugging me. I’m pretty sure I heard something along the lines of ‘I would’, but I was probably hearing things. I noticed that people were starting to walk by now and were soon gonna ask what was going on.
“Max can we please go somewhere private to talk.” I say looking around. He nods before standing up and grabbing my hand, dragging me over to his bus. We stop on and he walks through the entire bus before coming back to me.
“Just us, now tell me, how are you?” he questions sitting on the sofa and patting next to him.
“To be honest Max, I’m just, I feel so empty.” I reply sitting next to him.
“All the memories?” he asks frowning.
I nod. “I just miss him so much, I want him to be here with me and I feel like it is all my fault.” I explain.
“Oh Rebecca.” He says pulling me into his arms and hugging me tight running a hand through my hair. I start crying in his arms, tears pouring from my face.
“Shhh, let it out.” Comforts Max.
“I just miss him so much Max, I want him back, I just want him back!” I cry, sobs racking my body, my head buried into Max’s chest as he rocks me back and forth. Slowly my mind starts to drift as my eyes droop from all the tears. I don’t know when but I drift off then and there in Max’s arms.
Max’s POV
It had been three hours. Three hours since Rebecca had passed out into my arms after crying. What had I done? I had let her stay in my arms, not wanting to disturb her and wake her up just to feel more pain. I had sat still for a while, casually running my hand through her hair and thinking.
How could Alex forget about what today was? Today was the day Rebecca needed him the most and he was a douchebag. I sigh getting my phone out and begin scrolling through twitter when the front door opens causing me to look up.
“You Max I- Woah…whats going on here?” questions Josh looking at me and Rebecca,
“I guess you know what today is.” I say staring at him. Suddenly his face drops and his eyes flicker to Rebecca before flickering back to me.
“How’s she doing?” he questions sitting down on the couch opposite us.
“Considering everything? Shes holding up.” I reply staring down at the sleeping girl.
“Quick question, why is she here though?” he questions raising an eyebrow.
“Alex forgot.” His eyes widen in shock at my remark.
“Shit, really?” I nod and run a hand through her hair when there’s a banging at the door.
Me and Josh look up confused before Josh stands up and opens the door.
“Where is she?” comes the angry voice from the door. Suddenly Josh is pushed out the way and an angry Alex comes storming onto the bus.
“WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE?” Shouts Alex staring down at the sleepy Rebecca in my eyes.
Slowly her eyes snap open and she sits up, obviously startled by Alex shouting.
“Whats going?” she questions rubbing her eyes and looking between me, Josh and Alex.
“Oh nothing, just me being told that my girlfriend was apparently snuggling up with someone out on the green and then seen walking off to his bus with him on their own!” Shouts Alex.
“What?” Shouts Rebecca standing up.
“You heard me, now tell me what’s going on here?!” Yells Alex. Rebecca stares at him for a second.
“What’s the date today?” Rebecca asks Alex calmly.
Alex stares at her for a second before questioning “What does that have to do with anything?”
“Just look at the date.” She says calmly staring at him. Alex huffs before getting his phone out
and clicking to see the date. Suddenly his face drops and his eyes widen as he looks up at Rebecca.
“Rebecca, I didn’t realise…I” he steps forward and Rebecca takes a step back. “Baby.”
“Don’t.” she says staring at him. “First you forget what today is that I need you, then when I’m trying to tell you you just dismiss me like a child and now you accuse me of something? Really Alex? I think you should go for now.” She says staring at him.
“Rebecca I am sorry sorry.” He says tears welling up in his eyes.
“I’m gonna stay here tonight and will be back in the morning.” She says before turning to a silent Josh and myself. “That’s if you two are okay with that?” she questions.
Josh steps forward and speaks “of course you can Becz.” He smiles weakly and she nods before turning back to Alex.
“We will talk tomorrow.” She tells him. He nods before walking to the door, he turns round to look at Rebecca.
“I love you.” He mumbles before leaving the bus. She turns back to me and collapses in my arms crying.
“I hate this day.” She mumbles before walking towards the back of the bus.
Notes
This is dedicated to @ALLTIMEFAN and @Ellsxo_ who inspired me to do this chapter and making me believe someone still wanted to read this shit. So I really didn't want this to become some twilight bullshit but I am starting to ship Rebecca and Max!!
Let me know your thoughts!
I just started reading a few days ago, and I'd def read more! Love it!
2/28/17